Aquarius

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you! I admit, that article I posted did feel a bit off. I didn't do my workout today because I haven't slept much, just had a pretty cool enlightenment experience yesterday and spent the whole night enjoying it until I fell asleep. It's interesting how many people I attract when I'm enlightened, while in the same time I feel am nothing. Maybe it's time to actually read some self-dev books again as in the good old times (say, 3 months ago??? haha) and do more mathematics that I love, to reconnect with the joy of living in the beautiful mystery we call reality. My psychiatrist prescribed me a nootropic and it has been doing its job in the last month or so. I'm also taking plant-based liver supplement to repair the horrible damage I suffered these 8 years or so of medication. I think I'm becoming a human... Just kidding haha. I've been contemplating raw vegan diet for a while but it requires so much research... Will see what I can do. I'm pretty busy busy these days. I appreciate your help, lots.

This seems like a good article, maybe I can try doing something about my mood disorder. " Observational evidence shows a connection between the presence of psychotic disorders and poorer quality dietary patterns, higher intake of refined carbohydrates and total fat, and lower intake or levels of fibre, ω-3 and ω-6 fatty acids, vegetables, fruit, and certain vitamins and minerals (vitamin B12 and B6, folate, vitamin C, zinc, and selenium). Evidence illustrates a role of food allergy and sensitivity as well as microbiome composition and specific phytonutrients (such as L-theanine, sulforaphane, and resveratrol). Experimental studies have demonstrated benefit using healthy diet patterns and specific vitamins and minerals (vitamin B12 and B6, folate, and zinc) and amino acids (serine, lysine, glycine, and tryptophan)." Source: https://www.karger.com/Article/FullText/493399 Time to shop vitamins you guys. [grocery list] - beans, lentils - pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, brazil nuts, walnuts - salmon, herring, sardines - orange, lime, apple, tomato - chicken, eggs

If anyone wonders why I eat so much protein, it's because I've been starving myself accidentally back in December when my Kundalini awakened. Need to regain balance, take better care of what I do. I'm satisfied with the fact that I don't eat bread anymore. That is something. People were asking me if I'm 18 yet, I think that's a good sign that I'm healthy..?

Dinner: salami, 2 chicken breast steaks, sardines Before-bed Snack: chicken breast steak, tomato Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, yogurt

The shepherds could be paid for their loss.

My heart rate is 144/m when I meditate to music. Measured right now while listening to the radio. Heh, who knew. I kinda thought it's too little. What is normal??? When I do exercise it's probably 200+. I never did psychedelics so I cannot tell. But I think you're fine.

I love this forum.

No, the guy is genuine about the question, but no one really helps him.

Everything is possible.

Beautiful.

@Nahm Thank you.

the music that cannot be heard (2/11/19) today was a nice day and it rains it is always nice when the rain rains step it back push it down jump up sail around make it move get it down many many all around happy end never end hit back hit yourself eat it up push it down many many sail around

A collection of old and new poems written by me.

@Leo Gura What if they are ambitious and imaginative but people punish them because they are visually attractive and decent kind persons? Asking for a friend.

@Aakash verry nice enjoy

i think i read this thread at least 10 times in the past what do i do now

@clouffy but i dont feel anything anymore right now what do i do @Charlotte ok i try

im having the weirdest deja vu help me u guys

am i enlightened or am i not

Weight: 81.1 kg

Snack: banana, chocolate Lunch: rice, chicken breast, tomato and lettuce Snack: apples

Breakfast: chicken snitzel, cheese, milk

[workout] What the workout was about: I'm glad I finally could workout, this Sunday was a torture without it. I guess it's the habit, in my culture I mean, that Sundays are supposed to be lazy and "do-nothing"-ish. That moment when indoctrination is stronger than your mind... This time I simply wanted to center myself. I felt very empty and I needed this. Am I even human? The fat on my neck doesn't let me correct my posture, soooo I need to take care of that. Slow, steady movements, muscle building, tons of water again. Type of exercises: stretching, abs, neck, general workout Satisfaction level: A nice 7 this time. I mean I feel like nothingness incarnated, but hey, at least I got some energy moving! I guess it all boils down to thoughts. Music: Listened to a subliminal track for fast metabolism on repeat for about 1 hour.

Dinner: snitzel, lettuce, tomatoes It's getting awkward to write water all the time so I won't note the drink anymore lol. It's water always btw.

Lunch: vegetable soup, mashed potatoes, snitzel Drink: water Snack: lettuce, tomatoes, apples Drink: water