Finished the LP course

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Cant listen to the audiobook for Peter Ralston without his original voice.

 

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18 hours ago, Jannes said:

Second Level 

 

Finally some progress. I missed the point where she said that you should take the knit on the other needle, completly blanked every time I watched it. 

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Making lots of progress now. 

My hands and arms feel cramped now. Maybe I need to hold my hands down for blood flow. 

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Start Up idea:

A restaurant which exclusively sells crossovers meals from different kitchens. For example italian style sushi, pizza with asian flavour, ... whatever actually ends up tasting well. 

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I am feeling much more emotionally stable right now. Interesting. 

Also feeling about starting a start up again. My first thought was that that may be the first surpressed layer from emotional instability but its probably because my mom talked to me and Leos Blog post gave it a boost. I have got so many ideas I am passionate about but its so hard to get through the day with the basics so I never did.

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Went on a short dopamine search binge. Found team fortress 2 clips through player profiles. If I really look for it, I will always find some kind of cheap dopamine high. Not sure why I needed it. I felt more conscious then usual, very inspired but not grounded. 

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The most beautiful sound is silence

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I kind of dislike archieving anything survival orientated. When I make progress in this direction its like, it sucks me deeper into this bullshit.

On second thought it might be partially not wanting to grow up as well liking the irresponsibility but that wouldnt explain the whole picture. 

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Shrooms dont work the way they used to. 

Back then when I had emotional problems I could just take them and even if I encountered some difficulties, I could just work through them and at the other end I pretty much always felt so much love. 

Now I face difficulties, emotional inner drama but its not really solved. 

Maybe it has to do with leaving my old theatre club that I need to recover emotionally a lot. 

Or that I used 5meo which did change my experience afterwards quite a lot and maybe the effect is permanent. 

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Pretty interesting. Can locate my own stage blue aspects through his lense. 

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Knitted away for about 10 to 20 min here and there and got pretty far. Made my first couple of mistakes in my last round though. Not sure if it can be salvished. Doesnt really matter though as its not about archieving anything. 

Its good to know that I already learned the basics and that its mostly about repetition now. I dont need to learn many more new techniques for now as this seems to be the best technique for flow already. Only need to learn a little bit for closing this part in the end. 

Edited yesterday at 01:01 AM by Jannes

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An old friend of mine whom I disconnected from in a painful way just changed his profile picture. From hopeless self-pity to a melancholic one. 

Incredible.

I am kind of lost for words. 

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Men I am REALLY emotionally stable compared to other times. 

Had a board game evening with friends and usually I dont understand some thing or get distracted because I am here and there with my emotions but not today, I was super clear. 

And right now I just installed a belt on my gym bad which connects my handles. I needed to look at how they are constructed, how the band is connected to a part and the cap and did that calmly until I got it and constructed it. Unimaginable to my old self, my emotions would have been all over the place. 

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I guess its a mix of wasing home for so long, being with friends, having something to look forward to with my start up atm and also knitting. 

Not sure how strong each of the part plays into it. 

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I just thought about the Kamala Harris compain. JD Vance plays such a small role to how big of a role Tim Walz probably would have played. 

Maybe that was a promise of her, have the vice president play a major role.