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  1. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    The body of one of my best friends who went missing was discovered today in a river, after he went missing for a week. I still don't know how he died or what the circumstances were, but I'm in shock and feel sick. I've talked to one of my other closest friends in person, talked to my family, cried, but I still feel nauseous in my stomach and sick. I'm just gonna talk to my friends who knew him, maybe his family some time, I don't know.
  2. @Galyna interesting you mentioned this thing about 3D space. I wouldn't necessarily "take it for granted" if that's happening. Recently I did a "spiritual autolysis" session (where you try and write down what's true, attacking and critiquing what you write) with myself (one of the few I've ever done). And in it I ended up paying attention to this notion of space or objects. Making statements like "space exists" to "3D space exists" to "space exists and is described with 3 perpendicular directions". What logical justification is there for that last statement? "Any object I pick in space can be reached through a description of these 3 perpendicular lines"..... And this was just one train of investigation which I scrap before moving onto to another. Because what ends up happening is that what ends up popping out is "I". Behind every supposed truth statement is the tautology of I. "I am I because I say so!". After saying "space exists" a second time, in an attempt to be more truthful I write "I think space exists". Then after that I wrote "I am a thought", and then "I am stating I am a thought. How do I know it is true?".... And then the investigation diverged into some other things, you get the picture.
  3. @GoingHome it's great that you read those books, if what I've practiced of ACIM is of any indication of how good they are. Also, that baby in your pfp is adorable!
  4. @Zigzag Idiot Thanks for sharing. I hadn't really thought too much about the theory untill I saw this post of yours. I'm considering looking at the online free pdf of the theory whilst I have the workbook. Interesting that you didn't like the workbook as much as the main text. And I can relate to you about this missing days thing. Under 50% of days am I taking on an exercise it seems, barely over lesson 20. That said, I've been loving it so far. Even though it's a workbook, it states many spot on truths in the explanations for the lessons that leave me like "wow". The most recent wow moment being the lesson "What I see is a form of vengeance", in that I'm paranoid about being hurt and punished by (the world) /(God) , and hence close off my self.
  5. Yup, no free will. In the relative sense there's "choice" when your consciousness is sufficiently free of bondage and neurosis to pick a path freely. Keep your awareness focused approximately one inch below your navel as a meditative technique, during your life sometimes. And see if you notice an effect.
  6. @Galyna There's no time but there's flux. Now isn't that damn strange? Or is there flux?
  7. Yeah and Tim Pool himself is worse. God bless his soul, he's a little dim : P
  8. Sam Harris when he's talking about the importance of bombing brown children
  9. Bruh I'm dead
  10. Did your video cut out at the end? I listened to all of it lol. It sounded like you hadn't said what you wanted to say.

  11. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Tuesday 22/09/2020 23:30 I found out today (2 hours ago) that one of my best friends has been reported missing, not seen in 3 days now. I'm extremely shocked. I'm not usually one to be superstitious, but today I woke up feeling extremely drained and depressed, before I even heard the news. I could tell he was a bit more depressed. There's just waiting, hoping and seeing now.
  12. I think the being on the autistic on spectrum is a tough thing to deal with for men, including myself. Simple things like making eye contact even with your own family members in conversation can feel uncomfortable and difficult at times. It's not hopeless. Just sucks to have "high functioning autism" since childhood which impairs your ability to socialise well, leading to social anxiety, leading to more and more avoidance and making the problem worse. The only way out is to take action I suppose. I can't tell the difference between what's in my control or beyond my control with finding eye contact uncomfortable. And so that internal conflict of constantly beating yourself up with not living up to ideals takes a toll and wastes energy. I'm never fallen down an incel rabbit hole, and I don't plan to. I have the precipitating factors untill I learn social skills and building connection/joy from strangers. Problem is that I feel like an alien wearing a human costume, so low self esteem from that, so I avoid. Avoidance is the main theme Imposter syndrome. Dodging any and all responsibilities like the plague. Probably "avoidant personality disorder"
  13. @Stoica Doru is this like Ramadhan?
  14. To be honest, I'm a bit separated from how trump supporters think now. In 2016, I supported Trump as a meme. Being just a teen shitposting on the Internet. I liked him for not being PC. But now it's so obvious that he isn't anti establishment at all and is the establishment. Trump won because of memes and shitposting. I refuse to believe otherwise. Teens who would shit post kekistan and pepe. Don't get me wrong, pepe memes are still and always will be amazing. Thankfully they've been depoliticised. Kekistan is a cringe meme now though. I don't think he has that same power now, but he doesn't need to have it. He has other avenues of energy and enthusiasm. Just normal conservatives. Since I used to identify strongly as an atheist back as a teen, I followed Sam Harris, got dragged into the anti-SJW shit. I was in reaction to my strict Islam upbringing, and was mildly xenophobic of third world muslim countries. What I found interesting is that all of us Sam Harris fans were pro Trump, but Sam was as anti Trump as someone could be. It was weird. It shows that Sam was being played like a fiddle by his own narratives about the evil far left, and didn't realise what he was empowering. But he hasn't learnt since then. He's still as left brained and thick skulled as ever.
  15. I think Trump would dig himself in a deeper hole if it happened. And its not like it would even be a serious or real discussion. You don't have to watch many Trump interviews before knowing the general pattern of how he answers questions or handles opposition. Growing up as a young kid, probably when you're 4 or 5 years old, everyone had that one friend who would constantly make the most nonsensical and outlandish stories up, and brag. That's basically Trump. And it's cute. Unless they never grow out of that phase and become president. And when something is good, it's not just good. It's the best! Number 1 quality!
  16. @electroBeam David Hawkins has a book called "Healing and Recovery". It's a text record of lectures he gave about healing and overcoming various illnesses (anxiety, depression, obesity, alcoholism, sex addiction, etc). So it's not a proper book per say, since he repeats himself in chapters and its a record of his lectures. But its definitely worth a quick read if you're able to speed read or skim through the repetition. What he says sounds so simple you almost don't want to believe it. But it works a bit I can say. Also, for healing, "A Course in Miracles" has some good content. I have the workbook for it, haven't got the theory.
  17. @meow_meow perhaps this yoga was the straw that broke the camels back. Or maybe it isn't that complicated, and you're seeing what was obviously there in your psyche but you ignored or never opened up to. But uh yeah. Shit happens. A lot of us relate to these weird experiences or very negative states. I believe you've posted about them before. Worst thing for me was looking at myself in a mirror and hardly feeling connected to it, like it wasn't me.

  18. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Mon 21/09/2020 Love is death. To love and accept all is to die. That's what it feels like. I experienced a little of this yesterday, made me see just how big a leap that is. Perhaps it can be framed in reverse as well. Death is love.
  19. @Leo Gura What makes the likes of Peter Ralston or Jed Mckenna see and describe enlightenment as almost this "one thing", or on all or nothing terms? I've listened very carefully to your interview with Peter on YouTube where you ask him about relative vs absolute, and the possibility of a deeper experience. To which he says that's another distinction made in the relative. And so any sort of discussion goes around in circles forever. Or to reference Jed Mckenna. He makes a distinction between mysticism and enlightenment. Says that spiritual union bliss is still maya, and it doesn't last forever for anyone. He claims that enlightenment isn't somewhere you visit from "here" , but that you visit "here" (maya/dream/duality) from "there" (enlightenment). What's going on there? Obviously I can't expect to get the answer from you that I then adopt as a belief, I'll have to see for myself. But your thoughts on why Peter takes that viewpoint so strongly would be worth listening to. Or why you take your viewpoint so strongly.
  20. Probably amazed we didn't become extinct when the nuclear bomb was invented.
  21. Perhaps you're right. We won't know for sure though and no need to take the risk haha. Them being intelligent enough to visit and observe us doesn't tell us anything more about their psychology, culture or sensibilities.

  22. Slow Carb Diet

    lmfao replied to KingEnergy's topic in Health, Fitness, Nutrition, Supplements

    @KingEnergy Right now I've been losing a bit of weight. Credit due to David Hawkins, his advice has helped me. Although I don't know if it's his advice or just me anyway. His take on this is that essentially, most our desire to eat is surface level "Pavlovian Conditioning" that can be overwritten without too much effort. When you feel "hungry", you stop calling it hunger and let go resisting it. Trying to force myself to let go, I've gotten in a few wars with myself which isn't good for anybody. But overall it's worked. We don't need to eat nearly so frequently as we think. Another strategy is to eat when you aren't "hungry". That way you aren't re-enforcing the false conditioning. But if you eat whilst operating on that false conditioning, you're making it stronger.
  23. @rav @purerogue Lmao, this dialogue is indeed a common pattern for us in this work. Regardless of which of the two sides you take in framing things, what matters is what relation you bear with what you're saying. And what doesn't necessarily matter so much is the content of what you say.
  24. @mandyjw To answer the question without rambling, yeah truth is important to me. I love it? Could be. I don't know what I love. Small tangent. Unfortunately the phrase "don't know", or "not knowing", in English has negative connotations. Something Ralston noted in naming his book. @Danioover9000 Let's hope so and see :pray_emoji: . One day I'll play that series.
  25. @Leo Gura Very good point. I'm surprised something so simple didn't occur to me. @kai0 Yes, authenticity is of utmost value regardless.