Aquarius

@Shin Sigh unfortunately I have to agree with you. I was just curious what would happen if I stopped listening to music. At first I thought it was useful, because I went to sleep early, got up early so I was full of energy. Also, I distanced myself from toxic people, this causing me to be very energetic and full of good vibes. But the thing is, I can go to sleep earlier and give up listening to music at night, and maybe only listen in the morning or when I'm in the mood for 5-10 minutes each session. And as soon as I surrounded myself with other toxic people, things went bad again, and I didn't even have music by my side to soothe me. And the main thing that I realized is that there needs to be discipline and lots of planning and awareness about every subtle and hard addiction, because as soon as I stopped my urge to listen to music, I would pick up some food, sleep, internet, online chatting and other obsessions, and my important things didn't get cared of!!! This experiment wasn't wasted time though, as I gained the following insights: I have more subtle and semi-hard addictions than I imagined I need discipline not to replace a bad habit with another bad habit when I suffer I became more aware of my surroundings and faced some harsh hidden truths still a subtle addiction, BUT! I talked to more people which is progress because I'm shy. the realization that problems are multi-faceted, and need systematic healing approach (e.g. eliminating all the factors not just one, eliminating the root cause first) I need to spend more time with my family I spent more time on the forum and I got many insights for my growth I'll stop this challenge for now and put it away for times when I can come up with a systematic plan for eliminating root problems, which means incorporating meditation practices, communicating more with family, planning more outside activities and travels, and releasing trapped emotions! Thanks everybody for actually warning me that I'm deceiving myself with this challenge. It's a good challenge, Leo Gura recommended it a year ago. But I don't need it right now. It was fun though lol. I'll write in this thread soon if I have something to add.

Is that Vesta? Enlighten me.

@Strikr I get what you mean. It's not the case though. Don't project your expectations on me please. It was a simple statement that I appreciate how Leo succeeded at making self-development available to the masses on such a high quality, grounded format.

@Serotoninluv Cool have fun you guys.

I'm laughing so hard lol! I fell into this trap sometimes as well though. Worst memories ugh. Edit: It's funny that it's mostly people who have problems themselves who come to you with this approach.

There's no point to pursue enlightenment until you "get it" yourself. You'll have to answer your own question. Getting an answer from someone else kinda ruins the whole purpose of it. Try moving up the spiral and the insights will come.

Yes! Leo is great! I don't know how he does it. Every word of his is extraordinarily grounded and collected. Blows my mind.

Lol kinda ironic because there are many versions of the Bible and they changed it many times over the years.

The first part with the panties sounds really cute. But the second one with yelling and all could leave her crying. If someone did that with me I would even break up with them lol. Or maybe just leave me disgusted of them for a long period.

Day 2: I did not listen to music, but this guy had his first radio show and I was curious so I listened for like 5 minutes, just to hear his voice. He was talking more than letting music play so I don't really consider this listening to music. Besides, I only stayed for around 5 minutes to congratulate him. I heard a song in a clothing shop that I liked and interestingly I could appreciate it more than in the times when I listened to 4-5 hours of music daily. I didn't go to the shop to listen to music so this is not cheating. I needed to buy something. I had some minor sadness and conflicts with some people, also inner conflicts related to my departure from my ex-bestfriend. I decided not to talk about him anymore because I'm just complicating things anyway. The idea is that this triggered very negative feelings in me and I immediately felt the urge to gratify myself with some music. I carefully observed how this urge arised, then I let go of it. I think I might have repressed it as well. But honestly this forced me to face some truths that I've been avoiding because they were too painful. Especially regarding some deep wounds. I feel like my mind is generally more clearer nowadays now that I don't really daydream, so it's easier to see the big picture. When I daydreamed I think I often self-deceived as well with idealistic lies. Today I was in a worse mood than usually, but it went ok.

@EternalForest What car? Lol. And no, it is an addiction and a crutch for me. It doesn't work like that. I disconnect from reality and I daydream too much when I listen to music. It became a problem. Trust me, this is real hard addiction not just something insignificant sadly. It also always destroyed my sleep schedule because 1 hour was never enough, I needed more and more and couldn't control my hunger for music. Even when I felt sick of it and I hated it, I still needed it when I was sad, angry, frustrated, etc. There are more healthy ways of dealing with these emotions and their roots than running away from the truth. Like facing them for example. It's more complex than just listening to songs for me. I'm not saying people should stop listening to music, it's just that this helps me if I stop. Because that's my psychology. What helps me might harm you and vice versa.

Some of them have a lot of views so yes, people are reading them. I am reading interesting journals sometimes.

@Shin Lol yeah I will force my new partner to binge on Leo!

@F A B I didn't research it either, I just heard about it from an underground youtube channel for women, so I wanted to check it out and watched a video. It seemed really cool, compared to other porn.

@Shin Never tried any of them anyway. I don't think I will anytime soon.

Wait, so Leo has a video about Yoni massage??? Omg

Edit: nevermind I'm watching a video, it was a confusion.

@Shin Sigh.. alright.

@Elysian Oh well I have like 7 symptoms on that list. It's crippling depression!!! Jokes aside, I never really looked into depression or what it really means because I'm generally very active, motivated and full of energy. But it seems like I have to take care of it asap before it ruins me. Oh nice, good to know that the most important person to me thinks of me as a nuisance! @Shin How could I be so naive? lol Problem is that when I give him more space he always comes back and is really nice to me so it's confusing. I don't think he has clear goals in life..

@bejapuskas Yeah it's usually me telling him to go outside with me. I talked to him today on the phone because he invited me to his first ever radio show (which is online). I casually asked if he wants to see my new haircut, and he was laughing awkwardly and changed the topic. Maybe he just has emotions about the show and needs to prepare, but I don't know. It's weird, really. It's like he has extremely strong feelings for me, yet avoids me at all costs and treats me like crap sometimes. Maybe it's really my fault, for whatever reason. @Mu_ I'd like to learn more about these dynamics. Not necessarily to fix our friendship, but I'm curious. Where do you learn about these?

@Shin It's a tantric massage where you relax tension on the woman's body. It's really intimate and therapeutic. Thank me later.

Try Yoni massage. I saw it on pornhub and it looks cool.

Is this from a movie..?

Many reasons. Some do it to mask a pain, others because of peer pressure, and most of people do it recreationally. A few people though do it to enlighten or get spiritual insights.

Day 1: Yesterday I was having some urges to listen to music. Usually I get up and dance with headphones on my head. I did get these automatic behaviors, I did get up, moved around in the house. Then sat down again. Then got up again. I also felt it a few times in my stomach, as if I was "hungry" for music. Today (day 1) was ok. I didn't do that automatic walking around the house that much. I was more present in the moment. More energetic. More social. I had maths class this morning and I could actually resist 2 full hours of maths, not just 1. Then I visited my father and socialized a bit with him. He had music in the car and we also had music in the restaurant, but it wasn't my taste so it's not like it got me into Daydreamland or anything like that. Overall I feel like I am more energetic, present, social and witty. I had some really cheeky comebacks (which means I'm fully present and not daydreaming or ruminating). I was talking with some men on a dating site, not to actually date them but mainly to practice my skills (honestly I'm shy even around internet people). But today went great. I could actually have fun and get the best out of even the most annoying men. It felt like I'm in control. I didn't get the urges to get up from the computer and listen to music like I usually do. So it went fine. It's really amazing how much removing a simple distraction does with your life! I had such a rich day today when I didn't just hang on my phone with all the bs repetitive music. I also went to sleep earlier because I didn't distract myself with late hours of music listening. Honestly right now I have a great urge to go listen to the radio, or maybe the latest death metal album, because it became a habit over the last... 9 years? Oh god. But I'm going to sleep early again and I will be full of energy again! And this is worth so much more than listening to the same old songs on repeat!