ivankiss

Witness The Unthinkable

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Alright... false alarm. 

I see the way, bright and clear.

Staying where I am for the winter, unless life spits me out on its own. Doubling down on everything that I'm already doing (except stagnating) and slowly but surely improving on all levels. I did not come this far just to start over again. I'm fucking seeing this through. But also, minimizing martyrdom. It's not like anyone cares about the depth of my suffering, and I have already achieved maximum superhero charisma anyways.

 


 

 

 

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Cha-cha loves me more and more, that's for sure. And it's not just because I'm feeding him an ungodly amount of chicken, I swear. He totally digs my energy. And I kind of like him too. Even though he's a cat and not a dog, and I do not actually believe in owning pets.


 

 

 

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The two 'classical' pieces that I wrote recently are still absolute bangers. With or without weed. I swear. 

Yes, they're slow and gentle and ethereal, but there's also some seriously advanced technique going on underneath it all. A perfect blend of "hey look at me I excell at this shit" and "don't you worry we all go to heaven when this ends". Yes, I composed it all from scratch, and every single note is placed where it is with utmost care and attention, and yes I still need to practice both pieces just a little bit more before I'm actually ready to record and release them for you all to attain your orgasms. Give me another few weeks, please. I'm getting there.

The hype is real. I'm sure all 26 loyal followers of mine will love it.


 

 

 

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Oh and btw, you should all stop reading this nonsense, really. I am getting seriously high on these imaginary views. Makes me feel like I already have a huge audience, and clearly, I don't. I know it's all just bots.


 

 

 

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Wow. Looks like I became physically incapable of consuming pornography. I was not planning on stopping, I swear. I just cannot move past the dumb look in the eyes of those stupid bitches. I cannot ignore the retardation factor. Their stupidity turns me off far more violently than their bodies turn me on. 

I used to watch mostly solo masturbation shows, and I also liked seeing chicks getting fucked by one of those fuck machines. Because who in their right mind would wanna watch other dudes dicks and balls and hairy assholes while they're fucking those dumb bitches, like absolute amateurs... But now I cannot even watch chicks going solo anymore. I feel the deep shame and self disgust that they cannot feel.

It's rather sad, really. For me, not them, obviously.

Also, I cannot believe I'm saying this, but I have little to no interest in sex these days too. Its like I just had enough of it. It's not that cool anymore. Not that exciting.

My brainz are too big and I became too damn conscious. That's just how it is.

Sorry ladies.


 

 

 

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Jk I know it's mostly because I stopped smoking weed.

I still get rock hard if I think about something that turns me on. But I guess I have just become extremely picky. I cannot lie to myself anymore in favour of busting a nut.

Also, I never dated a metal/goth/musician chick, ever before. Not even someone with any sense of purpose or general direction in life. I'm sure if a girl like that was to come my way, I'd change my mind pretty quick.


 

 

 

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I should be losing my mind over this hippy cougar lady. She's everything I was dreaming of as a teenager. But I'm just not into it, for whatever reason. She wants it far more than I do. It's a completely new thing for me.


 

 

 

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Being half trapped in survival mode might have something to do with it as well.


 

 

 

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There's no reason, there's no compromise
Change in seasons, living the high life
I don't know you, so don't freak on me
I can't control you, you're not my destiny

I'll confess this: you're my tragedy
I laid you to rest just as fast as you turned on me
Gone forever, banished the memories
This place of pleasure are masked by your misery

 


 

 

 

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Straight out of line, I can't find a reason
Why I should justify my ways
Straight out of line, I don't need a reason
You don't need to lie to me

 

Lie to me


 

 

 

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Not only did I cut out weed and porn completely, but I also stopped drinking coffee and minimized my sugar intake. Hence the doubling down on psychotic behaviour. 

Not bragging. Just saying.


 

 

 

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It's not just me who's not ready yet. It's the entire world. 

None of you can possibly prepare for what's coming. Not in a million years.


 

 

 

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And don't worry. If Leo bans me before it happens, you will hear all about it on the news.


 

 

 

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1 hour ago, ivankiss said:

And don't worry. If Leo bans me before it happens, you will hear all about it on the news.

fam, what are you planning to do

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