Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

The reason I am still angry at the old theatre club is because the sorrow of everything I lost there is simply to overwhelming to face. 

I think I already mentioned that. 

[Jannes]

I got such a kick out of this little product trailer on amazon, I spent half an hour searching for it again for a lick of that sweet dopamine. Holy shit!

https://www.amazon.de/dp/B0FP5JZ6KT/ref=sspa_dk_detail_4?pf_rd_p=cf5ead54-c2f4-4493-953a-430e94cae639&pf_rd_r=4TG4PJCY33FKYCG9HR2W&pd_rd_wg=qOCZ6&pd_rd_w=0Ed1i&content-id=amzn1.sym.cf5ead54-c2f4-4493-953a-430e94cae639&pd_rd_r=60bee80e-8f6c-41fa-b34e-908565d8b04a&aref=7Z2z94nCqB&sp_csd=d2lkZ2V0TmFtZT1zcF9kZXRhaWw&th=1&psc=1

[Jannes]

An ex-theatre club member just texted me. I was super in conflict with him. He is asking to get shrooms and gives me kind regards. 

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf !?!?!?!?!?!?

So obviously there is 90% chance this isnt about shrooms, he could get them anywhere and last time we met I ignored him ..

I changed me profile pic a few days ago so that could be part of it. I wonder if ... STOP I shouldnt overinterprete things. 

I almost wrote an impulsive response back immediately. No I should calmy write back and not fuck this up, its possible to solve something very important here. 

[Jannes]

Interestingly just a few minutes ago I made the inner decision that I needed to find my own happiness. 

Well .. there are always thoughts I have about stuff, thats a bit esoteric of me. 

[Jannes]

10 hours ago, Jannes said:

Interestingly just a few minutes ago I made the inner decision that I needed to find my own happiness. 

Well .. there are always thoughts I have about stuff, thats a bit esoteric of me. 

I thought a nap would clear my mind but not that much, I am still confused. 

The biggest one is if I want to apologize or not for ignoring him last time.

[Jannes]

I really felt some kind of chi energy again yesterday night. 

It really seems to be something about intense energy/ movement. 

[Jannes]

I am wondering more now if I should have kept ignoring him. My initial program of diplomacy feels a bit outdated, but its understandable why I didnt, he could have been key to reconnecting with the old theatre club.. he actually wanted just shrooms though it seems like, or mainly ..

[Jannes]

Yesterday I went to a university beach party. 

Just talked to one girl. And I actually did pretty well in our little talk. Its moreso that I dont talk to girls enough and try my luck that I dont succeed rather then that I am not attractive enough. 

But I know that.. I think..