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@1liamo78 Reincarnation is originally a Hindu and a Buddhist belief. There was no world population back then. To me, it seems so silly. Nevertheless, that's not what is meant by reincarnation. You're treating the "soul" that is being reincarnated as a separate entity, while in their paradigm it's one and it's everywhere and everyone all at the same time. Which honestly, to me, is even more silly. But who knows? I could be wrong.

It will be alright.

@mmKay I'm following your journal, it seems interesting. In my experience, life will throw a bunch of challenges in your way, you don't even have to worry about that, lol. Your job is not to chase challenges, but to simply accept them with open arms. If you feel the urge to do something, then by all means do it. Trust your intuition. You might want to start relationships, I assume you've been alone for a long time. Relationships can be a challenge, and they can help you to change if you want that. Also, changing your lifestyle can change you in very radical ways. I guess you felt that a couple of times as you mentioned big changes in your story. I just can't stress how powerful that change in the outside can affect the inside.

Lose that spiritual identity! Throw it in the trash! What do you want Mandy? Seriously, ask yourself: what do I want? I'm pretty sure the answer is: I want to feel good. Your spiritual identity is blocking you from feeling good. Why do you want to be spiritual? Whatever makes you feel bad is an illusion.

That is not thinking, and not survival ??

Where does thinking occur?

@DrewNows Thank you! Although I don't know what you mean by "groundless" here. ..... Midday here, haven't studied a word yet. Today was so busy at work. I feel tired but I have to go on.

I ask myself the same question all the time. No convincing answers yet. Not even Leo's.

New day begins. Good progress yesterday, but not good enough. I need some time to build my momentum. I'm starting to see the joy in leaving old behaviours, whatever they are, no matter how enjoyable they are. "New is always better" -- Barney Stinson

@mmKay I enjoyed reading your story. Much of it resonates. I think what is crucial for you at this point is to realise that you are overthinking, and that your thoughts are meaningless. I mean I know you know that already, but do you actually embody it? Embodiment in this case means to stop judging your behaviour of slacking off and just be cool with it. I know this sounds the opposite of what you think you should do, but have you ever let go of the desire to change? Have you ever stopped imagining a great future? If not, then I think you probably haven't found your authentic self yet. Your shadow is probably preventing you from meeting your authentic self. Have you done shadow work? Life is all good and beautiful when you lose meaning and value, because you stop thinking and start experiencing, being in the present moment. Ultimately, I think you will have to find a job that doesn't bore you, probably start with a job that is easy and simple, and from there on, you let life guide you. mmkay, it's all Okay

@Peter124 But how is that any different from the two kinds you mentioned? Your views are also based on beliefs, so what makes you think that this is a better/superior approach? I'm sorry if that's not what you said, it's kind of hard to guess what you mean. Why do we dogmatize spirituality? Because we're human beings and we are ideological by nature.

@GabeN Perhaps the goals you set for yourself were not authentic/genuine. Dive deeper, and find out. Know what you truly want, because what you want is what you need.

Ego does not exist, it's your imagination.

@EternalForest Among wolves be a wolf. Among chickens be a chicken. Plus, don't judge means indulge. You have a great opportunity to become enlightened through these circumstances. It's challenging, I know. But it's rewarding as well. If you can live happily with this, well, congratulations! That's enlightenment.

Then don't listen to ego Listen to now, and listen to truth ❤️

As simple as it sounds. When you know yourself, you will know others. (post not directed at anyone per se)

@now is forever You told me that we're forever

@Cody_Atzori It's fine unless you're multi-tasking it with something else (like you did as in writing this post). It's fine unless you want to quit it and enjoy being without flavours, control, or manipulation. It's fine unless it's distracting you from doing the things you want/need to be doing. -My rules-

Detailed answer in my journal: Nothing and everything is not survival. It's a paradox, and both sides of the coin are true, depending on how you look at it. If we examine any system that exists, whatever it might be, we will always notice the same dynamic. The parts of the system, in their struggle to survive against each other, are always working for the survival of the whole system. In other words, every part is an ego trying to survive itself but what the ego is blind to and cannot see, is that it's working for something greater than itself, whether it's aware of it or not. So, all the parts are trying to survive the whole. But part vs. whole is an arbitrary thing, and there are no parts to being with, parts are concepts. If we keep zooming in, we will always find more survival, smaller systems against each other. If we keep zooming out, we will always find more survival, larger systems against each other. But who is zooming in and out? Reality as a whole is not survival. Yet, all of its parts are. Nonduality is not survival. Yet, all dualities that constitute it are. I, consciousness, am not survival. Yet, I, human form, am. God is not survival. Devils are. The being of everything (existence) is not survival. Yet, the doing (which happens inside of being) is.

First day passed, no progress was made on studying for exams. I spent most of it just observing and absorbing the pain of withdrawing. That's what my intuition has led me to. Second day just began, and I'm willing to study, that's what my intuition is pushing me towards. I trust my intuition. ... Let the light keep shining every minute Fill up my cup I'm living it up I'm not giving it up

Leo asked us to contemplate the question: what in my life is not survival? I'll use the verb "survive" in the same weird way that Leo used it in the video. Nothing and everything is not survival. It's a paradox, and both sides of the coin are true, depending on how you look at it. If we examine any system that exists, whatever it might be, we will always notice the same dynamic. The parts of the system, in their struggle to survive against each other, are always working for the survival of the whole system. In other words, every part is an ego trying to survive itself but what the ego is blind to and cannot see, is that it's working for something greater than itself, whether it's aware of it or not. So, all the parts are trying to survive the whole. But part vs. whole is an arbitrary thing, and there are no parts to being with, parts are concepts. If we keep zooming in, we will always find more survival, smaller systems against each other. If we keep zooming out, we will always find more survival, larger systems against each other. But who is zooming in and out? Reality as a whole is not survival. Yet, all of its parts are. Nonduality is not survival. Yet, all dualities that constitute it are. I, consciousness, am not survival. Yet, I, human form, am. God is not survival. Devils are. The being of everything (existence) is not survival. Yet, the doing (which happens inside of being) is. Done.

@mandyjw Thank you Mandy. I'll try that. @jbram2002 Yes, I am still fasting. I'm not keeping count, but I think there are 8 days left. Fasting doesn't help me, it hinders my ability to focus and recall and be alert actually. I am used to never start my day without breakfast. I don't really feel tired during the day, but my energy levels are very low. It's like I do have to limit certain activities for others. I could do that already, I don't know why I haven't yet. I didn't feel a strong need to do it, but now I do. I have to stop wasting my time, it's easy for me to do that, but it'll be painful at first, since withdrawal symptoms. Thank you for asking, it doesn't seem like a challenge, your questions are more than welcomed. The benefits of fasting usually come after Ramadan, although I feel some of them now especially at night. I understand myself better, I experienced some suppressed emotions, I feel more detached, and I feel a strong desire for change after the tradition is over, I am willing to start a daily workout that includes: free running, Swedish exercises, push-ups and pull-ups, I might decide to shoot some videos and post them here, I'm sure I'll post one at least, I might decide to start looking for a relationship, I am planning to go on a vacation to the coast city in my country during the summer. It's going to be really interesting! I'm so excited!

@whoareyou I don't want to engage in discussions. I'll just suggest the same thing you suggested for Mandy. Contemplate: How are direct experience and belief are the same? Keep in mind that memories are not direct experience, even if you experienced something personally. Direct experience is the present moment, it has no opposite. It's nondual.

I still keep distracting myself from studying for exams. Seriously, I'm activating the ultra-survival mode, only 12 days left. I'm not using the forum anymore except for updating this journal. All other topics are now collateral and I'm not reading any of them until I get a grip on my monkey mind. I'm limiting my use of the internet in general. No more YouTube, no more Whatsapp (except for work matters), Facebook is allowed since they post some helpful topics about exams and specifics about each material. Engaging in discussions is a hindrance for my studying process. It eats up a lot of my RAM and energy. Going back to basics.

If dreams are what makes you happy, would you let anyone steal that joy from you? Although I see what you mean. You want her to actualise her dreams, and that's great, but not obligatory. Happiness is what everyone wants. Whatever delivers it to them is the best thing to do. It's not about neither dreaming bridges, nor building them. It's not about anything. Perhaps the building process is a foregone conclusion. Perhaps the dream is reality. Do what makes your soul shine. ?