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lmfao replied to josephcampbellworld's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Good question. What are some of taboo words you're thinking of? What kind? When it comes to some words like shit and fuck I find it hard to see why such words are held in such a negative regard. I've heard them spoken so many times that they've assimilated into my vocabulary and aren't dirty anymore ( unless someone says "fuck you"). At the end of the day, certain words have just been conditioned to be bad. Some religious people are just prudes. I'm trying to just not get triggered by other people getting triggered. After all, me getting triggered is just a sign of hypocrisy. On a slight tangent, I think understanding why words like nigga, nig***, coon, fa***** and etc are hated is a lot is easier to understand. Those words just loaded with history and emotion, so I just stay away from them. Even though the word nigga has made it into the normal vocabulary for many people, theres a lot of controversy when someone uses the word even when they use the word in a non-hateful way. I've noticed that there's a number of people out there who are very sensitive to language, jokes and the slightest of hyperboles. Everyone (me included) has certain words or sentences they find repulsive and disgusting. It's human nature. But when I come across the small proportion of people who are easily triggered by the most minuscule things, I'm just surprised. Surprised that people with such thin skin have functioned in the world. But a thin skin can act as a defensive mechanism, and it especially works well when you have a group of people who will give you (what is often moral) validation when you get easily triggered. People across different societies and time periods have always been triggered by language, but what language they get triggered by changes. Some people take life and various artificial concepts too seriously, and one of the manifestations of this is being thin skinned in the way that both religious people and SJW's are. -
I've come across plenty of blue folk into astrology. The only blue folk who abhor astrology are staunch fundamentalist christians/muslims, and they aren't the full demographic of blue. Astrology is a present in many cultures. Like Nagma said its also maybe a stage purple thing. I remember posting this meme and Leo said that the belief astrology is delusional is delusional lol I'll be happy if theres something to astrology, why not eh.
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lmfao replied to Wisebaxter's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I've taken a total of 12 tablets of armodafinil over the past 2-3 months. It's quite interesting really. Most of my experiences with armodafinil have been non optimal because I've sort of assumed before taking it that armodafnil will make me less sleepy or tired. Armodafnil doesn't really make me less sleepy, it just makes me more focused and engaged with things. Funnily enough, like you I started doing some cleaning after taking the drug for the first time. I took half a pill of armodafinil 2 hours ago. I can tell its kicked it, but the drug hasn't made me any less sleepy or tired. It's just made me more focused. It doesnt make me less sleepy but it would make it harder for me to fall asleep, if that makes sense. The drug gives me mild headaches lol so im actually quite reluctant to use it often. But theres a place for it in my life, I think. I remember taking an eight of a pill a few times, so shit like that I can do often without noticeable headaches. If I had to describe it, its like theres a very subtle neutral energy coursing through your entire body when on the drug. I have like 50+ tablets left or so, its probably gonna last me a while. -
@TheAvatarState thanks for the tip same @Serotoninluv Yeah, manipulating the temperature around you can have the same control over you as manipulating what you can eat or drink. If you're deprived of water or food or are put in very extreme temperatures you'll suffer unless you are a buddha. Of course most of us dont find ourselves in those sort of extreme conditions. Yeah as for body awareness it seems I'm constantly straining some muscles in my body unconsciously. I'm always straining muscles in my face, stomach and legs. What applies to mindfulness in general applies to this situation. What prevents me from getting "better" is that I do not accept my unwillingness to accept the present moment. If my mind goes crazy with monkey mind I'll get annoyed about the fact that theres monkey mind instead of just being fine with there being monkey mind. I never would have started formal meditation rituals if I wasn't trying to escape anything yet it is my desire to escape something that holds me back. It's the double bind thats always there. How do you stop desire if you desire to stop desire? But once you "make it" past the double bind (even if its temporary) there are no words to say about the whole thing.
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By weather, I mean basically just mean temperature. I'm always bothered whether a room is too cold or hot. A few weeks ago my heating was broke and I was wearing 5 layers and was still freezing and bothered by the whole thing. My heating is fixed now, but I remember being extremely bothered by the weather. I'm not sure whether its worth it for me to constantly intentionally exposing myself to cold weather. A great deal of the suffering that I was feeling in cold weather was due to me just not accepting the situation, and trying to force both my mind and environment to be different. Thats easier said than done though.
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@K VIL watch the video if you're interested my nibba
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lmfao replied to Surfingthewave's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Surfingthewave I don't know how you retain the feeling. I have noticed that the reason that my attempts at increasing mindfullness and increasing awareness are unsuccessful is because I'm meditating with the intention of forcing awareness. I'm meditating with the belief that my current state of consciousness is horrible and unbearable, and I'm trying to get away from that. But it doesn't work. -
Leo needs to start a transition into becoming a cooking channel.
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@Eric Tarpall Action in the spirit of non-action my friend, its a beautiful thing https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wu_wei The thing is, for every waking moment of our lives existence/reality/(our consciousness) is in a state we did nothing to create. If the past and feature don't really exist, then all we live in is an uncaused present moment. I am just not "aware" of this fact most of the time. And the extent to which we are aware of this fact is the extent to which life and existence feels effortless and amazing.
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lmfao replied to Ali123's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Ali123 I've used binaural beats a fair bit when meditating. If I use them, I sometimes just do ohm chanting simultaneously. For me personally, I think my meditation sessions are deeper without binaural beats. I've noticed that I am using these sounds sometimes as a crutch for meditation through these sounds giving my mind stimulation and hence a higher sense of "artificial" ease. I use theta waves often. I've even experimented with gamma when meditating. I sometimes listen to alpha waves when reading for example. After about 50 minutes I acutely feel irritated and bothered by the sounds and take off my headphones. It's a very cool thing though. -
@Viking Drink green tea my dude. You'll get far less dependency symptoms and long term negative effects. The rule of thumb I have for a drug is that the less overt the change, the easier it is to use sensibly and frequently.
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lmfao replied to ivankiss's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@ivankiss For a philosopher it should be easy to see that any statement made about reality is based upon a bunch of unprovable axioms and assumptions about reality and this very sentence itself falls into that category of statements. One perspective to take on this is that mathematicians agree on a set of axioms with each other in order to construct the language with which they communicate. Godels Incompleteness theorem aside, after looking at a proof or formula in maths closely enough I'll think "of course this is true, it could have been no other way with our presuppositions. This formula in its entirety is an expression of previously established axioms, it's just expressed in a way which was unfamiliar to me". If we are to have a complete understanding of mathematics, Fermat's Last Theorem is no more surprising then the truth 2+2=4. The construction of axioms is no joke, and it goes as deep as you want it to. I believe there were two mathematicians who wrote 300 pages worth of concepts before justifying the statement "1+1=2". There's also a point which only people who've had some form mystical experience can get a sense of. All our statements are words. Its an obvious thing to realise that words are (just) words but we forget about the implications of such an obvious things. Words are just things popping up in the present moment. The explanations of words I give are just more words. Words don't actually "mean" anything beyond their raw form in consciousness. If I tell you that the word "tree" is just a sound and is literally not a tree that we see in the real world, most people will say "of course" but we forget this. The ideas that there exists good science, bad science, that science works, that we've accurately predicted eclipses, accurately predicted events in the external world, that planes fly and etc are just thoughts and words. Just because we do consciousness work doesn't mean you cant operate in day to day life as if science is real. I don't suppose enlightened people stop talking and spewing out words all together from their mouths just because many people confuse thought stories with actuality. You can have all sorts of thoughts and perform all sorts of actions whilst in a state of stillness. Enlightened people will still act as if cause and effect exists, if that's what God decides to do. At ground level zero levels of consciousness there's just -
There are times when meditation seems to cause strong feelings of nihilism and meaninglessness to surface. Yesterday I did a guided meditation with chanting and etc, and felt great afterwards. However today for example though, I thought I'd do a 50 minute SDS since I haven't done strong determination sitting in a long time. I just closed my eyes, stayed still in a silent environment. The whole thing felt very emotionally draining. Shortly afterwards I felt extremely deflated, but now (1 hour afterwards) im feeling better but still low. The thing is, I'm heavily addicted to stimulation.I'm 18 right now, have been trying to implement a daily meditation habit for 11 months now or so now. At the very least I've probably missed 45% of days. My idea of how many days i've missed is very rough, I have no clue. I know that since the age of 11 or 12 I've used various forms of technology, and also food but to a smaller degree, to escape negative emotions. It's very deeply ingrained in me. I just seek more and more and more stimulation. If I'm doing coursework or something, I'll put something in the background on my laptop on youtube or another website. It doesn't matter if I'm paying attention to the background stimulation, the mere presence of it is something I seem to be addicted to and it puts me in a false sense of ease I guess. It's because of my addiction to stimulation that I've done many meditation sessions which are guided or I'll meditate with sounds in the background. I've been using stimulation as a crutch for meditation. If I cease the stimulation and push myself to meditate in a SDS, I'll feel negative afterwards. I cant tell if this negativity is a sign of purification or just a sign of me worsening things, you know? Everything feels bland. My existence is ultimately not going anywhere. I feel as though it's easy enough for me loosen my psychological structure, but doing so acutely exposes me to negative emotions. It's almost as though I go too deep with meditation and bite off more than I can chew. Anytime I meditate its like going from 0 to 100. How does one smoothly go straight from having their mind occupied with the mundane to confronting the foundations of reality? Like right now, I'm trying to mindful of this negative emotion in my stomach which seems to always be there. Whilst for a split second or so I'll see through the illusion of it, my awareness will get lost in Maya again. It feels like a very uphill process.
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@Leo Gura I've heard great things about EEG Neurofeedback on this forum, something I should look into. Thanks.
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The two conditions put in the title of this thread were specifically mentioned by me since I think I have both of them, to whatever various degrees. I know that regardless of whatever the fact of the matter is in regards to what can be done about these conditions I should accept myself and move forward with what I want in life and be happy. But I ask this question regardless. The biggest source of frustration to me recently has been dyslexia and adhd because I feel those to be directly affecting me in my studies. Being slow at reading and having sub-par comprehension in combination with being distractible isn't a pleasant combination when I want to get something I find meaningful done. Because ideally I'd be doing a shit tonne of reading of mathematics and science since I enjoy that but reading just a few paragraphs of anything feels like a strenuous chore. I'm just typing this because I know that as far as mainstream medicine has developed, there is nothing which can be done about these conditions besides getting some sort of therapy to cope with these problems. Maybe I have to just accept it. I know that meditation improves my focus and concentration overall which is obviously a bonus. What triggered me to type this is the fact that I've become acutely aware of the fact that I can barely read a small article or something without feeling large amounts of mental exhaustion and irritability.
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@Anton Rogachevski yeah detaching from results is the best thing to do. Good advice. @Leo Gura I liked your analogy of just inspecting it. Awareness isn't something that can be forced out of neurosis. The paradox of self development. @Mu_ Suffering and addiction. I'm just trying to generate some positive emotion as well. hmmmmm good point. Nah I probably haven't seen much.
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lmfao replied to EternalForest's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@EternalForest Non-duality can be framed logically. We could define reality to just be everything that is present and happening right now. Everything right now that is occurring is occurring in one consciousness. For "you" right now, everything is happening in one consciousness. Other people are simply forms within your consciousness. It should be an obvious fact that everything is occurring in one consciousness, but alas here we are suffering and etc. I don't see the point in statements like "there are an infinite number of realities". That sort of take on things doesn't interest me in terms of consciousness work, because for the sake of consciousness work I see this as a concept. It's the sort of thing I would be interested in at a philosophical/scientific level. I've seen Leo for example to state that he "knows" (I'm straw manning Leo here but I can't think of a better word) that his true self will live forever, and that he knows the he's experienced reality as a dinosaur and that he has and will experience reality in an infinite number of forms. To clarify how Leo phrases it, it isn't the egoic self that lives forever and takes on infinite forms. It's God that lives "forever"(Mu, the void, brahman, Allah, Godhead, whatever name you use). But to be honest, I'm very averse to thinking of things that way. One thought which crosses my mind is that the assertion that you have and will experience all uncountable forms induces the notion of time. But what if time and at an even deeper level the existence of flux, perception, events itself is an "illusion". What does it mean to say "I will experience reality as a Spiderman". Where is this idea coming from? Reality is just: Shouldn't that be enough? -
lmfao replied to ActualizedDavid's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@ActualizedDavid The Book of Not Knowing Kriya Secrets Revealed These are two books which people might recommend to you on this forum regards to consciousness work. I've read part of the The Book of Not Knowing, its really good. But it also sounds like you might also be looking for more self actualisation centred books. -
@Charlotte Yeah you're pretty much completely right there. The difference between having monkey mind and not having as strong a degree of monkey mind is like night and day for me. I can feel "adhd" like symptoms of to be significantly relieved after meditating. Even if the effects are temporary I'd like to think that the presence of positive effects in the first palace is an indicator of what could be permanently possible. About procrastination. Like today my mind was ruminating non-stop about a deadline. But after meditation, I realised that my mind is just getting in its own way. I feel as though meditation makes me jump the gun less in all the decisions I make throughout the day. I've been inconsistent with my habit of meditation which is something I can mend.
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@Leo GuraIf astrology is low in your priority list for main channel videos then perhaps you could make a post on your blog about it? I'd like to see you try and make me stop being a dogmatic materialist Jokes aside, I would be pleasantly surprised if there was something of worth to "the study of the movements and relative positions of celestial objects as a means of divining information about human affairs and terrestrial events."
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@Charlotte I wouldn't say I read often. I do little bits of reading here and there if I'm in a university lecture, or if I'm reading English subtitles for shows I watch regularly. I'm lazy and so I don't put a lot of effort into studying and the sort and so I procrastinate till the last minute. @Marc Schinkel I just googled that guys name, it seems he's written a book on the topic. I'll look into it probably. @pixelwave Yeah the problem I have is that I'm unconscientious. If this were not the case I'd have organised myself better to deal with it all better. But even so the whole thing is frustrating lol.
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lmfao replied to tecladocasio's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@tecladocasio Leo is using words and concepts, but what else can he do? Leo is one to always say that God is beyond concepts and words. Words are like a finger pointing at the moon. “I am a finger pointing to the moon. Don’t look at me; look at the moon.” But yeah I can see why you pointed this out. -
@moon777light Religions are simply a subset of a ideologies, the way I see it. I cant be bothered to research enough into the semantics of how you define religion neither can I be bothered to research (read some shit cuz im lazy) into what liberalism exactly is so as to say whether liberalism is a religion but I'd be pretty confident in saying liberalism is an ideology and also a religion if what you typed was right. Yep pretty much. In regards to the last paragraph, all of us have unhealthy expressions and healthy expressions of each stage. You could probably say that the degree to which someone is "ideological" in their thoughts, beliefs, actions and behaviour is purely a function of "ego". Even if a person isn't subscribed overtly to an external ideology which someone has written in a book (like various religions, political beliefs, philosophical beliefs, metaphysical beliefs and etc which are written in books and given various names like "christianity" or "liberalism" for example) they will still exhibit the same patterns of thoughts and action of someone who does formally believe in some ideology. We all make assumptions, have skewed perceptions, examine the contents of our conciseness with a lens which wishes to confirm what we already think we know and etc. It's kinda of like how Leo said that despite the fact that not many things can be 100% classified as a cult, there are an extremely number of things which have cult dynamics. We all have ideological thinking, even if I profess myself to have non. I'm inclined to just simplify things and say that "ego" is the root of ideological thinking (since you can probably build extensive models of "ego" which confirm this idea if you were interested enough to do it, which someone like Leo probably is). Part of the reason I'm typing all of this is because your last paragraph made me think about how ideological thinking caries across the different stages in SD and I've gone off on a tangent. There is more to be said about Ideological thinking which isn't sufficiently described by just mentioning stage blue (ofc I know you weren't implying the converse to what I just said in this sentence). The set of all possible patterns of thinking which arise in a particular stage will on average contain "less" ego (I'm treating ego like its something which can be quantified in this sentence) than the average amount of ego found in the set of all possible patterns of thinking in the adjacently below stage. Maybe.
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Yeah sports probably is one of the best ways to do shadow work.
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I find these tracks inspirational, with the third one firing me up, because of the emotional associations I formed with them due to the shows they are in. I remember Durarara giving me a feeling of sonder. Y'all have trash taste in music, smh.