Aquarius

Me too! Used to be ENFJ, then INFP, now I think I'm finally a strong and stable INFJ-A

I don't drink or smoke and never did. Just sayin.

@Seeker_87 I don't, he/or she does

Yeaa... that's sweet, I like the idea. Make it into 6 weeks chunks, the whole plan. I can give you some random ideas.. Stuff I wrote in the quote in bold. Now make a plan. Put it in 3-6 weeks chunks and mini-plans. Good luck, CreamCat!!!

I have a mate in our apartment we rent that wants to try this. I had an internet friend, who was my personal astrologer and he did that. He slept 2 hours twice every night (so 4 hours total). He said he was super refreshed and he also looked really nice and rested. There are like 6 ways you can practice this type of sleeping habit. You need to research it though?? I think? So you're safe. And pleeeeease please, avoid being in your room or staying in bed in daytime. It ruins sleep hygiene. No coffee or chocolate after 3 pm. Stop consuming energy drinks and similar stuff. Yeah.

You don't control anything. Just surrender to Truth. And anyway, like others said... take care what you consume. Purge all the nonsense you consume like social media, fast food, toxic conversations... Let in the new, the fresh. Challenge your comfort zone. Listen to new music, experiment with new books, start a new sport or athletic activity. Consider subliminal messages, meditation, singing bowls... I recommend Quadible Integrity and Subliminal Frequency Wizard from YouTube. Nothing else works for me. Use mantra chants or listen to mantra chants. Write out your thoughts. Change your thoughts. Be radically honest with yourself. Take up hero's journey..... Etc etc.. p.s. still dont know what you mean by controlling i mean just wtf be present in the moment and command your mind to do things for you ... easy. Book recommendation: You Are The Placebo, by Joe Dispenza. This book might be what you are looking for!

I keep thinking... if you're a real SD stage 'Green' , how come you isolate yourself and all that? I kinda know that of myself that I' kinda green-ish in the sense that, I always make people happy and try to bring positivity to the human race wherever I am with whatever I may do. Define Orange and Blue "ideas" for me please... A stage green has already integrated those ideas and works with them smoothly in order to create something with said persons. For example I consider myself being between green and yellow, and mom being hardcore blue our conversations have a block after a while, a significant while though, which is transformative. Be the change you wanna see in the world much?? Respect everyone peace love everybodaaaaaay????? According to this image above you are supposed to view people as equals if you are SD 'Green'. Sharing things with persons you love, having a sense of community are at your core when you are a Green. For me what you describes sounds like you have to work on yourself, you're going through stuff and all, you're growing. You seem to value growth and social interaction, which are High Orange / Low Green traits. If I had to give you advice, I'd say to make peace with yourself and the people in your life. Don't just be a 'me vs them' thinker.

I comment on other speedpaint channels. Currently I'm at 12 subs in 2 weeks. Which is ok. This week I was completely inactive though. Moving in bigger city looking for jobs and all kinda had me busy., Sure, loving the idea!! I will see what I can do, I don't have my laptop with me, sooooooo I will have to improvise heh You will get it soon dont worry

Looking for a longer term relationship. But whatever, I already found two guys I like that would work, I have a date with one tomorrow. He is 18 (I'm 21) and he is coming to visit. And there is one (23) that wants a loooong term relationship that I'm meeting next weekend and with whom I'm gonna continue seriously and maybe move in. I just couldn't let this 18 old amazing intelligent guy to "slip away" without at least 1 date. <3 And the 23 year old knows that I still date guys... we are not together yet. So I am free to date this cutie tomorrow..

Hey, so I met a guy from okcupid who lives in a nearby city. He was a bit depressed and anxious but I guess it was ok. First time meeting an internet friend. Barely knew him for 5 days. So we like chatted and sent selfies, then I was like you know what if you were here I'd do something with you (obv joking), and apparently it turned him on cause he said he has a car, and I was like "Cool, come over!" And in 2 hours he was here!!!!! And I showed him my town cause he's never been around. Then he rented an expensive hotel room for a night, He only stayed a few hours tho... And I took a shower cause I was working out all day and smelling like a skunk, was realising it turned him off but like whatever. Came out from the shower, dressed up in front of him and cuddled him He started weirdly massaging me like really aggressively and almost choking me, I was like Woahhhh slow down m8..... Apperently then the spark was gone. Did blowjob, sex. He got a headache. I was cheering him up and took him in nature, in forest. He looked very depressed, he had the saddest eyes I've seen. He drove back to his town and I was talking to him, he admitted I am really cool and amazing, kinda felt bad for using an innocent young girl like me. There was no emotional connection. Cold, dry, aggressive sexual encounter. I'm not this type of girl so later at night after taking my sleeping pills I felt guilty..... I felt very empty inside and abused in a sense. Not too much but yeah. Wished him good night on Facebook. Today he didn't hmu. Mad. Bad. Sad. At least had sex soo.,? Ok so I feel bad help me guys I'm not into this stuff.. What should I doooo

True. Maybe it was kinda new. And in my town we are kinda like... idk morally conservative? -- Lack for better expression from my part... I love okcupid, very cool guys. 1230 matches woahhhh..... Maybe the girls aren't as good idk?? I once put that im bi and the girls use it to went out frustrations mainly.. Like I had a girl tell me about her car accidents and all.. Another crying about her ex for 2 hours........ Guys never do that. Straight to the subject, cool, fun... Maybe I just need to try more. Thanks! Exactly, just what I did and all the creeps went away now I meet intelligent cool guys <3 A lot depends on you. As an Aquarius (and vedic Mithuna lagna) I am amazingly energetic and talkative. I'm almost always the dominant one with the boys...

I don't know. He seemed good looking and I've never really been on a date. I had a boyfriend for about a week.....but he said I'm too young. 10 years difference. Hmm.. Then again I had a 4 years relationship that ended up the guy leaving me for a bdsm masochist.. Then this guy came and we talked about every night for 2-3 days. And I was like cool, a real human. And idk his vibe maybe. Friendly, easy-going. I don't really care about the sex stuff, I guess he just made me curious, plus I sensed that I could trust him. And it was OK. ^^

Guess I got luck?... Hehe?.. heh? ...............

Yeah wasn't excited at all, more like relaxed, bored... Third date rule seems fine. Thanks!! Yeah. Say no. Learn learn learn Aquariusss.... Thank you dear Mandy!! So true!!! Yes I want to give give give and get back sooo much less. Sadly. Yes, I want to know a man. Moving to bigger town so I might have some luck Lots of creeps on Cupid. Yes, he did SAY that... that he wants a woman cause he is repressed or something. uhh..???

True. Knowing each other 1 month prior. Videochat daily, serious flirting. I know the deal. Once I met a cool guy and we connected well. We still talk and send memes. Good times.... sad he lives too far away. Moving in bigger town tho. Tomorrow. Not sure if I'll be online but will check back to journal.......

Hello Ajasatya. I had a boyfriend for two weeks. I met him in the nearby park. It's true, they are warmer if they are local and they don't use you like that since here everyone knows everyone. Small town life heh... He broke up with me excusing that I'm a child and I have no common sense and culture... Which is true! No resentments it was fiiine. So I wanted to date and this guy was kind and pretty chill. He wanted to do fun stuff I was like cool.. But his energy.. yuck! First he was excited and even smiled but felt guilty and awkward after hotel room sex. I actually got angry looks from locals and a guy told me when on the way home "won't u gimme ur ass to me too?" ... lmao how'd he known i had someone that day.?? I only had 1 bf I had sex with. Thought some good sex would help me relax after all this hospital drama back in the summer. It just made me depressed and detached. But he had erectyle dysfunction or whatever cause it don't even last 30 seconds ugh. Didn't even want to see my eyes, like avoiding eye conact heavily. No emotional connection. We both ruined this lol......

Aww thanks Leo, you're a sweetheart! Yes it was weird... Honestly I made it clear on Facebook that I only want cuddle But in the hotel room he was asserting: I came here with an intention you know Woah... He, like, told me that his friends have fun and he feels lonely and only plays videogames, and he looked at me while we were walking and he said that in 30 years he had so much shit. Also, he's a weed addict. Another red flag? We shared a non-weed cigarette, plain menthol Kent. Was nice. Honestly I felt like he was about to cry any second. Gosh.... I don't randomly sleep with people........ It's my first date. I didn't know what's ok and what's not. So yeah test the waters they say... it will be fun they say... ugh. Obviously have to know them better. Kinda felt he was this way. Idk why I still wanted to meet him. Too bad he has anxiety n depression. On phone when i don't have to see his face he is pretty talkative... Another red flag.. no touch and no kiss. Didn't even want to have normal sex.. just hit it from the back. So that he would have no eye contact wtff

@Shin Absolutely.

Ohhh, this should be interesting... ??

Yikes. I quit Rivotril, will I dieee???

Need ideas you guys. Give me crazy, trippy ideas. Might draw trip reports from this site lol since I cant do stuff because of schizophrenia...

@Identity Thank you! Also guys, new ep..

continuing of i. -- past hurt 3. When I was a child my father broke my pooping thing that children use and it created a deep emotional scar. I remember I dug deep in my subconscious with @Elysian back in December of 2018, and plucked the whole thing out. Just like that. Ayyyy lmaoooo. Solution: I contacted my father, I started talking to him on Facebook first and started visiting him again. He is still verbally and emotionaly abusive but I learned to handle it and accept him. I started riding the bike and bought myself an oldskool skateboard. I healed the relationship with my mother. I try to get her mind off compulsive praying habit and I just talk to her like we are best friends. She is double Pisces Scorpio Moon. Father is Sag/Cap cusp, I am Cap/Aqua cusp. We get on well. Mother doesn't talk to father but now she can look at pictures of him. We are ok now. Book that helped: @Leo Gura (consider adding this book to your list PLEASE)

If you post things to impress others or because you're lonely and you want people to talk to you it's ego. If you are doing from pure enjoyment, no problem. Either way you SHOULD NOT repress yourself, just do whatever feels good. Your journal is my favourite thing on the whole actualized comunity. Ego or not, would miss it badly if you stopped. Please continue what you do. Journaling is a beautiful tool for shadow integration. I honestly forgot about shadow work n all because I'm doing workout, sports, bike, walking in nature, skateboard all day + dating cool guys soooo I forgot to be online hahaha, but sometimes I have a long deep convo with @Elysian on videochat and he helped me become aware of my etheric body. I did shadow work with @Elysian back in the day and it was the most painful thing. I could help you do it so message me sometime friend, take care. Love ~~~

Tree of life for a guy I'm dating right now. (finally FINALLY broke up with ex... @Shin )