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  1. Hopefully Leo makes an MBTI video. I personally find mbti to be something I misuse, by essentially clinging to the "sensors are dumb" stereotype.
  2. England, Midlands

  3. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I've been having this deep fear emotion located in my stomach which I find difficult to fully explore. Its the emotion I found when inquiring into my misery, loneliness and suicidal thoughts. Today, it's still here. But for just a few moments occasionally, it has a different form. The feeling is then a complete deja vu of how I used to feel in high school sometimes. I haven't meditated on what it IS, but it's definitely associated with this weird longing and melancholy. The type of longing and melancholy someone who's love stricken has. I felt this feeling strongest when I had a crush in high school, but the feeling has somewhat mixed with other things. I have a hunch this is related to past emotions of alienation during teenage years, and those initially non-harmful emotions have changed form into something causing psychological hell. All these developments that I try to do or make happen, and the end of the day it's boiled down to consciousness practices. And technology is my way of turning my attention away from deeply negative feelings, fluctuating between strong and subtle, in my 24/7 experience. So clearly that has to be addressed.
  4. Alan Watts was quite inspired by J Krishnamurti as well. He says things so directly and plainly. You might find it hard to act on what he says when he at least superficially criticises all these practices like yoga and meditation, renouncing all forms of authority (including himself, if you look at his personal story you'd see this) and religious groups or organisations which promise salvation. But then all the while, he is emphasising what those practices want to achieve most. It's actually extremely funny. So meditate, do yoga anyway. I love this guy so much. I have to make notes lol.
  5. @Serotoninluv Everyones met a person or two like Trump lol. If you're on their side they shower you with unbelievable amounts of praise, the second they think you're not on their side they go back to their malicious behaviour. They will literally refuse to admit that they've lied until the end of time, even when presented with the truth. I don't know how to deal with such a person, since my family member is one.

  7. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I can't believe it. It's literally nothing. Why am I so happy but so melancholic at the same time? Everything I see and touch and feel its somehow nothing. wow. Im surprised I can even exist with everything thats here. It's as if a bubble popped. Is this even me anymore?
  8. For whatever reason, there is often a gap between our understanding of our topic and the extent to which it can be put into words. Put the issue of the map is not the territory to one side, as that is not what my focus is. It is so often the case that “we know” something but then you hear someone else put it into words so well. It’s as if another person has come to you and magically pulled out that which is on the periphery, subconscious levels of your reality and brought it into direct conscious recognition. There is an inherent healing property in putting into direct awareness chains of thought which were always in your experience, but the chains of thought were background noise that had an identity which was not precisely known. The awareness from articulating something clears the fog of it being a background chain of thought and brings into the light of your awareness. It’s why people like journaling, writing diaries, to do lists, talking therapy, and etc. There are fuzzy, background chains of thoughts which are messy and aren't in a form which is easily moved into direct recognition by your awareness. So there is a benefit in being good with words.
  9. Alan Watts certainly uses the medium of speaking well. I've consumed Alan Watts audio plenty so I prefer reading him.
  10. @Koyaanisqatsi Yeah Alan Watts is good Read a book of his. https://antilogicalism.files.wordpress.com/2017/07/wisdom-of-insecurity.pdf

  12. is iq flexible?

    lmfao replied to Mezanti's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I don't know. Maybe you could try downloading that dual-n-back game if you want? Another tip. If there's something/(some activity) you're passionate about (e.g. Life purpose) and having a higher IQ would help, do the activity you're passionate about and perhaps the brain will follow. The brain is flexible, so it can be trained for the different activities you care about. What that means about IQ I don't know. Supposing IQ metaphysically existed, I wouldn't be too surprised if it could improve.
  13. @Leo Gura How necessary are human relationships (friends, family, lovers)? Can loneliness actually be overcome? I feel as though you might have previously said that the neurosis preventing someone from developing deep relationships is easier to overcome than the fear that drives the need for human relationships in the first place. If someone feels like they don't fit in with the people around them due to their niche combination of personality type and interests, what are they to do? Would you say it comes down to developing charisma, in the sense that you are an authentic version of yourself which is visible to others? When it particularly comes to making sexual relationships you seem to encourage pickup artist practices. But that seems like it's a bit inauthentic and involves being fake to other people. Your thoughts?

  14. Spiral Dynamics live event in London

    lmfao replied to Martin Skworc's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    If anyone does go to it, please do write about it if you want to

  15. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Thursday 03/10/2019 I'm quite ill so I've decided to reflect upon it. For the past day, I've done everything I can to distract my mind and run away from it. Eat junk food, masturbate, watch Netflix. None of it worked. And after so much agonising, I've semi given up on fighting it and the suffering is slightly less (albeit still abundant). I don't even want to drink water because the the act of swallowing hurts my throat a lot, and it doesn't help that every 20 seconds I'm compulsively spitting out saliva and mucus from my mouth. Painful situations really are a double edged sword. They either force you to surrender and give up resisting or they make you suffer unbelievably. It really is quite cruel. On a tangent, it was months ago I was extremely ill whilst travelling, and it lead to me having a delirious break down where the experience was probably what one gets on an extremely, extremely bad psychedelic trip. Sense of self and reality was stripped away in the most negative way possible. I thought I had gone crazy, and everything felt so fake and unreal, as though I was in a dream. I always find myself reflecting on this experience.
  16. Woah, existence. Where did that come from? Pretty funny eh
  17. I'm about to move out and start university. During the last year of uni I didn't cope very well with life and at some points had suicidal thoughts (but coped better once I was back home with family). I would like to think I've changed since then and learnt from the experience but I don't really know. I've already been on SSRI's for a while, but its possible my medication would change if I talked to a doctor (e.g. increased). If I go this route, will using the medication mean that I will lessen my chances of making real progress? Or can it act as a crutch which allows me to slowly face my demons at my own pace? Advice from anyone who's used any sort of mental health drugs and/or has made self improvements despite/whilst taking them is especially appreciated (ofc advice from anyone is appreciated).
  18. @Bill W Mods are gonna pretend they didn't see this thread but then Leo will come.
  19. @Anna1 Thanks @Freakyboo @JustThinkingAloud yeah I'll just have to figure out what to do. @Elisabeth Woah thanks for the long response. Yeah I won't start taking anything more than SSRI's I don't think. Good bullet points. I think finding friendships is a hard thing. I don't really fit in anywhere.My interests and personality type is too niche. Even though I'm doing physics at university I haven't really found anyone I click with. I'm in my second year, I just walk into lecture halls in a random place with no friends, and then walk out.
  20. Are there any particular techniques one can use for walking meditation? If it's a technique referenced in kriya secrets revealed tell me page number or the name.
  21. I remember watching that video ages ago actually.
  22. My intuition is Bernie would land slide Trump if he got nominated. I'd be dissapointed if anyone besides Bernie was nominated from the Democrats. Policy wise, Democrats are on point. Abortion, immigration, education, wages and etc. Although I'm agnostic on guns. The biggest thing I've noticed democrats being right about is health care, the facts seem completely one sided but there's misinformation about it. When it comes to Trump winning I loved the documentary "The Great Hack". Trumps digital presence and marketing was above and beyond Hillarys lmao. Cambridge Analytica used everyone's data. Bernie seems genuinely inspiring. Trump is just inspiring to ethnocentrism. And Hillarys hard core fan base was full of people screaming "omg she has a vagina". I imagine that for many people voting for Trump stems out of apathy. Feminist outrage and policitical correctness doesn't help either. And if someone is bored, they want someone who they think will make waves and shake things up.
  23. Yeah I can't tell either what's true or false about it. I don't think it's been studied. Brain damage is a big deal, but I'm not from a medical background to know if a short term decrease in blood flow and oxygen to the brain will cause damage. For all I know, the altered brain state is good if done occasionally. I'd rather do psychedelics, seems safer.
  24. If Biden was the democrat nominee Trump would win again lmao.
  25. @TrynaBeTurquoise No clue. If I experiment with tapering off I would do it in probs a few weeks when I have settled into new lifestyle. Yeah that last sentence is the most important tbh. The cruelest irony of neurosis is that it is only removed by "accepting" it, the more you feel guilty about it the worse that something becomes, in my experience. Because what's needed is an increase in conciousness, but guilt and low self esteem will cloud your mind even further. Yeah I have the theory... Just the application.