Aquarius

I didn't watch TV for like 10 years now.. Not even movies, I don't have Netflix. Tried to watch an anime the other day, but it was so boring that I deleted the mobile app. @Preety_India You might enjoy a Gaia subscription.

Maybe because it is iLlEgAl... dunno

Lmaoo

No way lmao, I told him no. Gurl, sameeeeee! Thanks Shin, love ya. :* I really needed to hear this.

B-but but... I dooooon't... he does .. :'( I am as detached as possible. I mean I was, while it lasted,.. I don't really want a relationship right now, since I want to develop myself more, both physically and spiritually. He simply asked me out and I said yes. And no, he is not a stalker.. we just happened to have mutual friends. Many people add me like that. I add people like that, too! My town is very small soo... Ummmm what. Sorry but I don't want children, he kept forcing that idea. I this you misread something. I broke up with him yay. You're right... he started to show his true colour soon. And I never really got the idea of getting children... like from the first date he kept saying that. Good thing he is not part of my life anymore. He adored to victimize himself. This doesn't resonate with me honestly. I usually get the guys that ask me out. I rarely get some good guy. If I do, they dump me because' wow you're too uneducated and unexperienced yadda yadda" I would never dump a guy that loved me, unless he was toxic. Only had like 3-4 relationships till now. I like normal guys, people who are similar to me. I don't like being needed, I am a very detached person. INFP_A personality automatically likes helping and making people happy, but not just boyfriends. I can't help that low self-esteem guys like me, high self-esteem guys say im retarded lmao.

Thanks. Yeah, I realised he is not my type. So many things I didn't like about him... I heard him talk on the phone once... he really does have an alcohol abuse and aggression problem. I used to get angry at Leo saying someone with a mental illness is a red flag, but now I finally got it... And I beat my own mental illness myself. Thanks! In the end we broke up cause he wanted to travel to different city and I refused. I found it best to depart from him because I wanted him to continue his destiny. Yes, he is extremely immature. Definitely has a drinking and fighting problem. For example his mother went missing for a few hours, and I told him she is fine. But him? He kept saying he will beat up his neighbours to tell him where she is and that kinda stuff. Sounds very bad.. The English part was for this forum. I hoped to introduce him to PD. Buuuut we both speak the same language. Doesn't matter anymore. And yeah, I have a date somewhen this week. Life is great. What'd I do lmao. Thank you. I don't even contact him anymore. He started to get emotionally abusive one day. Glad I am mature enough to ignore him. I don't even like him lmao. I just tend to see the good in everybody. Aww okay. Well maybe. :'( Glad to meet a Sagittarius! You guys are so interesting! I don't honestly get that guy, I think he exaggerated with all those things. He kept talking about children children chldren... ughhh I hate kids mostly. I mean, not other people's children, but I wouldn't want them around...... Umm idk 1 week? Idk, he just asked me out! I dont like to friendzone...

Correct... Right. Thanks. Yup, I just realised.

My therapist said that he is in a deep victim mentality and that I am too strong for him, I cannot be manipulated thank God. Also we broke up. Going on different life paths, the both of us... He was trying to persuade me like, ' oh gosh I will close my phone number for a few days then all you nasty fuckers gonna miss me yada yadda yaddaly daa ' *eyeroll* Meh. I just don't like people that get drunk for no reason. I mean I get he was worried, but it's not normal to get drunk.... Thanks a bunch, Charlie! I'll definitely message you later.... He doesn't speak English unfortunately. Anyway, he does alcohol a lot, his sister told me to be careful with him... I confronted him and told he he has an alcohol abuse problem, and she brushed it off, like 'ohhh nooo, youre starting your bs again' Yeh. I read cards myself. Got an answer, was very accurate. Hah, right. Thanks Ajasatya. I had a panic attack for no reason the night before. It was even before the incident. Maybe badly aspected Moon. God knows! I told my dr i dont want no pills anymore. She's like no way you'll fall back into psychosis yadda yadda... anyway, today I fell asleep to a subliminal audio. Looked 15 years old this morning. Life's great, I just get hands twitching. I won't cold turkey this... I do have a great therapist, thanks! Please help me start with yoga and journaling.... I listen to meditation music at night but don't wanna cold turkey it so sudden. Haha no, I'm okaaay. I just got a panic attack that day. Only mentioned it cause it would have been weird to just simply state that I slept 12 hours that day. Yesterday I took no pill. I'm going vegan. Yaaaay.

The idea of affirmation is repetition.

I can only study with music on.. You can try this:

New one... compared to the older one I made about a year ago, this is sooo much better. and in tune with what I want.. (blue hair teen is about how I want to look, the hair)

Purple, Green, Turquoise.... Depending on how you approach it. I'm an astrologer myself.

I also feel very drained... might be the winter weather. I wanna basically hibernate and listen to music all day.

Astrology is Purple.

Humanistic Sciences are weird sometimes. Don't take everything you read or hear as written in stone. Even my psychiatrist uncle says that science is sometimes bullshit, especially the research field. I heard something once that blue eyed men don't tend to feel attracted toward brown eyed women. That was a biological proven scientific article, yeah. And guess what?? I had 2 boyfriends with blue eyes, 1 with green and the one I am dating right now has blue eyes. And he said I am beautiful. Soooo...???? Ignore science, focus on direct experience. About the being part of a group... that is psychology of teens.. of belonging or standing out. I think it is also in the Love, or Esteem Need of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. It's important to take a realistic approach on it, not an overly analytical, ISTP-type view. Open up to higher consciousness and see the world through loving eyes, instead of cold hard facts. There are certain things that science doesn't explain.

What others said... stay present. My friends whom have been cigarette smokers for years stopped and now live healthy. I never smoked or drank and yet I'm happy and in the moment. Find peace with who you are and with the world. Enjoy beauty. Check out these videos for help.. You might enjoy these books as well... https://www.shatterproof.org/blog/14-outstanding-books-about-addiction-and-recovery

I live with my family. It's hard to tell them not to buy unhealthy food. When I lived with my friends, I ate healthier. Hmm true. What about pescatarianism? No milk or eggs. I think it might be vegetarianism, if you don't consume meat. I didn't start this journey yet, I'm just daydreaming about it... but yeah, thanks for the comment! I need to stick to Leo's health guide....

What I meant was, I wouldn't beat myself up if I ate fast food or candy bar once in a while, but I plan to go semi-vegan/pescatarian. I don't like sugar in coffee or tea, but sometimes my mother buys me chocolate. For no reason. And I eat it because why not. But I never really crave sweets.

Yeah, I mean when they smoked, they told me to leave the room. And I was in the other room meditating or listening to music until they finished. They just told me that joints don't do anything but I didn't believe them..

Way of ""eating""... lol Btw this summer I was on perfusions so I didn't eat or drink much for about two months. I was actually horribly beated up in the hospital by other people because I didn't want to eat. I lost 20 kg (44 pounds) in 2 months.

@OctagonOctopus I heard so too from friends! I was offered a joint once but I refused.

I'm not neurotic I just hate sweets. Since childhood. I don't even like fruits that are sweet like grapes. It's a taste thing Thanks!

This used to be my Facebook background a few years ago! Also profile pic on some websites..

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