NoSelfSelf

I know your struggle you have identity based on shyness( i assume everything revolves around it) meditation and self inquiry helped me another alternative is to change yourself 360 and i dont know you can sustain it if you are introvert...

@AleksM Thanks for sharing

What if you actually dont want anything its like you will just make a husle for going for something that gives you nothing and takes your peace...

@Thanatos13 you can see whats true or false better when you stop indentifying with your mind

@Thanatos13 Well thats true all i can say it is infinite mybe i see it but im not sure if im decieved and i also think that its best not to reproduce to end suffering but to kill yourself is silly because you can fix the suffering

How can you see even a first layer?

@Thanatos13 You are in clear self deception thinking you know what reality is...

You are in scarecity mindset be in abundance mindset there are so many girls out there one better than the other and you want to go back to not so good relationship because its comfortable?

Self deception is thinking that something is true but its false(and you are not concious of that),many times someone saies this guy is stupid but cant see that they are themselve stupid...or i am not lying ever but before that they lied that they love their job but clearly hate it....

I have the same problem i assume you are an introvert because you think it deeply inside yourself what to say etc.to fix this you need to(same for me) get more rich life extroverts usually talk about stories,places,events they been to and what happend and they jump from one thing to another,when you go out and get into more different scenarios you can relate to and give your opinion when you speak with someone..you dont need to talk you just have to ask queastions and hear the answers and pick something to continue asking queastions or elaborate..and its ok to not talk because you dont have nothing to say to people you are with because they perhaps dont like what you like....

Yes kill yourself but not the body thats not you mind is creating your suicidal thoughts its sucks but just observe it and see that this thoughts are in front of you and you observe them then see who is observing it no effort its already here...

I have an experiences where im dreaming that im astral projecting(like lucid dream)where i go out of my body(proces of vibrations and going out seem real) but i dont know if its a dream or im actually out of my body if that makes sense anyone had similar experience?

@Leo Gura So my job is to grow in wisdom in another words... You mean real temple ?

Stop thinking and be then who cares if there is free will or not?

You attach because thats how everyone lives misunderstood themselves with thoughts

To me church speaks the truth and the way they communicate it is easily misunderstood because they themselves dont understand it fully because they think God is seperated from them to ask for his help...

Thank you for suggestion...

I got stuck on Lp and got an idea from latest video blog that i could watch some docummentary of a job and see if i like it as and idea to pursue it does anyone have some recommendations on good docummentary of any job or something you watched that inspired you...

When you see who you are ego will disappear and it will be super silent and peacful because you master is here and ego mind is your servent...

Does anyone have experience on how to meditate so deep that you lose sense of your body,room and you are in complete emptiness like you are on lsd(as i heared everything disapeares)

Good one,communication is so vital...i personally struggle to small talk and connect with someone cuz of communication...

If you are truly self actualized you know you are not better than anyone else and you can accept flaws of another person and you will not need one(relationship) but if you want it to be succesful it takes alot of stuff to come together i think its best when 2 enligtened beings come together...so its yes and no

Its not just your self esteem its whole web of beliefs aka projections of your mind that distorts the reality of you being akward with "hot" girls how come its not the case with "ugly" girls?

I found this interview today and its a great example of materialist paradigm guy on the left is not even letting the other guy explain himself(pushing his ideas as truth) and he is so stuck that it was painful to watch,watch till the end

Conteplation is a tool for getting the truth there is a saying for enligtment the one who starts contemplation will be ended by contenplation and for other truths contemplation is useful so you dont aceppt anything on blind fate(you will know its true when it comes from concept to direct experience)cool game i sometimes like to play is like i just arrived on earth and i dont know anything about anything and im queastioning myself whats that what is this thing and almost always what i really think it is its just an assumption about that thing..