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[Sabth]

I can't be forgetting... 

.... To do this : 

It had been two times since this ever happened. I can't be that forgetful. It's automatic. It should be an auto thing. That you just do. 

But it had been the second time that I see it happened.. (it wasn't me.. ) 

Did I really forget? I'm sure I didn't. It's either a ghost or someone did it. I wasn't living alone at home. Maybe we should install CCTV even inside the house. 

 

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I won't be eating tonight. If anything I would trust my mom's food better. 

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Am I really that forgetful?
Anyway, I decided to eat. It’s only a one portion meal but I feel like bursting. I’m too used to skipping meals that to eat feels burdensome. Tasting food is good but to eat… 

Had to suffer 

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Edited September 23, 2024 by Sabth

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I am feeling so sick.  So sick. 

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I am willing to ditch my family because they steal from me. It is inevitable. 

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I actually miss my mom a lot. 

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When I had decided to abandon (ditch) someone , I really would . Had done it. And of course they wouldn't be under me anymore. I wouldn't care if they look good or not. Or if their minds is good or not. 

Today I went out of my room for a while. And I was caught by my nieces. Idk. I really don't want them to be into my room. Anymore. Don't want it. But these girls wouldn't let me in without them getting in too. I really don't want it.

*Sigh* 

If I haven't been good with my mom they are nothing. Idk. I don't wanna have any contact with anyone. Especially those related to the thief

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[Sabth]

Well, I don't trust them. No one can be trusted. Those people who are here are the same people who are in the house when my things got stolen. Guess I really had nobody. And you think I would eat the food that they bring me? 

I'd rather die. Shitty people. 

[Sabth]

My father aren't at home. Even though he had assaulted me (and was the cause of all this to happen) , that's between me and him. But family decided to ripped me off instead when I'm not around at home to guard my things . 

It wasn't me. They choose this.

[Sabth]

I am genuinely not hungry at all. I have told my bro that I don't wanna eat. But my father bought a delivery food. 

 

[Sabth]

I got quite a weird dream. 

I don't even know where to start or if I even remember it well. It seems like weird things are happening. Who is that kid that's chasing me who told me /asked me to record him or take his picture? Was it my bro? But it is unrecognizable. 

And I dream of sharing this piece of meat with my sisters. They took it a little too big. I intend to give like a little. My mom is somehow not in the picture which keeps me worried. Now. There was also like a bread,🌮, and they took it. 

And I saw someone spraying something black along the pavement. Make it black. And I was in this ship, was it a plane? Idk. But the inside seems like it. That's where they took my food. We all had ordered our food. 

In reality, I didn't eat at all yesterday. I got my p yesterday. And I also my mother's back in the kitchen. It's been a while since I've seen her. (I pitied her). 

But we aren't done. I started to think it's silly. With no progress. I should hv went to the x as soon as possible. And let them do the work. Let them settled it. But Idk. 

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Yesterday, I dream of something. I thought I wouldn't dream about them anymore but I still do. Today's freaked me out. I'm afraid, that I'll be cut off. It seems weird and unusual. 

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And today, I dream that my mom is pregnant. And.. I don't know. My other room, (my original room) I could see that the floor is breaking. The only things that keep it afloat is the pillars. Otherwise, the floor is already falling down. And I told my fam not to sit on it. That it's dangerous. Idk. And so we all moved. After we move, we can see it more clearly. That it's falling apart. In real life I no longer staying in this room and my brother did. And then, there was a time when my bro in law want to get into this room. Idk. But I was in it, so he and my sisters fam, went into my now room instead. I don't know. It was my room. They should only stay in the front room not any of these rooms. But anyway, that's what happened. 

 

[Sabth]

Look, this is really weird, I had wash my clothes . And 3 hours later, my washing machine still had a remaining of 14 minutes. I shall put a surveillance on this. Someone might have done something to it. Sabotaging me. It's been three hours. I even took a video to make sure that I'm not forgetting or doing any wrong. I didn't check it minutes after (I guess I should so that nobody mess with it.) now it's been three hours and it's still not done. Before this I saw the detergent cup wasn't pushed back as it supposed to so it stop working. I had to do it again. But now, you don't know what happened to it. Someone might have pulled it and someone else might have wash it again . After seeing that it wasn't pulled inside the socket. 

But I don't know what happened. Others work just fine. I should add a cctv inside my house. Or I should check it often. So that nobody could do anything to it. 

Edited October 1, 2024 by Sabth

[Sabth]

😒

I asked my mom if she did anything to it.  And she said she did. It was clustered together so she undo it. 

If she said it was because of the detergent fix I will show her the vid.😠 I did it perfectly. 

Edited October 1, 2024 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I still don't wanna talk to my mom actually.. 

My father bought me food and I still don't feel like eating my mom's cook yet.  

 

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I'm afraid that someone in my fam would die. 

Edited October 1, 2024 by Sabth

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Of course, there won't be a solution to it. 

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I really gotta stop. 

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Idk. 

Edited October 6, 2024 by Sabth

[Sabth]

3:23AM 

I dream of a big giant cable on top of some building/a higher place. It's a scary thing. I remember myself being stuck around it. That I had to just be with it. Standing there. Somewhere dangerous. Before my aunt come for me. Idk. It had to do with Africa and middle east. Idk. It is like a cable car that is going through middle east in order to reach Africa. Idk. It's someone's way back home. And there are a few Africans. The place was weird. Walking close to it is where I'm at. Idk what it is. Probably a home that I've never been to. Idk. Idk what is with this dream . But it was hella (dangerous &) scary. 

It seems like I no longer dream of my usual dreams. Idk.  7 Oct

 

 

I feel a little bit scared now. 5:35AM 6 Oct 2024

I am , the closest to my mom. I don't like to do this. But, 

There had been, many times over and over again these people had appeared in my dreams. Of course those whom are in my real life. But also those I've never met. A few days ago, I dream about this country. Actually. And today her friend gave me this from that place when I don't even know that she went there. 

And I bring this up because sometimes ago, those people in my dream, they too appeared in this place. We're here together . I have always stayed. This is a recurrent dream. But I can't explore. I'm stuck in that house. Idk if I ever write about that. (Dream). I might have forgotten the details. But they are all there. And we had conversations. We're always connected.