Truth Addict

@NoSelfSelf How is everything a product of my imagination? What about the feeling of of hunger? I get what you're saying is that things are the way they are, not the way we think they are. Like this:

We can think and imagine and believe all we like, but does any of that counts? It's not hard to admit that we don't know, the hardest thing is to keep guessing.

The question is: do enlightened teachers exist?

These kinds of posts are making me sick.

That's too far ahead, I think. I mean to generate and fix programs is not that easy.

@EvilAngel And we can trust anonymous people on forums! Wake up! No guidance will get you where you want to go. Only you.

Programmes will be of the highest value in society. Everything else will become rudimentary.

There's more to it. You might want to look into the thoughts (imagination) that you created in your post.

Exactly! I once saw a post on fb from a friend of mine, who simply was a 17 year old asking: who am I? I told him: what were you before you ever knew anything about the world? Imagine that you're born again with zero thoughts and zero information about the world, what are you then? He spontaneously answered: "absolute nothing", cuz there would be no thoughts to even describe it. I was shocked! It was so accurate. ... @TRzed maybe there's no mind, maybe the mind is just a thought. It is, you see? You're making distinctions based on what?

@SoonHei nothing. @Joseph Maynor how come mouths speak?

Good! But be careful not to fall into the trap of chasing theory. I fell into that before, and I'm still struggling to get out.

@howdoistopobsessing Why are you suffering? That's the question that you want to focus on. You're here as an actor just like me and everyone else, you keep playing your role until the show is over. Why eating and enjoying food? Same goes for working.

I guess both, I'm not sure I understand what you mean by my shadow taking over. But yeah, here I am, there's a disconnection between what I know and what I do. It's when one's life on the line is where the shadow is tested. I haven't succeeded yet. A comfortable life gives a false sense of no-shadow, even if it includes some trouble, it doesn't show how deep the dark side goes. Death is the ultimate test.

@Nervtine Is "Getting Rid Of Attachments" An Attachment We Must Get Rid Of?

My shadow is the biggest

Mystical experiences don't equal Truth-realisation. You could have all the experiences you want, but they won't be like attaining Truth. But I think they're part of the realisation.

@28 cm unbuffed And what if not? You see the irony? You don't know until you try.

@Sharp Everyone knows that. Next!

@Nahm Okay thanks a lot. ?

@Nahm Well, first of all, thanks for your care and support and for the time and patience you spent on reading and analysing my post then replying to it. It means a lot to me ? As for "breath is NOW itself", well, when I stop breathing for a while, the NOW does not go away, so they're not the same thing. As for the fear sensation, it was exactly as you described, it was shame and guilt, and a little bit of regret, because I could have done better. My main concern was my parents, and I felt like I've disappointed them. But when I got home, they supported me and I went back to normal. I love my parents ? The ever-present now is all there is, but I still think about the future, though I know all thoughts are not the future, but I'm still convinced that there will be future, I don't know what it will be like, I just know it will be. And that's making me feel irritated because I don't know what is the best thing to do, and though I know whatever I do is the best and is God's plan, but still I have my fears. I know I am the present moment theoretically, but I don't feel that way on a cellular level. I mean it makes perfect sense, but it seems like there is a disconnection. The only thing that I hold dear now in life is my family, and I don't want them to be hurt in any way. I care about other people as well, but my family is beyond limits, I don't know what to do, I want to completely surrender to God, but then I know I would lose my family, or at least I would hurt them. So I can't choose right now, death is mysterious, and I'm not afraid to face it by myself, but I believe that my parents will suffer for me. Anyway, God is always proceeding with its plans, so it doesn't really matter what I think or say or want, what is destined will be when it's time. I realised years earlier that I don't have a free will, I don't know why it didn't help me. I tried to memorise myself that I don't have control, but I would only register that just as another thought and belief, and I would say to myself something like this: I should have never started thinking about life, and I should have never gone on the spiritual path, and all of these teachers and teachings are egoic and evil, maybe all of spirituality is a lie, but I didn't stop believing in God, I just started to doubt the path, then I would say to myself that I didn't have a free will and that this must be the plan, but then I think, what tf is the point? Why am I experiencing all of this? It's so confusing. Not thinking is just numbing my mind and questions down, but the questions are still there and not quite answered. I think the greatest lesson I learned from this experience, is that comfort is not one's best friend, in fact, comfort is blocking me from being serious and realising the Truth. I'm sorry I bothered you with all these details, I'm desperately looking for answers, and nobody gave me answers like you did and still do, I completely resonate with you. So again, from the deepest of my heart, thank you ?

Isn't all of this just another belief? Maybe you've experienced it, and I haven't yet. How exactly telling me that is going to change anything? I am trying, and I was faced earlier today with a strong fear and I inquired a lot. But I also noticed how much my mind went out of control, usually I could stop thinking about other stuff, but it was a huge life-shifting event and I wasn't prepared enough, maybe because I don't face too many dangerous situations. I tried to stay present and look at what is right now, it didn't work. Thoughts kept coming. I took deep breaths, and thoughts started to calm down but didn't go away, so I did one minute of holotropic breathing, which was the most effective. I felt relieved and it mostly went away, I accepted reality. The feeling was somewhere in my belly or lower chest, but now it's gone, and I'm back to normal which is bliss most of the time. Any advice on there? I'm still searching for an explanation of this specific experience I'm having, and the spiritual path gives more stories, so both sides are stories, but yet, the materialist paradigm helps me with survival, while the spiritual paradigm helps me with emotions. (this was a brief of the stream of thoughts I encountered earlier this day). I've already realised that the present moment is all that there is, but still, it's like a surface level realisation, not all the way through, but I'm working.

I like this analogy! And it seems convincing, just like the materialist paradigm I used to believe in. When death is on the door, and thoughts arise non-stop, what to do then?

It's too good to be true, but still I don't know, so it's just a belief for me. Likewise, I can believe that God will punish me after the dream ends.

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We want the answer to be in thought form, but it isn't.