Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

In case you are new here... I do nothing by the books. 

[ivankiss]

In spite of all this pain you've caused, you must know that you were special. Important. Wanted and needed. Appreciated. Admired. Loved. 

A lot of fucked up shit went down, and some of it is really hard to forgive, but your beauty and your light did not go unnoticed. I know you deeper than you think. 

 

[ivankiss]

At the end of the day, it's all fantasy, all delusion. Nothing has ever happened, at all. 

[ivankiss]

If I don't become rich and famous this summer, I'm buying you all a drink. 

Wait... no, the other way around. 

[ivankiss]

Of course I'm aiming for the absolute top now. What you think I'm gonna let all that pain and suffering be for nothing? 

Oh no. I'm not settling for anything less than what I know I deserve. 

The top. 

[ivankiss]

Relax. You are already God. 

[ivankiss]

Not sure if I'm keeping a journal to stay sane, or if keeping a journal is making me insane. 

[ivankiss]

Jk that duality collapsed long ago. 

[ivankiss]

God I love UK girls. They're so easy I mean fun. 

[ivankiss]

Jk I don't believe in nationality. 

[ivankiss]

Or people. 

[ivankiss]

After 20+ years of hardcore masturbation with my instrument of choice, I have successfully transitioned from being just a musician, to being a powerful wizard.

[ivankiss]

One of my best tricks is making the audience disappear. 

[ivankiss]

Haha, no, but really, by now, my skills have developed to such an otherworldly and alien extent, that the common ear cannot follow or relate to what it's hearing. 

I must dumb my music down a lot, for you all to be able to enjoy it. 

My thoughts too. 

[ivankiss]

Jk I love you all. 

You are all very smart, talented, intelligent and woke. Haha 

[ivankiss]

Here's a cookie.

[ivankiss]

I'm submerged in filth, fragmented chaos
In chrysalis state I await my birth
Thoughts and memories proceed to haunt me
Soon all these fragments will be gone

Morphing begins
I'm becoming a god

Birth is nothing but death's beginning

[ivankiss]

Now as my soul is yearning
Morph to new paradigms
Find wisdom in the learning
My will always finds a way
See the embers burning
Sense no dividing line
Same being, dead or living
My will burns through time

This being feeds within now
To be born, be alive
Feed inside
Its presence goes beyond life
Fate will follow the mind

Birth is nothing but death's begin

[ivankiss]

So far the best advice since I got here, from a super cool local dude... He said:

"Whatever it is you wanna do, in Amsterdam, you don't ask for permission, you ask for forgiveness, if they catch you." 

And I could tell he was saying the truth. 

[ivankiss]

I spent too much time away from the crowds. Everyone seems even crazier now.