Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

Felt creative yesterday:

Oh look babe the sun is going down, what a beautiful sight. 

Oh yeah thats beautiful -- oh wait let me get my sun protection, I DO NOT WANT TO GET BURNED BY THE SUN, LET ME PUT ON SOME SUNSCREEN.

But Babe ... (goes away as the sun goes down)

...

The second coming of Jesus, HAH you really think Jesus genes spread!? Get real. 

[Jannes]

I fucked up with not taking care of my light foot fungus this winter. Now its summer and I love to go around barefoot, but I am ashamed of the fungus. 

Its much harder to take care of in summer because the fungus loves to grow when it is warm and I am ashamed of showing my infected feet in public. 

[Jannes]

Its SO hard to decide wether I want to write that girl who changed her profile pic. 

Emotionally I closed off to her and it's quite painful to reconnect. It's partially like the last time I revisited the old theatre club. 

My guess is that external pressure got to her. How I behave in my new social spot was communicated to her which might make me look less threatening and more in need. Or the second that different impressions of me collided and she as an opinion maker got pressured to show how she contributed to it. She was kind of last in line anyway, other people in the old theatre club already did that. 

Still I want to appreciate that somehow, but really she could have just written me a PM I don't know what this pretending is about.. Fucking actors .. 

[Jannes]

Probably when I get to talk with other people who hear something about me she is in danger of loosing social status if I talk shit about her. So might also be a tactic. 

Or she thinks I am up to grab as I didn't play to hookup right away with that girl who is likely in contact with people of the old theatre club and that's also her style. 

..

It's always a mix of many different things. 

Edited 1 hour ago by Jannes