Finished the LP course

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10 hours ago, Jannes said:

Bought some chickpeas and syrup, then I can do some healthy cookie dough. When I was vegan, that was my favourite recipe next to smoothie bowls. My big mixer broke and its hard to do in my small one but maybe its a worthy investment.

 

Made this for breakfast and now I feel sick. 

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Its like they put their whole body, everything they have built up on the line just to stay in touch with their values. This takes a lot of courage. Its really inspiring when the a value gets a full chance to manifest itself in the world. 

 

Edited Saturday at 11:51 AM by Jannes

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A part of the day to day experience of a producer... 

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Oh I misread about FlowClub. I thought it was 50% off, so 20 dollars a month with student discount, but its only for the first month! 

This is hard to justify, even with how good it is, there have to be cheaper options out there.. 

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Here we go again. 

 

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Parking some here as supply. 
I have never watched streamers, so this feel a little weird I have to say. Like the person provides a certain virtual closeness but doesnt even know me. Well it works, but its weird. I should really find a new source for body doubling. 

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I have just taken a long walk to a big grave yard and back. Unfortunately the grave yard was already closed, I like reading text from tombstones. 

This was great. Just like I was avoiding going to the gym, I noticed how I was avoiding going out and being by myself. 

I think there the main reason for it is that when I get a lot done through conscious work because of body doubling then this subtracts from the energy I usually put into myself. So when I both want to get things done and spent by myself, I have to increase my workload steadily over time. 

Also body doubling in a way opens the door for socializing and distraction.

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I am about to do some commitments. What I realize is that a lot is kind of in the air and I have no routine. I still havent changed degrees ultimately, still havent started Remote Viewing, havent started any creative pursuits, have no outside routine like university or a job right now. 

I do socialize though. 

I may need a bit of a structure. 

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Wrote an email with questions to a Remote Viewing school. This could be my way in. 

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I have drawn a bit today. I dont have a lot of tolerance for frustration when things dont go well. But I am capable of getting into somewhat of a flow state in drawing, something I rarely experience and would like more of. 

I still feel like acting is a more natural creative pursuit to me though, but I havent drawing and all the other pursuits to the same degree yet. 

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Just made myself a certain spicy tea 🍄 

 

The ingredients are very old though, I almost got nothing out of it. 

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Just had a brief informational talk with a processor. Its unlikely that I am going to get further student loans if I switch degrees. I basically have to find pretty radical arguments why I cant continue my study, I can ask chatgpt to scan this diary for reasons I have listed. 

If I dont get further support I would need to take on a part time job. I wouldnt even hate that.