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@Princess Arabia Why would there have to be a world and an awareness of it? In my experience there is only the world. No one who is aware of it. I really tried hard to resonate with what you say and look for this awareness. I could get a taste of it only when using the mind. I was stuck for a long time thinking I've realized what I am. It could not be described in words, the best thing to say about it is that it's the closest thing to you there is. But after some examination I came to a realization that it too was a product of the mind. Right now I experience the world as one happening which I chose to call being. I could have called it "Myself" as well but that would imply a kind of baggage that I didn't want to carry on to reality. Anyway you don't have to agree, it seems you have it all figured out and if that makes you happy be happy Mooji has a similar view but I'm sure you know him.

When you are faced with death the fear and anxiety are natural responses of the body. Its what you do after that matters. If you accept death fully the responses will subside and you might feel unimaginably free. I know a story about a kamikaze pilot who survived his mission and reported that the moments just before the crush were the most free and beautiful in his life. When he knew he was about to die and there is nothing he can do about it. He accepted it fully and was free. That which is afraid of death is not just the ego its a built in instinct. I think that even an enlightened master if experiencing a plane crush will have this responses at first. It's natural.

@Breakingthewall Some of the times I was more open than the others. What I cant deny also is the immense beauty of this experience. I completely agree with everything you have said. Exactly. I feel the same way. I just want to read story books now like lord of the rings and lost all interest in spiritual teachings and gurus. I'm more focused on being rather than knowing. I really wanted to teach , but now all gurus seam silly to me. Maybe its just me but it feels like there is nothing to teach or talk about. Its not like in other areas where you become an expert and now you have a body of knowledge to teach. I have no clue how people write books about it.

@Breakingthewall Amazing I was saying "Its the best trip I've ever done" so many times during that one. It acted strongly on my emotions as well at the beginning I cried from a track it was as if I felt the acid. Usually it only works on my mind. But my flashbacks are waaay stronger. Really I cant imagine tripping harder then my flashbacks and if there is such possibility honestly I really don't want to experience it. If a regular person would have got one of my flashbacks he would have sat in an insane asylum for the rest of his life. Its like going mad X1000. And it can happen any time. I hear voices repeating: "There is only one thing in reality, you are god, there is only you, there is nothing to worry about forever" And I feel I'm on the brink of dying. You would think that I just got it and was like "Ok now I'm god the only being in the universe". But no. When I come down of it everything is back to be exactly how it was before. That's why in my opinion psychedelics can give you only a preview of enlightenment and not make it your natural state when you are sober.

I have had many times where I was sure I got it. My ego was no longer active and my experience was full of bliss. Then I got distracted by worldly pursuits , and after a while... I was back to how I operated before. The enlightenment had passed and my ego was back. Enlightenment is not a permanent attainment but rather a state of being. I use the words "state of being" here because I find no other words to describe it. The point being that it must be maintained. The ego is like a habit. To completely stop this habit requires time and great care. And it can come back. So don't stop at enlightenment. Enlightenment is a way of being. Being free of the self. Being free of the mind. "A house which is only windows, is actually no house"

I can offer what worked best for me. Although I did it after a substantial amount of self-inquiry and classic meditation. Just sit. No pose. No aim. Mind goes wild its fine. You want to switch pose, also fine. The point is just to be alone with yourself. When I did it this way I could sit for a whole day.

I literally wrote a whole post on my experience with psychedelics and deleted it knowing on whos web site I write it. I was hospitalized in mental institutions 6 times after severe psychosis. My first one was at age 19 when I first took LSD. Psychedelics are a Russian roulette and you can severely damage the chemistry of your brain. I'm still taking pills. I think its irresponsible advising doing the same thing that got you to this position again. Or prescribing what pills you should take. Fuck it ill tell it even if I get removed from this forum: Psychedelics are not a magic pill to enlightenment. They definitely show you something, and have a promise to show you more if you do more of them. When I took DMT I was asked : "what do you want to experience?" I answered : "Beautiful views" Then the answer was: " You need to do more for that to happen ". Then I realized, if I take more and get my wish granted I will become addicted to that experience. I've been Irresponsible and have taken LSD around 20 more times some of them where 1000+ doses. I've had some of the most amazing experiences with them. But now I have flashbacks constantly which are so intense it cannot be put to words. I can only lie down on my bed and stare at the sealing when they happen , and when they catch me off guard when I'm not home Its a nightmare. I literally cover myself with a blanket like a baby afterwards. I used to be a professional rock climber before my first psychosis. Now I'm sitting at home smoking cigarettes. Psychedelics might have opened my mind but they have also cost me my life. I see classmates getting married and I'm just recovering from Psychotic episodes only to find myself back in a mental institutions. I don't know if you have a mental illness but you should seek professional help. Fortunately there are people who have dedicated their lives to helping someone in this situation. One guy eats peanut butter and its tasty the other one has a severe allergic reaction. I've met many guys who got fucked up by chemicals in my hospitalizations. My friends are ok though. Still doing shit loads of drugs and seem not to get phased. Short cuts are never smart when it comes to spirituality. There is a reach tradition of Buddhism and zen that studied enlightenment for ages. I sincerely hope you get out of it and feel better. Welcome to message me if you feel like.

God is when you are desperately looking for an identity after you have lost your ego. Its normal. When the mind is quiet , I have no identification. Everything is divine. Nothing exists only as a word. If you could describe it it was something. What remains when you stop describing it exists in uncaused ecstasy. Its the biggest trap, needing to have someone that experiences this moment. There is no need to explain where this moment came from. Endless explanations are possible. Philosophy will never be your savior. Saying its a dream only makes sense if there is a waking reality. The only thing that stands between you and heaven is yourself. This words do not belong to anyone. I am tiered of wearing masks.

I'll start by saying that I did have a god awakening and believed that I am god for some time.( not using dmt ) After that I've regressed back into ego playing world of warcraft. Now I'm in an interesting place. I started by coming to a place of pure not knowing motivated by Peter Ralston's book. I enjoyed seeing what is there when the mind is not active. And to my big surprise it wasn't nothing. For me the first word that popped was "being". Since it felt vividly alive. Blissful even. But there was no one there. Not me nor god. What is is to free for this kinds of categorizations. I could still get to the place where I know who I am as god, but only when activating the mind. So who are you when the mind is not active? I wont answer this question. My god is Life. There is this energy in everything, its alive and just for the sake of being alive. The point of existence is to exist. It's not moving anywhere. It's destination is here and now. I have no access to 5-meo yet I still don't see why would you call that which exists god. It's a heavy word which implies a sentient entity. And to me Reality doesn't appear as a sentient entity. I think psychedelics can be a great tool if used properly I used some myself , but if god is shown only on dmt and not present in the sober state I could not believe in such a god. Good luck on your journey! Live.

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There is a long tradition of master- student in pursuing enlightenment. It is like with a sportsman who ends his career and becomes a trainer in his field. But in zen they have you prove your dedication and will before letting you study. You cant just go teaching whoever after you attain what you have pursued. Most of society is not interested in this path. If you want to awaken others they must be ready. But its not all about awakening others. You can do good in the world and spread consciousness in your daily life. A few good words said in the right moment can change a beings life. An action done with a pure heart can cascade through the entire universe.

@LfcCharlie4 Very beautiful words, I feel that nothing needs to change after awakening. You can live a simple life and look as an ordinary man from outside. But your inner world is changed forever.

@B222 For most people reality is mental because they are stuck in their minds. They are in a perpetual state of non stop thinking. As I see it mentality is just another sense we have thorough which we can experience reality. No more important than sight or touch.

You are describing a duality. Duality only comes when you use your mind. Mooji fell into the same trap. We are so used to experiencing life as perceiver - perceived that our tendency is to apply it to the ultimate as well. That which remains when the mind is not active simply exists. No need for anything to be aware of it. No need for anyone to perceive it. You can use whatever word you like to describe reality as long as it is one word: Being, Love, God, Beauty... Whatever speaks to you more. When you start thinking about reality it is mere philosophy and everyone can have his own. Its your opinion and I honor it. Yet ultimately ( as much as we want it to be different ) there is no "why we are here". Everyone can choose his own life purpose I can see that. But the point of existence is existence for existence sake.

I think its a good idea. In Buddhism there is much importance to the sangha. Sadhguru can pull it off. Much luck to him. I personally was alone for most of my path, and I think being surrounded by likeminded people could have helped.

I really enjoyed it. To me it instantly brought up all models of spirituality which claim to be the right path. There is no right path for everyone , each has his own. I will watch more of his videos. Thank you!

@BipolarGrowth I've actually looked into Buddhism quite a lot and considered myself a Buddhist for some time. But you surprised me with the dependent origination that one was new to me. Really like how you describe it. What really got me hooked on Buddhism is this saying of the Buddha: "Believe nothing, no matter where you read it or who has said it, Not even if I have said it. Unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense." Open-mindedness without filters is the state of a child. Close-mindedness with filters is the state of most adults. Open-mindedness with filters is the best state for a seeker.

I feel painful amounts of bliss right now . @Squeekytoy yes have you got any luck completely removing the ego? To me it seems like a strong habit that I try to stop. Btw hence my name here I believe its a play not a very serious thing. We sometimes need the ego as well. I found out that when interacting with others you have to assume a self. So you just play a role in society knowing its just a masquerade. I still do very long meditations just because I am always open to something new coming which was unknown before . That's what life taught me. And my highest goal was to find who I am really. I found out but it was unexpected. @Princess Arabia You can describe it in many words and people made careers out of trying to describe the indescribable. Have you ever read Spinoza? He describes everything as a process by which god loves himself basically. But dose it in a way of Axiom and Theorem. Which is like a math proof in words. @Ishanga The buddha said that that's out true nature.

@vibv I get what you say. When you divide it to absolute and relative I completely agree. @LfcCharlie4 Yea I was mainly referring to the psychological suffering of being a "self". For me it was the worst kind of pain. Pain is unavoidable but when you are free of the ego your relationship to it changes. I think Leo said in one of his videos that Peter Ralston went to a dentist without any anesthesia and was able to feel "raw" pain and remained with a smile on his face the whole time.

I believe that eventually everyone will awaken. Most of the "ordinary" people are not ready and don't want to. Thus I think that it will take long time before global awakening can take place. ( unless A.G.I magic as stated above ) But how will it look like? I was sitting for a long time trying to imagine , yet I cannot.

Seek freedom instead of seeking knowledge. There is no correct point of view on reality, all points of view are glasses the mind puts over our raw experience. The statement above is also a point of view

@Leo Gura I thought you meant us and had an ego reaction. Very interesting to watch. Always teaching even when you don't mean too

@Ishanga The greatest suffering is psychological and is caused by misidentification with the ego. Pain without anyone there to experience it is just pain. You suffer only because you say "Its my pain". I am not fully free from the effects of the ego. The ego is like a habit deeply imprinted into our minds. To stop it completely requires time.

@Ryan M The Buddha himself repeatedly stated that he is just a human and there is nothing special about him. You most definitely can progress inwards . Get closer to god as you call it. My way is simple: Just sit alone with no distractions. For as long as you have spare time for. I found out that when you sit and say: "Now I'm meditating!" the mind only gets more agitated. At first it felt horrible. Really an emotional torment. But with time it gets more and more pleasant. This is dangerous so do it in moderation. It may lead to depression at first as you might feel that you simply cant stand yourself alone. Most of the people cant. But if you are earnest in your desire to find yourself, you will break through the barriers of loneliness and boredom. There is much light on the other side.

I think so too. I really liked what you wrote. I think that the mind has an important place in existence. It is there for a reason. Yet it is important to strike the right balance between thinking about reality versus actually experiencing it. Great leaps can be made by contemplation as well as observation. I am currently reading Peter Ralston's book "The book of not knowing" and he talks about the state of not knowing that precedes any genuine discovery. like what the zen folks say: Empty your cup.