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[Something Funny]

21.04.25

Care tasks:

- washed the dishes

- did some laundry

- took out the garbage

- washed two pairs of shoes

Movement:

- Got back to working out. Went to a park a did a small calisthenics circuit.

Other nice things:

- Almost finished reading "how to keep the house while drowning"

- Drank coffee in the morning and read a book

- Went outside

- Played dota, but managed to not get stuck playing games all day.

Review and thoughts

A first nice day after a few tough ones. I woke up relatively early and was in a good enough mood to start doing things.

I made myself some coffee and instead of staring at a laptop decided to read a book. It felt nice.

I would take breaks from reading and wash dishes / load them into the washing machine. Plus doing laundry.

Then I went outside and worked out. I decided to start really slow and focus on just doing something to get started.

! I think coffee can be really helpful, although I am not 100% sure how much of my good mood was due to other stuff.

[Something Funny]

The last few days were okay. Not amazingly productive, but I wasn't completely checked out either.

I was able to maintain a clean and functioning kitchen, at least as far as dishes are concerned.

I was making myself coffee everyday in the morning since Monday and it feels like a nice cool ritual. One of those classic fancy things that adults do, haha.

I wasn't able to exercise, aside from riding a bike to work.

I've finished reading the book and started reading a new one, a novel this time. But I feel like I will need to keep coming back to it, to fully integrate everything.

A few important insights:

1. The bike I am currently using is in dire need of maintenance. I have a second one which has a flat tire and which I've been meaning to fix up for the last six months at least. I kept procrastinating on it, and feeling anxious about it until today I've finally fiven myself permission to just go to the service once I get a paycheck in may and get it done there.

This is actually something I got from the book. I am not currently at the stage where I am able to do it all by myself and it's okay to get help, and I should be able to afford it.

2. I got inspired and started watching crash course world history a few weeks ago. I actually finished it but then decided to start watching season 2, which is just talking about different concepts like war and disease in the abstract instead of linear history. And I've started feeling a lot of resistance towards it and haven't gotten back to it for at least a week. I was feeling bad about it this entire time, until today at night I've realised that this is just not something I am interested in right now and that's okay, lol

Now I actually feel motivated again to start watching something else.

[Something Funny]

I've had a cool little win today. I am selling my old bed on an online marketplace, and I've found the buyer. After talking to them for a while and showing them pictures they've tried to negotiate the price down (just by like 10-15 dollars). I was really tempted to agree and be done with it, and really dreaded to say no, but I did. I said no even though it was super scary. Not because of the money but just to push myself out of the comfort zone and stop being such a people pleaser all the time.

And they've agreed to the original price, lol.