Aquarius

@bejapuskas Keep it alive by not talking to me and pushing me away?

@Elysian Your answers are always spot on. Many people tell me that I'm depressed all the time, but I don't feel like it's true? I don't even feel sad?? I mean I know I said that I am "sad", but it was in the sense that the situation frustrated me. I'm not really sure what depression even is, unless I see it on other people but I don't really feel it myself. @Mu_ What unspoken desires are you referring to? And yes, we were dating on and off in the past.

@GenuinePerspectiveXC Where can I find out more please??

@Emanyalpsid Of course it is just a model. Every science is just a model. It's also a man-made model, and it's not perfect but no one claimed it is. Even if something is 30% true and can tell you information about something you didn't even know about, then it's pretty cool. Many people have misconceptions about how these things should work because of all the movies portraying esoterics as something really flashy and extremely fantasy-like, when it doesn't even work like that at all. And it doesn't even have to. That's just ego. Also I see where you're coming from. There will be charlatans in every area of your life. It's easy to get lost in the age of misinformation, and most of this stuff is super flaky, but why would you throw out the baby with the bathwater? Most people use astrology to feed their egos of how awesome their signs are anyway. 99% of people won't even tap into the practical uses of it. They don't even have to, it takes time to master it, like everything else. But it can be interesting to study for someone who is into it.

I usually don't post things of this sort. Actually I'm posting this question because someone gave me a really harsh feedback on my success in life. What I usually do nowadays is that I'm reading a ton of books on all sorts of topics (at least 2-3 hours a day), researching how-to articles from the web, I'm even taking an online course in web-design, listening to affirmations and subliminals, creating and selling art printables, developing my general skills in life, currently learning to write an ebook and to open and etsy store, and healing harsh emotional wounds. Now I know this won't give immediate results! Although.. some of them do I guess. And I know this because I signed up for a free counseling website where they offer an emotional wellness test, and the results (and my own perspective on it) show that since last year my depression and anxiety levels decreased by at least 40-50% (from 79% to 33% or something like that). So I take this as the proof that education on and awareness of certain problems, and the mere intention of solving it, i.e. self-care etc. really do improve things! So I think, from a subjective view on myself and my life, I did a lot of progress lately. I'm more care-free, social, outspoken, more attractive and desired, actually enjoying sex and not only because I "have to", spiritually healthy, more successful in art, more experienced and knowledgeable about the world we live in and our work system, and I'm moving to my next stage in the Graves model (from Blue to Orange/Green). Yes, these are small changes, I don't say that I'm the perfect person or that I improved like crazy, but I would say that I improved about 100-200%, generally speaking, and since I was a very low place in my life around a year ago, this is almost as if expected of me, normal, and nothing unusual, but still, a lot of progress. And today I was talking to my friend about business, money, my career, how things work in the art industry nowadays, work-at-home options available in Europe, etc. I also mentioned it to him that I was searching for a few days now for some ways to make money online, some small amounts for now, and how I don't seem to have success because I never have what it takes to get a job. I've spoken to him about how you're supposed to apply for 100-200 jobs until you get about 1 option that will work out for you, and I talked about the new books I'm reading on passive income, and I went so far to share some lessons I've learned from the books. It surprised me that he started laughing uncontrollably and remarked how I seem to read " hundreads of books on every minor sh!# that is happening in your life, yet you fail at everything and never have any success!" Wow. I didn't know if I should have laughed with him or cry and leave immediately. The moment was so ironic. Somehow he was right, yet it felt so wrong. It felt terrible. I can't decide if this was a valuable piece of feedback that I should use to improve further, to learn about the REAL reality, or just something that is plain wrong and ignorant. What are your thoughts on my friend's comment? How should I interpret his words? Any tips on getting actual results that SHOW, that are visible and not just subtle and subjective/personal? Why is earning money and being a respected person so hard for me? Am I lazy or doing the wrong things in life?

@Serotoninluv Dude! If she asked for that information she's really into you! She's curious to know more about you and about how she can please you better. Or maybe she wants to see how compatible you are. I'd say feel free to give those details to her because she might be able to make you feel really good. But only if you trust the person, cause she might find out about your weaknesses as well.

@bejapuskas I'm 20, and he's way older than me. I'm not trying to teach anyone anything, I'm just having a casual conversation. I'm actually asking for help and his perspective most of the time. I'm a good listener, he has no reason to close up like that. He even said it's not my fault. It's a sad situation really... Since he doesn't open up about his anger I'm just left here scratching my head about wtf just happened. So I left the situation completely.

@Rilles I understand. The weird thing is that he lives 3 minutes away from my apartment. That's why I don't get how it happened. He simply got bored of me or I don't know?? When we discussed this problem he was always brushing it off like, oh it's just a strange period like this for him, or that everything is fine I'm just imagining things. But I know something wasn't right because he simply didn't let me open up anymore. Even if I cried he simply got annoyed, now how is that healthy? I cannot even show my emotions because he gets emotionally aggressive if I do that?? @Shin Thank you, I appreciate your thoughts! It really was something hard to do. I know Christmas is coming soon as well so it's just simply painful. We always gave each other the best gifts and we share so many memories together. Sigh. I think it was about damn time to let go. For about a year now we didn't quite get along, especially with all the back-stabbings from him and all that. I simply cannot be friends with someone who doesn't invest at least some small amount of energy in maintaining the friendship. Even if he will be busy for, say, a month or two I would like to hear him communicate that everything is alright. I know I have friends who almost never talk to me because of their depression, but at least they don't laugh at me or don't say that I'm annoying. Or they even appreciate that I think of them when they are having a hard time, and that I always write even when they don't reply. Some people really take the effort to appreciate this and those are the people I need.

Don't get bothered by it too much, it shouldn't mean anything to you. Let him have his opinion. He might have had an easy life and is taking self development for granted. I also had a friend like that who kept saying this to me, except he is not successful and I'm sure he never read any book, not just self help but any book.

@Speedscarlet What do you mean? @Rilles What does it mean to grow apart? It never happened before.

I'm really curious what others have to say about this issue as I have the exact same problem.

@Strikr I never claimed astrology could answer all questions about life or predict everything. There are people who will assume such things but there are simply so many things involved, like culture, family background, education, personality, career choices, life choices, everything. You cannot base your life on astrology. And even if someone is trying to give you a useful insight, they need your exact date of birth down the hour and minute you were born, some people even consider the exact SECOND you were born in. It simply doesn't work like me guessing your date of birth, this isn't mind reading or stage magic. However I did guess people's planet and house positions before, and once I did notice someone's chart was incorrect and I had to research a different hour he was born in until I got the details right, but I could only do that when I knew those persons really intimately.

@Strikr Omg you're missing the whole point. That's not how it works. Go research what astrology actually is and what it is not and what it is used for.

Now that you're enlightened, do you ever crack a cold one with the bois?

@Annoynymous Common sense meaning you can sort out what is true and what isn't. Generalizations based on one aspect or sign are almost always going to be bs but if you look for precise information like exact degrees and taking in consideration multiple aspects (e.g. if you're wondering about your romantic life you don't just check venus and mars, but also their aspects, degrees, the moon's aspects, 5th and 7th house positions, etc.) And not relying 100% on astrology but seeing the whole picture. It's really easy to get dogmatic with it and also to detach from reality, for example if you only read what the interpretation says and don't explore it on a deeper level like meditating on what you just read and putting the puzzle pieces together. I'd even say that if you're the type of person that gets easily amazed by unusual things it is better to only start practising astrology when you're much more emotionally mature. Just a a warning that only pursue it if it truly helps your development and you won't just oversimplify it.

@Enizeo That's how I was with art. I've been drawing since I was like 1 or 2 years old. And been creating digital art since I was 15. But only found out it was my passion in my mid-19 year, and I worked really hard on it up until my 20th birthday. Then I had some exams that I failed a few years ago and I decided to take care of that issue so I put my art away and only started working again since this july-august when I discovered how useful Pinterest is. I've had highs and lows in my motivation levels, tried many different styles and types of art. Last week for example I drew 100 mandalas in 1 day (yes, one hundred - when I finished them I was feeling like crap, every bone in my back and right arm hurt and I didn't even notice but I froze to the chair I was sitting on lmao). Then maybe a month or two ago I worked on abstract lineart portraits. Right now I'm making fantasy art since it's something I feel attracted to and it also seems to sell well which is something to consider. I could definitely use more spirituality in my life. Without it everything is just a bitter pill to swallow. I had highs and lows with spirituality as well. I didn't know any good sources that resonated with me, so I stuck with whatever life threw at me.. You could imagine I got some pretty weird fixations as most stage Green spirituality has some unclear explanations and over generalizations, leaving interpretation to each individual's imagination.. So I had a love-hate relationship with spirituality. It gave me hope and power many times, but also caused tons of suffering. I feel like there aren't many people who have a clear and healthy way of approaching spirituality, but truth be told I didn't even seek it that much. I was generally satisfied with Leo's teachings, although I had moments when the way he explained things puzzled me (then some time later I got many "Aha!" moments in various situations life threw at me, then I returned for more Leo ). I honestly don't feel like I'm pressuring myself nearly enough. Actually I'm not pressuring myself at all, I'm literally just existing lol. I mean my family provides me all that I need, I'm doing work whenever I feel like, I can easily sell some stuff when I need to but I haven't felt the need cause I have different priorities (like fine-tuning my skills before I advertise my crappy art to my audience). Actually thinking of it this way, I really have all that I need right now to thrive, I just didn't take the steps that were required of me in order to achieve the level of satisfaction I was craving for. And I think that's the point my friend was trying to make - I read all the materials, I have all that I need, everybody helps me, yet I struggle to make a move. Now it's all clear. I know what I have to do.

ENFJ

@wavydude True. I guess in the end it all boils down to what perspective you hold. I try not to be ungrateful.

@Elysian Thanks I signed up and I'm waiting for my ebook in the email. You're 100% right about everything you said. That's exactly how I feel. I hope I can clear up this mess soon. @Serotoninluv Honestly I live with them but I never really talk with them and it's been like this for about 10 years.

Hello so I was wondering what can a 60% Blue person do to move its more rigid parts into stage Orange. I will post some notes that a person from youtube posted on Leo's stage blue video, and my own questions. You don't have to answer them all, Just give a general outlook or only answer a few or only one question (noted Q below) that you can give a sure, straight-forward answer, an idea that I can start working on right now. I'm really making this a long term project to bring my broken blue parts into a more orange (and perhaps a little green) stage. (Johny's Notes = N; My Question = Q; My extra notes = E) : N -- Read very deeply about stage blue Q -- What exactly should I read? For example the Bible, or a book criticizing/interpreting the Bible? Or both maybe? And what else? If I read about history, what period did exactly Blue start in? E -- Study Bible, Quran, Hinduism, Religious ideologies, religious mechanism, about sects, history of Blue, middle ages N -- Read and depth about stage Orange Q -- Again, what are some top books that will lead me into orange thinking? Success Books? Materialistic things? Hedonism? Romance novels? Self development? Law of attraction and money? How do I start? N -- It’s always helpful to read about your current stage and the next one Q -- Should I also read Green, Yellow, Turquoise and Coral? If so give examples of green, + the other three. Should I read about all of them simultaniously or start with orange first? N -- Stop judging Orange and specially Green and Yellow Q -- I don't judge them but how do I 100% empathize with their way of thinking and values? N -- Stop judging the hippies, the liberals and progressives Q -- Any good sources to read progressive, hippie, liberal material? What exactly is a hippie? Should I research hippie and psychedelic culture? N -- Stop judging the intellectuals and globalists Q -- Who are they? (list people and ideas pls) N -- Stop judging materialism, success, sexuality and relativism Q -- again, where do I find out more, how experience more of these? How does this work? How do I find out how it works? N -- Stop judging mysticism and New Age spirituality Q -- Should I read New Age? Well, I am interested in it, but for now I'm aiming more Orange so.. thoughts?? N -- Stop judging moral depravity Q -- What exactly is moral depravity? N -- Stop clinging to traditions Q -- What exactly is considered as a tradition? N -- Accept the fact that everything is changing every time so that there is no security Q -- What does this mean? N -- Become more skeptical and start thinking independent for yourself Q -- How do I do this? N -- Start to question authority E -- Question God, question morals, question rules. N -- Start to notice the limitations of religion and abuses of the church E -- Research how the church and religion abused and destroyed many things in the past. N -- Notice that belief is not equivalent to Truth N -- Start to be iconoclastic and rebellious Q -- How do I gather the strength and courage? N -- Start noticing the limitations of judgments and moralism Q -- Any tips on how to come to this realization? N -- Start to acknowledge that reality is more relative than you ever thought E -- I kinda achieved this one but I think that with orange there comes a sense of fear of public image (for example the reputation of a business).. or is it green? Or is it still blue in a different form? N -- Start to acknowledge that good and evil do not exist Q -- How do I trigger these ideologies until they simply fade? N -- Start to question what God is and whether it exists or not Q -- Will need some good study sources here as well.. N -- Break your cultural conventions and visit another countries and cultures N -- Start to notice how the hierarchy of your civilization is repressive and how it hurts other people Q -- Isn't this still there in orange?? N -- Acknowledge the commonalities of all people Q -- What does this mean? N -- Acknowledge the validity of other religions E -- Obviously by studying them. N -- Start to read books about success N -- Study Nazism, Hitler, Communism and Marxism in all its different forms Q -- How do I do this without falling into the trap of believing those things? N -- Star to see the cruelty of slavery N -- Practice radical open-mindedness E -- Leo has a video on this. N -- Embrace your feminine side Q -- What if I'm a girl? N -- Do contemplation and self-reflection Q -- Meditation will do?

@Shiva The moon determines much more than that. It determines menstrual cycles, cravings for certain foods, accident probability, sexual performance and even hair growth! And so much more! There are even apps that track the moon cycles and help you organize things. I know it works from experience. I just cut my hair when the moon entered scorpio (perfect water sign, very fertile) and it has grown 1 inch in 3 days. Normally it grows that much in a month. But that's expected since I always happen to cut my hair at dry moon stages. Dry periods are good for removing unwanted body hair. (Tried it, works like a charm).

@Annoynymous I recommend watching New Paradigm Astrology channel on YT (or simply search for "Kaypacha Pele Report" on YouTube). You'll be blown away by the things he says! Of course they won't always resonate with you since it also depends on your chart (maybe calculate your daily reading at Astrotheme). It can be useful to some extent, but only if you use it wisely. For example I have friends who cannot really handle astrology. Every time there is something major in their life they come to me and ask me what the stars say about their next move. Or if the stars "let" them do what they want or there's no escape in that situation. Which is complete bs honestly. You always have to remember that you have free choice to do what you want. We could contemplate the existential and deterministic things here, but what use? When you can simply go by "I can do what I want and I might use the stars as a TOOL". A simple tool. Nothing more. Yes, it might be the most accurate thing sometimes, but truth is... it's really abstract. You have to have a sort of "astrological common sense", a sort of feel to it. It goes really deep, trust me. Your Aquarius energies should help in your astrological journey, since Aquarius (and Pisces too) is naturally drawn to the esoteric.

That's not how it works guys. It's not about the planets affecting us, it's about how the changes in the sky are in sync with what we do. It's synchronicity. It's not that Venus makes you angry today, but the aspects of Venus are a good thing to observe if you want to know certain things about your day. As above so below applies. Let's say you wanna weight yourself so you use the scales. If the scales shows 70kg, does that mean you're 70 kg because the scales said so? No, but it's in sync! If you're confused about your kilos you can use the scales to get an information about your weight! Generalization technique is just mainstream astrology that you read in newspapers and it's true, they really construct it that way so that's something to consider, but real astrology uses houses, aspects, and all the planets (and even asteroids) besides sun-sign. People just assume if your sun is Libra you are Libra. Not really. For me, I have Aquarius Sun, but my ascendant is Cancer. Also my Saturn is Aries. So what am I? Honestly all of the signs, houses and planets affect us, so you're not a Pisces, but you have sun in Pisces, and you might have Moon in Capricorn. These are only examples of course. But I hope I made it clearer now. And yes, astrology is a WONDERFUL self-actualization tool if you are serious about it. It's not hard to learn either. Just know that most of astrology requires intuition and not just rigid stuff that you study like you would with maths for example. There is so much information in it though!

Ah maaan. I felt your pain while reading the post, I mean I really felt it in my chest and it hurt af. I'm going through the exact same thing and all I can say is that you have to pick something that matters to you in life, something that excites you the most even if you never done it before and master it. It can be literally anything, like playing the guitar, drawing, or even becoming the best with girls (or preferred gender). I always think of my dad and how he struggles every day and eats literal crap because he is so poor and that everyone judges him for his passion, but cars are his life purpose and he accomplished so much, he is widely known and respected in my country by other car enthusiasts and always says how this passion kept him alive and thriving, and what I'm trying to say is that there needs to be something that you enjoy and then all the suffering is worth it. Don't judge yourself so much just pick something that gives you pleasure and master it. Soon you might be well known and respected for your work and maybe escape wage slavery through writing about your knowledge or by providing great products.

@moon777light I was thinking the same thing. Maybe they're a troll. The whole post is simply ironic by itself, whether intended or not.