Truth Addict

Said everyone in the world, including my deluded ego.

Dogma. If it isn't obvious! It's really hard to break out of it, I've been there, and I empathise with that kind of deception.

You simply don't understand. Mind your own business please.

Why do you need books? That's your sneaky mind trying to overthink a simple practice. The way I used to do it (I don't practice it anymore) is in short strong sets, I used to breathe heavily in and out as Leo suggested in his video for about 1 - 1.5 minutes which would make me very close to passing out, the visual field would start to disappear, etc... Then I would stop and enjoy the feeling. That's it.

Consciously breathe from the stomach. Meditate + walk in the city at night or in nature. Allow the thoughts and contemplate their purpose and importance. Exercise. Shamanic Breathing.

How gullible is the mind!

That's hatred beyond stage Green hippy hatred. Yup. You hate hatred, have you noticed yet? I love hatred, that's the difference. I don't ignore it or hide it. I integrate it by utilising it. I hope so. I acknowledge my projections. Do you acknowledge yours as well? I was neutral to him two months ago, but I've awoken to the existence of the heart. Or, that's what the devils advocate. Left brain enlightenment is not everything. Ralston is missing the right brain entirely. Triggered much? You're a thought-story He'd be dead if he doesn't laugh. That's the bare minimum. It's challenging for me to have a decent conversation in real life without laughing (serious matters aside). I've heard enough of his toxicity. ..... Let it go guys. I hate someone and that's fine with me, he won't cry as my hatred, me, and my words are all merely thought-stories to him. He himself would not care. What's the big deal?! When will you ever transcend stage Green?

I consciously hate him. He's not a healthy person, let alone a healthy teacher. It's not like I'm going to his house to kill him or anything like that, but I don't like him spreading his delusions in the name of truth, and I would stop him if I could, because he's contagious. If someone is infected by a disease, he's better be isolated, not mingling with other healthy people.

@tsuki The only way that knowledge can be acquired is through experience, since experience makes a connection that one can relate to. That relationship is true knowing that is communicated through language. For example, I can't know what fear is until I relate to the term through direct experience. But that's all still just a theory that was never confirmed through experience. That's how deep the problem is. What if knowledge can be acquired without experience? In fact, maybe that's how all theoretical/conceptual/abstract fields work. Numbers were never experienced, yet we can relate to them and know what they are. Now you might object, using the spiritualist paradigm, that we don't know what numbers actually are, and that they're nothing blah blah blah. But whatever, numbers are numbers and they're there. Epistemology is a bitch.

That's masculine enlightenment, intellectual mastery. It lacks the feminine enlightenment, which is emotional mastery.

Yes, that's only true from the spiritualist paradigm. What's left there without it is just experience/POV without explanation. Which means that the explanation is just a thought-story, a perspective, a try at explaining what is, but never what truly is (yet paradoxically also what is). I understand that. That's why I'm always careful about not confusing the pointer for the moon. The problem is so deep with this, because it's the problem of epistemology. How do we know anything for sure? Is thought a reliable source for information? What about non-duality? Is it true that everything is one and that there's no difference between any two things at all? etc... Plus, my direct experience of perception suggests that duality is true. I don't believe that non-duality is the ultimate truth. I mean it might be, that would mean that infinity is true, but I'm suspicious because I don't know whether non-duality is true or not. What if it's possible to differentiate between two objects but our abilities are too weak for that?

I can't confirm. Yet, I can't negate.

Superiority does not mean anything. It's just a map for you to utilise for your purposes. For example: I don't go to the butcher to fix my dental problem because I know that a dentist is superior to a butcher in this particular field. And vice-versa when I want meat. And so on... (Just wanted to add that).

Not all bears are wild. They can be domestic.

His personality for the most part, but it also influences his teachings, so I hate them both. He's using emotional detachment as an idealist dogma. 'Everything is a thought-story', blah blah blah. He forgets to apply his dogma on itself. There's an underlying fear and judgement beneath his detachment. It's based in the intellect, by rationalising everything in the world, including emotions, as mere thought-stories. Nothing wrong with that per se, but I personally love emotions and I think that they should be integrated as part of my healthy being, not gotten rid of.

@Consilience Because he's emotionally detached.

The other choice, thanks to science, is asking for an Epidural Anaesthetic. Now, some people argue that it's an unnatural interference, but whatever. I would rather spend my life researching and developing ways to reduce pain through science than to spend years trying to transcend it through excruciating consciousness work. .. I hate Peter Ralston.

Tell the sufferers.

Wow! I just realized the tremendous amounts of money, work, and effort that women put into their looks. The highly judgemental system they apply to themselves and other women is unbelievable! Beauty is probably the number one priority for most women in their life, since it's highly related to their survival. The story of how I realized this is from one customer that was pretty much judgemental of my work as a photographer. I don't usually receive judgements or negative feedbacks because I maintain a frame that doesn't allow most people to have the chance to even rate my work. I trick them into thinking that my work is perfect, and it actually is, I mean was. This woman is no ordinary woman, she was confident and broke my frame very easily. I don't meet such people quite often, that was such a very rare case. In terms of ego development, I bet she's way more developed than I am, or at least she doesn't have the hang-ups that I struggle with discovering and correcting, and other people have. I wasn't attracted to her sexually, even though she's average, on my scale I would rate her at 6 tops, losing one point for being kind of fat, one point for wearing make-up, one point for not being able to attract me sexually, and one point for being overly-confident and for breaking my dominant frame cuz that would make her stronger than me and I don't like looking weaker than women. I haven't stated clearly what made me realise the main insight here. And this is the craziest thing here is that I always knew it, but never understood the depth of it. She was focused on every tiny detail of the picture that I took of her. She would see things that I would never notice and not know that they're even 'things'. The curves on her face she would tell me to emphasise, even the tone of the colour on every part of her face should pass the bar, and dear Lord the bar is high up in the sky. The standards are sacred and must never be touched. That was a just little preview of how she was. And I believe that even everything I saw was just a little preview of how women are in real life, and even more shocking is that that's also still just a little preview of how they think/operate behind the scenes, and how their minds are wired. By the way, she was not neurotic, just so much careful, precise, and critical. Another note is that women don't apply the same standards for men, even though they have preferences, but they don't care as much as men about their partners beauty. And I always wondered how women look beautiful. Being beautiful is a full-time job. Women know exactly how to be beautiful and how to attract men. They're like spiders building their traps and maintaining them. Sorry ladies, or should I say sorry spiderwomen?!

@Mikael89 You're the only deluded one here. Everything else is enlightened.

Interested.

@mandyjw I would have probably said something similar two months ago. And I'm quite surprised that you from all the members here say so, because not so many of us here are women and most women here probably aren't mothers. The point is that you experienced labour and now are saying this. I experienced going to the dentist twice last month, and it was a highly unpleasant experience. Psychological pain is not the only suffering there is. We aren't above pain and we will never be. Babies suffer. If pain was pleasant, they wouldn't need to resist it and try to avoid it. Perhaps we should accept pain/hell as part of life.

@karkaore Profound share. Thank you! Military service, I think, can be a great path for humbling the ego. It's an opportunity that you don't stumble upon everyday, my advice would be to make the most out of it.

@mandyjw Well then why do newborns cry/suffer from birth before developing a shadow?

@tsuki For the last day, I have been trying to confirm the connection that you're trying to point out to me. And although it seems convincing, but I like to challenge it and explore other possibilities before. I will not accept it until I submit that there cannot be any other possibilities. Right now, I think there is, so I'm still not bought into that idea. The reason why I'm suspicious is because this connection requires thought, and thought is not to be trusted. The other reason is that because it doesn't answer the question: Why choosing/operating from this specific experience/POV? The other reason is that because Leo created this idea, and it's a new age hippy idea from the movie: The Matrix, all of which I'm highly suspicious of their delusion and devilry. The other reason is that my little brother says that humans crave discovering stuff and claiming knowledge/righteousness, which seems to be the case, especially with Leo. So... I really appreciate your help tsuki, you are an amazing guy! Thank you ❤️