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Hey ☀️ Woke up and checked my mail. I had documents to sign and a shipment fee. I pushed myself and finished them before work. My sister helped me as well. I didn't do my routine, just that. Next week we'll get the first shippment. We are waiting for the next one as well. At work I used some time to read all the messages we had from the telegram group. I also had to carry on the drama from yesterday. Some more shit from the client's programmer. I was worried again I'll get fired. It was another boring day at work but I learned smth. ai asked my supervisor to look over some account I fucked last year. He laughed about it but I really made every mistake in the book. I panicked and I didn't think. I took a 40 min walk afterwards. I fell on ice but didn't break anything. I saw a girl who ghosted me in December 2022. I felt bad for not having sex now and so much shit. But I remembered that I've improved myself so much since than. Life is so much better. I arrived home and went to bed. Fapped but without some pics or any material. It was the only time this week. I can stay I feel better afterwards. I find Instagram overwhelming. I checked my messages and scrolled a bit. There is too much info. Some bits of knowledge but it can't be applied at all. Does anyone feel the same? I don't see the point in checking other's stories. I get nothing from it. They are most likely not having an adventure or smth. Anyways, what have I done last year? Mostly at work and at university. So much time invested in those two and for not much return. Imagine spending that time on your business and cultivating some skills. Amazing!

🤠 Yesterday, after work I met with an ex work colleague who strated selling on eMag since 3 years ago. He dropped soooooooo much knowledge. Unreal. I took notes. I had fun and learned a lot of shit. I was thinking afterwards that I didn't feel inspired after meeting someone in a while. I felt really stupid for being employed here. I got lazy and comfortable. I don't have time for much and it leads nowhere. Of. I have to stay at work even if I finished my work. We talked about my boss. I realized that me makes us feel like we are fortunate to work for him and we can't do better. Indeed, I really don't think I can get a better job and I don't believe in myself. He is literally making lots of money from work but criticizes us for making mistakes with clients. Today I freaked out thinking I'll get scolded. We do feel the fear and pressure to make mistakes with clients. If you fucked up with one client you get a criticized like it's the end of the world. But it doesn't really matter. We are getting clients who don't actually have a good business but my boss makes some money from them. They won't grow for real and will leave soon but he takes their money anyways 🪴 Today a colleague from seo with whom I colaborare on one project told me the client called her to complain and talk shit about our work. Apparently he didn't answer to my emails since 22 December because he thought that his programmer it's in CC. He wasn't. I should have asked the girl from seo to give me the programmer s email. I just didn't think of that at all. Also, he had a campaign active in the account and I didn't think to ask what's the deal with that shit. I didn't pause it since I got the account so now he was mad. I didn't even think to tell him about that campaign because I thought he knew about it. I doubted myself. I apologized blah blah just to check the accounts history and to find out that he Is probably full of shit. The campaign was there since June and he activated it a month before I got it. He kept saying that the account is new and I never thought to ask. Damn. I was so upset man. Also, another client complained that his ROAS dropped to half last week and requested a meeting. Shit. I tried a bunch of methods but I should have asked for help tho. In between that I checked my email to see that I have to pay $2260 for the second shipment. This was more than I expected. I also got the papers for the 1st shipment. Sent the boarder documents and we will get our products next week. We went to the bank to put the missing money for the big order. I got super frustrated and worried. We tried to sent to money from revolut business because they have cheaper taxes. The transfer was declined because it looked suspicious. We managed to talk to the support and fix the problem. I was really frustrated and upset. Meanwhile my sister's boyfriend was in the same room with us and kept talking shit and trying to get my sister's attention. He kept telling her that is time to watch his favorite show and sleep. Also, my brother's gf was texting him that she is sad and wants him to come home faster. I stayed to finish the emails and documents after they left. What a day.... it was a lot to take in...

🥱 First day of work at the office it was boring and frustrating. I had to see my all colleagues come there and complain about having to work today. No body seemed happy to be there. They took a bunch of breaks as usually. Trying to make it acceptable. From time to time I remembered to be conscious of what I'm doing. Spent hours improving some accounts which won't raise my paycheck anyways. Spent some time setting up some campaigns for a colleague as well. I was wondering what I could do if I was working got myself instead. Damn, those hours would have been equal with progress . I would have finished my listings for example. Went to see a friend afterwards who works at a kiosk 12 hours with one break in between. I bought some groceries to cook. He is on his feet all day and still makes less money. I felt stupid for complaining about my work. Especially that I worked from home since end of December. I made such a big deal about having to go to work on a computer at the office. I wasn't going into the mines. Ridiculous Arrived home, ate and chopped some meat. Hang out with my siblings, meditated, diction and not much else. I feel so tired but it doesn't look like I did much today. 😩 So what was the point of the day? Earned some money, ate, took a shit, did my little routine and not much else. So if I want to work even more on myself there is little time left. Imagine what I can do if I had more free time in a day... Damn! Imagine the shit I could accomplish! Unreal! So tomorrow I start this shit all over again. It could be worse tho... We had one order today and another one from yesterday late at night. I think our 1st import together with that group are in the country already. I have to ask them. After that we pay for the shipment and other costs and we wait for those boxes to arrive.

Hey, how are you doing? I couldn't sleep at all last night. I kept thinking of the side hustle. What can we do more? What can it be done? When will I quit work? Maybe after March? I can do it sooner than I planned to do it (September) 🤔 Today we set a goal to earn 80,428 euros until the end of the year. I think it's too much but we'll adjust that number after seeing some results next months. My brother isnt willing yet to spent more on stocks but in order to make more money we need more shit to sell. I got really upset that I have to go to work tomorrow. What is the point in investing so many hours if I am not making money?! Also, because of it I don't have time for other stuff. Maybe I do have some time but I keep saying I'll do it another season. I noticed that I worry not being able to keep up with my goals once I return to work (it's also raining). Spent the day doing more listings at the highest level I've done so far. My sister suggested to let them do some. I should lead the group better. We are waiting for 2 shipments to arrive in the country. I had an insight that I should read out loud self help books recaps to achieve two goals in one. But I have so much resistance. I got a great insight tho from atomic habits - make doing the bad habits harder and keep talking small steps daily.🌞 So I deleted all sexy pics and reels I had saved on Instagram to not be tempted to checked them out and so on. Also, keep up working on your goals. I moved from 10 min meditation to 16 min. Going to make it 20 by this December. Same for working out. I can do an easier work out when I'll want to do 3 times a week. On the 3rd day I can do some pushups. Simple!💯🔥 Each night I get flooded with frustration of not working more and making more money on my own. I use this as fuel ⛽. It's hard, of course. I was quite bored yesterday, doing my routine 🥱. I'm not happy going to work tomorrow:))))). I can say that I had a really productive holiday vacation.

👋 Last night I was very horny. Started fapping to an Instagram reel a OF girl. I wanted more so I searched for nudes and lended on some page with porn pop ups. So technically I watched some porn while I was looking at those pictures. Shit. Well, this doesn't mean that I have to go all in or exaggerate now. Just move on. Being crazy about my schedule isn't going to help. Today I feel calmer but more tired :))) I worked on the side hustle regardless of what I've done last night. I also did some work for my job. I made some mistakes once again and had to fix them. Of. I listed 8 new products and improved old listings. The ones I made 3 months ago are quite bad. I need to focus on quality over quantity. I gave a task to my brother as well. He isnt doing anything for the business now. He is also upset for closing the family business after working there for several years. I will give him some space. My father is really difficult and I get why my brother has such a hard time with him. I find it stupid that my father joked about getting money from us in the future for depositing our boxes with products in his house. Wtf... Pathetic. Anyway, this pushes me to make more money and work harder. I'm frustrated for seeing that I have the drive to work but not making more money than the people I know We had 2 orders today and one from yesterday. Nice! 🔥 I'm not looking forward to go back to work. I'm proud of my progress so far since I stayed home. I took care of myself. At work I was a zombie. I struggle to wake up in the morning. I talking with my brother that I make money for my boss but I dont get much in return. I don't have to stay there. I can change that! I make fun of my clients who can't afford over 1000 euros for ads but I don't even earn that amount per month......🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😳 I'm literally making others rich while i survive haha. That's fucked up. If I want a small raise I have to make even money for my boss. Funny. I'll get $250 more and in return I'll have more stress and make more money for my boss 😆😆😆😆 If I want to make more money with our side hustle we just buy more inventory and sell more. I don't have to wait a year lol for some small raise. I don't have to be miserable like my colleagues It's hard as fuck to actually go to sleep on time. I struggle. Even if I went to sleep on time I still don't feel like sleeping

I had to put this separately: Yesterday, I had a call with my flat mate from the Netherlands and my best friend from South America. I haven't seen them in 5 years. She has been traveled like crazy for the last few years. I was sure she's doing great.... Actually, she left to travel the world because of her parents divorcing, personal trauma, her grandma dying and so on. She basically ran away. I was actually enving her. I told them about my goals this year and afterwards I realized how chill my life is. I live at home, don't have any big problems, I started a business, have a job, I have been working out for a year, finished college and so on. My life is really going amazing. I should take it easier sometimes. However, I still feel guilty for not being even more productive. I was stressing for days that my 1688 account got frozen right when I was talking with a seller about some jewelry boxes. I looked again at the version he had in stock... it was actually shit. It looked like a tuna can haha. That was the biggest jewelry box I've ever seen lol I was looking at some funny looking products with my sister. I found some stupid sushi socks. My father asked us if we want to hear smth sad. I thought he was joking ... He was crying that a relative's house burned down and he just woke up from coma. I didn't know how to react. I haven't seen him crying since his father died when I was little.

Hey! I was preparing for work last night when my sister asked me why am I going? Indeed, my bosses are in vacation and I work from home next 2 days. So I stayed at home. Worked a little bit We are finally at 99% done with the order for February/March. 1/3 is paid from the money we made past year. I just need a second look at some jewelry boxes before I order them as well. I'm excited. I worked most of the day to make this order. Nice. I need to pay more attention next time I search for products late at night. I made some mistakes. Some products weren't good enough. We aren't sure of some products even if they are selling quite a lot. All the products we are going to buy are verified super hot 🔥 Yesterday, my father and my brother's girlfriend got in an argument. I didn't intervene even if I don't like her. I need my brother on my side to make the side hustle work. One of my goals is to quit work this year. They decided to close the family business since they can't communicate at all about business related stuff. They are both relatively lazy. Also, my brother's GF had BPD judging by her behavior and she's very co dependent and a little retarded. One of the problems they have is that he's going to see her asap after she calls him or else she gets really upset. Doesn't matter if it's he's shift or smth else. He has to go or she goes nuts 🌰 I replayed to the last message the swedish girl sent to me 2 days ago. I didn't feel right to ghost her. I wished her a great year and that was it. I felt a lot of urges to fap since Monday. I was used to do it daily. I went to bed earlier and it was such a hustle. I couldn't sleep and I had a hunch of negative thoughts. Good. I need to listen to these thoughts and face those emotions. I can use them as fuel to change my goals. I started mediating for 16 min instead of 10. I'm aiming to reach 20 my December 2024. Small steps... but it works. I was thinking that I need to work waaay more on this side hustle if I want to make real money. Maybe I shouldn't take it easy at all. I'm amazed that I actually made money with those products last year. Stuff I learned in a few months.... versus years at uni for nothing. What can I achieve if I do that full time? Wow! Today I realized that the product code used by some big jewelry company it's exactly the same from 1688. 🤔 Man, it can't be that easy! They made a business with jewelry bought for nothing. Respect!

Weird, I was sure I posted smth the other day. Did it got deleted? So here we are 2024! I can't believe it has been over a year since I started working out regularly, mediated, stopped watch tv series and moving, didn't watch porn, etc. I also got a raise, finished college and dated a bunch of girls. I never before had sex with two girls ok the same year nor I kissed so many years in just one year. Insane. To tell you the truth I'm super anxious 😰 about not being able to keep up not watching tv series, movies recaps and so on. I also want to watch porn. I find it hard to abstain this year as well. I've never done this. I am worried I'll fail. Like drug addicts said in mark's interviews - each time I get clean I am thinking I'll do a little bit and work relapse. The start using again and end the cycle repeats itself. Of course, isn't at all dramatic in my case. In just trying to be a better version of myself. Watching tv series makes me escape reality. I don't want that. Last year I was super pumped up after that trip to not watch tv series. It was hard to quit them. One of the reasons to quit was to have enough time for the last year of university. Why am I wondering if I should watch them or not this year? I can use all that free time to work on my business. I can really make a difference in my life 💰🥁 I find it super difficult to not fap each day like I've been doing for years. Since I said I'll do it once a month I did it daily :)))) I am excited and scared. I am feeling Checked my messages from insta and I saw that the swedish girl wrote me again...after 5 days. What is going on? It makes me very confused. But I can say that she doesn't really like me judging by her behavior. It's ok. Just don't replay to her and leave her alone. I feel embarrassed to ask her out again just for her to tell me she's super busy. Why do we even speak than?! Last night I drank and smoked some weed. I wondered why wouldn't I live like this daily like 2 of my friends? I got scared of this thought. After smoking I feel I need a break, not wanting more next day. Shit. My two friends completed a whole year getting high daily. Damn. They said they need to stop since they don't want to be addicts. Man, I didn't even think they actually want to have a better life. I thought that they are Happy. Wow. Of course everyone wants a better life. Our friend group is shrink fast. Two couples already canceled ok us multiple times. One friend who hot his first gf for almost a year doesn't even hang out anymore unless his girlfriend is busy. I also question if this group is what I need. Nice people but I don't get motivation to work harder from them. Maybe I want to much from this group of friends. Look elsewhere for inspiration On my way home I was thinking how next level I think is to move out of my parents house and still have enough money to pay my rent, invest, enjoy life travel and save. Each time I moved I was struggling with money. So being able to move and not worry would be a game changer. I struggle to imagine that that's so basic and perfectly possible in a few years. I feel stuck because I made so little money over the years. Now as well. Man, if I didn't live at home I wouldn't have time money to invest in this company. Isn't this crazy? So focus on this side hustle to actually make enough to move out and use your time better. I can use the few hours left today to watch crap online or actually search new products, make some changes and so on. I can choose if I want to make money or keep complaining. I'll be at work in 2 days. I can use this time to improve myself and that business or get nothing out of it. 🌞I need to keep working even if I am scared and doubting myself. These feelings shouldn't stop me from living that amazing life.🌞

Hey I dont know why but my credit score didnt go up this month. Weird. So last night i went to bed at midnight and i had a revelation - something so basic - i should make going to bed early as a priority in 2024! I have been struggling with this for years. I have been going to bed at 2 am or later for months just to wake up struggling next day. So change that! I kept speaking about working out more and so on but i neglect the basics. Damn! Maybe go to bed at midnight each night. Today i did some work but mostly nothing. Spent a few hours reading out loud tv series recaps from some article. I guess is better than actually watching 8 hours of that series and also practiced diction. I wondered for a few hours what can i do more and i couldn't think of anything. I tried to log in on 1688 again and my account got blocked. Shit. I cant answer to my last message from that factory. Wtf? Man, what a fucking shame. What else? I saw some email about a dating couch and i remembered how i keep pushing the day i will start reading again about dating. I found a free course on texting and it took me some effort to even go through it. I feel very resistant but i need advice. I have time to watch interviews with drug addicts but i struggle to watch even one video about this. I spent half a year going to uni, listening and reading shit but i have a hard time consuming dating advice. Why?

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Im speaking with a Chinese factory about some jewelry boxes but the conversation is going very slow. I ordered 100 from Aliexpress until i figure things out. I am looking forward to make the next order for products to sell in February - March. I will choose only the products who have the highest profit margin. I dont have as much money as i would like but that's the situation. If I went to London i would really not have enough =))) I worked out with my brother today. He told me that he skipped working out several times since he moved out because he couldn't organize better. Too bad. He used to work out each day for months... I was thinking that fapping got out of control last few months. I even wanted to watch some porn a few days ago. So i was thinking to fap once a week next year. Smth like that. Maybe i am too radical. Maybe i can watch some tv series if i dont go overboard. I dont need to spend another year not watching anything. Maybe i am exaggerating or i got better after a year and i forgot how miserable i felt. Honestly, i'd watch some shit tv shows now instead of taking a shower, doing some tasks and so on. So yeah =)))) Mitski - My Love Mine All Mine (Official Lyric Video)

Hey! Went to bed late because i was playing polytopia on my phone and listening to a few interviews from Mark Laita. Woke up late and meditated for 10 min, warm up and a read a few posts from Instagram on different news. I focused on reading out loud as clear as i could. Helped my family prepare the lunch for other relatives coming over. I didnt eat until feeling sick like all the time. We watched a movie afterwards and i got one idea from that - focus on talking with yourself when i feel like giving up. So when i feel like watching some tv series by myself just talked yourself out of it. I have been doing great for a year. Dont ruin everything now. Before i know it, i will watch a few seasons and feel miserable. I will run even faster of every day problems. I need to stay strong. After the movie i checked my accounts at work. I realized i made some mistakes on one of them. Shit. I spent more money than i should have for a brand campaigns i set up a few weeks ago. Of. I made several mistakes on this account, all due to not paying attention. We had 2 orders today and another one last weekend. Nice! The new packages will arrive next year at the beginning. I am preparing my goals for next year. The biggest change is focusing on my side hustle rather than finishing college. I will upgrade my meditation from 10 min to 20 min. I started the year with 1 minute. Also, i would like to move from working out once a week to twice. Small changes. Another goal is to quit my job once i make enough from my side hustle. Moreover, i want to stay away from watching alone tv series, YT recaps and movies. I think that the goal which will impact my life the most will be to quit my job once i make $1000/month selling products online. Also, dont expect your other goals to make you money on their own. Laufey - Questions for the Universe (Official Audio)

Thank you, @Tboy! Merry Christmas to you as well! Thank you so much! I really appreciate your comment. Actually i was thinking to start another journal since i finished college this year but i love to see how i have grown since the very first posts here.

Bonjurică! I spent my Christmas Eve searching for new products and checking out what other sellers' listings. I found on 1688 the exact company who made the jewelry box from a big brand. Unreal! 😄 Yesterday night I was quite fired up but I always calmed down in the morning. I'm feeling better now. I'm excited to keep working and I have to say I'm afraid to be my own boss one day. But I don't see any other way. Keep up the good work 🎯 I checked some Amazon Facebook groups and I was surprised to see how much spam is there. Almost no posts from actual sellers but just people trying to sell their services. Me and my siblings helped mom to prepare the Christmas dinner. She was stressed because her mom. She is helping her so much but telling everyone else she's struggling and so on. She's not a nice person. I looked back on this year and I feel so proud of myself. I have came a long way since the beginning of the year. I have been growing since almost 3 years ago, when I tried to get back with my ex. I never felt so disgusted with myself. That day a fire started in me. One of the things that changed my life this year is the fact that I avoided to watch movies, tv series and recaps on YouTube. Lots of my energy and time was wasted there. I would feel numb after a few hours of that shit. Life was staying the same. I didn't even feel like meditating or working out. I was feeling retarded.... Merry Christmas! Laufey - Serendipity (Official Audio)

Merry Christmas @Sincerity! 🎁🎄🙂 Thank you @Leo Guraand enjoy the holidays with your family and friends! Merry Christmas everyone!

Hey Went to sleep late, found new products and woke up tired. My father is upset during holidays as usual. It's annoying for us all. We went to visit grandma today and she's not fine. She is tired, sad and miserable. She is speaking shit about mom even if she helps her. We prepared her medicine for this week but she told to my aunt that mom doesn't help her and other lies. Grandma is taking the wrong pills, too many or less and feeling sick afterwards. My aunt doesn't believe us. Lots of drama and it's too much for my mom. We helped her cook for Christmas while my father watched tv all day.Usual stuff. We tried to talk to him about grandma but he got uspet like a big baby and left to watch more tv. Pathetic. It's been almost a year or actually a year since I watched tv series. Lately I wanted to watch just a few of them. Today I came with some reasons against ^^ I can open the door to that shit hole or I can use that little free time to fucking work on eMag until I can quit my job. Imagine what a chance for your life compared with hundreds of hours escaping reality. The choice is obvious even if isn't fun short term at all. But quitting my job and being my own boss will change my life 100%. Imagine actually earning real money and making my own schedule each day! Imagine ^^ not being frustrated going to work, getting paid shit, being able to move out and travel, traveling more, choosing how much I work and so on. Wow! Of course I'm scared and worried it won't work but I have dreamed all my life to live an amazing life and I won't get there with my current job. Man, I m 25 and can't move out. Pathetic. It's frustrating how others are traveling the world while I have to choose if I spent some if my income to travel, do stuff, courses, eat out, save up, invest or buy products from china. I can't do them all and it's frustring. I spent more than I had in Prague. Isn't that stupid? I have to watch my spending 💰 left and right for everything because I don't earn enough. What else? I am using this frustration to work and quit my job faster. Selling on that marketplace is so fucking simple. I just need to do it. I need to let myself make money. What was my goal for the last 5 years? Just to finish university. Afterwards? sill figure out. No wonder I'm not further in life. Pathetic. Basically, I slept 5 years just to deal later with my choices. So after I graduated, all that frustration exploded! It started when my siblings kept telling me to get a raise. I was so afraid but little by little I couldn't live with myself going there full time and getting paid shit. Man, that door opened even more frustration. Another important thing was not watching tv series. I had time to hear those thoughts instead of drawning them in tv series, yt and other crap. Unfortunately I played Minecraft and other shit but it wasn't as damaging overall. Now this frustration grows more and more each day! I am literally working 9-6 but not making enough to travel, invest in stocks, save up or simply moving out of my parents. What is all this effort for?! It looks pointless... I am 25 and had to save up 6 months from a minimum wage salary just to start this business. I am not even enjoying life and going to bars and shit like that. Yet, with those $800 I can't even invest significant amounts of money. What is the point, huh? Just to say I worked a whole month just to invest $250… ... It isn't going to make a big difference for me now or in the future. Not fast enough anyways. Unfortunately, I see traveling as a waste of money. Why spend my salary for a short travel if I am going to be in the same place when I go back? What life is this?! No experiences and no investments either. Just jerking off ... So what is the point in going to my job each week and getting more clients?! Just to get to 15+ clients and ask for a raise if $250…? Are you kidding me?🤣🤣🤣🤣😔 So let's say I earn $1000 after I get more clients and move out. I will give all that raise to pay rent and basically still have no money each month just like before 🥲. I am 25 and haven't even seen a quarter of Europe. When will I travel and see Thailand and south America? Honestly? Never. I am turning 30 in a few years and I will still be a young boi frustrated as fuck. So what did you do for the last 5 years? Oh, I just paid rent and traveled here and there. I had some little courses and I'm still going to work most of my time. Also, even I went to work for 40+ hours a week for the last 5 years I still don't own my own house, still didn't invest 10,000+ euros in stocks and so on. What will I say? Oh, I used my little free time to meditate, work out, read, take courses and date. Puff…I'm 30 and i am still going to work for a boss. I don't want to be as frustrated as my colleagues. What life am I living now? Looking forward to Christmas to take a break from work. Another month passed while someone else is going my income in a day. Someone is waking up in another country, enjoying the world and making his own schedule. 😐What am I doing? 😐 Telling my friends I'm busy working all week and still get less money than they have from their parents? Yeah, isn't fair at all. Going on dates to tell them I live with parents and I don't have money to travel and take care of myself? What do I even have to offer for them? What type of girl would want to date me now? To hear me complain about my salary and clients?🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Nothing to see here. What would we do? I don't commit because I didn't do enough with my life so far. But one day... this is sad as fuck! My supervisor is 27, turning 28 next week. He's not a happy and he looks caught in this comfortable office job as well. Why do I think I will be different at his age? 🤔 I'm doing the same things he's doing. What will change in 3 years? Sure, working out, meditating, cooking and so on its awesome and makes my life better but I think the missing piece is to quit my job. Imagine the growth coming from working for myself full time. Insane! So keep your routine but don't expect for miracles. In order to quit work I must sell more products and more constantly. Ok. 🎯 It's so clear why I watched tv series for so long and I still want to do so. I'm frustrated with my day to day life. One if the biggest changes I can make next year is to earn more, quit my job and do eMag full time. It's seems so hard but there so other option. Just a few months ago I was afraid to even ask for a raise. I was terrified. Horrible. I went through that. As my friend said, I can't wait to see you in 10 years.✅

Hey Went to bed late, woke up late and started working for my job. Checked my accounts, mailed some clients and called one. He was happy with his results so far even if he just started his video chat studio. He spends 12.000 euros each month on rent, models, expenses etc. Wow! We, selling on eMag have just to pay our accountant and taxes so far. The price to start this business is sooo low. Awesome! I still cant believe it is that easy! I found a few ,,super hot products'', mostly jewelry. I looked for several hours. Found good sellers from 1688 and alibaba. I am so impatient to quit work and make this my full time job. I have to wait and to keep searching for products. I am anxious and i felt lots of resistance last few days. I keep thinking to watch some tv series and shit like that. I m afraid to go down the rabbit whole again. It is unreal that a whole year passed already. Lately, i miss that drive to not watch tv series that i had at the beginning of the year. I remember that i was sleeping a lot after i quit watching tv series and movie recaps. I was thinking to tell myself to watch tv series once i quit my job and do eMag full time.

Hey Yesterday i couldn't wait to finish work, I was so bored and restless to do my tasks. After work i met with the guy who helped me finish my thesis in college, a few months ago. I havent seen him since than. It's been 6 months already. We went to see an art gallery, got some beers and food. He said he can see my obsession with eMag and trying to make money out of it. He told me to not neglect other parts of my life. He said he cant wait to see me in 10 years after i told him i kept meditating and working out this year. He gave me some very good ideas about business. He is 34 and told me how he wished he started sooner thinking of the future. He was still partying at 25. At his age everyone around him is having a child and this makes me wonder if he should focus on making money or do the same. I told him about my frustration at work not making money and he pointed that im in the middle of switching from working for someone to running my own business. Apparently is a big shift. I believe him. I feel ashamed to quit work but i cant keep working here forever. I need to reach my potential. It doesnt look like im doing so right now. He how shocked that my parents didnt even help us with money to start this business. Wow, his parents helped him a lot. I didnt know that. My father actually told us he will ask as for a fee just because we keep those products in his house. Lol. So the plan now is to make $1000-2000/month and quit my job. So here i am on a Thursday night searching for new products and thinking what can i do better. I am fired up seeing others make money and do good for them. I feel disappointed of myself for not starting sooner. Man, i really have to quit work and do ecomm full time to see the money i want to have. I am excited hehe. I have to say that i feel a huge urge to watch tv series and fall back on old habits.

Hey I had another day going to bed late and waking up a wreck. Arrived late at work. Solved some tasks but i had a hard time getting shit done. I wanted to do nothing at all. I felt stupid for wasting my time working there and i am still not making the money i want to make. I am not even making $1000 a month. I am still afraid to get new clients and fuck things up. Of. Made some mistakes writing some mails etc. I felt tired and exhausted. I am looking forward to order more and sell more. I need to quit work to make my own schedule and move out of my house. But i need to stay here until we make enough sales. I finally made the first wire transfer to an agent in china associated with the telegram group i am a part of. Cool. I am very anxious to do this since the beginning. I am looking forward to order more with them and also alone. I am excited man. I am looking forward to quit work and do this full time. I am wasting my damn time and potential. I cooked for this week and i am proud of this. I am also eating more junk food each time i have an occasion. I need to stop that. I took a 40 min walk after work and met with one of my high school friends. She got hired at the same clothes store her friend works in. This is her first job. She asked me if i wanna hang out with her and her BF afterwards but i said i was busy. I should have said i am tired. I wanted to go home and send the money to that agent. I am growing frustrated with my high school friends. It seems that i am the only one trying to keep the group alive. The others dont bother tho. But why do i bother tho? I can do so much more with my time than to see them. It isnt as fun as it used to be. Maybe leave them alone and wait to be called. Focus on other stuff. She messaged me this morning saying that she is busy until Christmas...lol. Yeah, i am so important that she doesn't have 1 free hour to see me. Lol. I still have my tinder app turned off. Might be the longest time this year. I feel calm. I dont have to speak with these girls all the time. It is exhausting, especially that i dont have a place to bring them at. Also, it seems that dating got harder once i finished college. The girls i met seemed to not be very pleased with what i had to offer to them. A work colleague said that dating after 25 is very different. Laufey - Second Best

Hey We set up and decorated the Christmas tree today. I felt so tired each year when we do this. IDK. Had more orders and we gave a printer to my brother to make some packages from home. I proposed to talk about setting up some side hustle goals for next year. How many orders to reach, how much money to make and so on. I was thinking 10.000 euros as a target but it doesnt it that hard to make. It will be awesome to have this goal on a piece of paper and right down each time we make 1000 euros for example. Hehehe. I asked out again the Swedish girl and she said she doesnt know what schedule she has next week. She will let me know. Basically, if her friends dont meet with her she is free haha. I am not that important as you can tell. I am always setting up meeting with friends after dates. Maybe this is a problem for me. I wont ask her again next week, i feel annoying doing it. If she wants to meet with me she will. I was thinking to watch some tv series next year but isnt a wise choice. I can use the little free time i have after my day job to work on my side hustle. In other words, each hour counts in order to quit my job faster. Each hour watching those shows will make me progress slower. I can actually make it if i put enough time! Each weeks brings me closer to make money only from eMag and not being employed. Yeah, i can get more pleasure now from porn and tv series but it wont help me long term. I can actually use that time to find the right products and quit my job! Imagine that! I will make my own schedule and change my life completely. I spend most of my time at the office but once i quit i can schedule my days however the fuck i want! I wont have to deal with my boss, commuting, agency clients and a set schedule. Imagine using all those WASTED hours watching tv series to INVEST them in a job who will make me a full time entrepreneur. After i get to that point the sky is the limit. I can wake up when i want and make my own schedule. I will earn more money than i ever made so far. I will be able to take vacation when i want and choose how much i can work. I will be able to move out and so on. I am basically giving up watching tv series in order to attain freedom. Imagine having the POWER to make your day how you want to be instead of just going to work. I can earn $2000 and more. I can invest real money in stocks. Wow. So it is worth it to trade tv series with freedom. I am choosing a way to change my life drastically. Most of my time each week is at work and i am not even making lots of money. Man, i am excited now. I cant wait to make my salary in just 1 day and so on. Imagine that! Wow. Imagine not feeling sad that i have to go to work on Monday. One of the best parts is that i can work all day and actually see results. I cant do the same at my job. No matter how much time i put next month, i will get the same salary. Lol. I will break a mindset and a lifestyle! I wont have to be sad like my co workers. Wow. I have to admit that i am anxious to quit but i have to do it in order to leave a better life. Imagine being able to actually afford to travel each month, to save up money, and invest for real, not $20 a month here and there. Also, i enjoy eMag related work more than my actual job. It is so much easier and i love to work these types of tasks. I can basically brute force work and win. It is so simple. From mid October to now me made 1.910,94 $, of course before taxes and commissions, etc. All of it working part time with investment from our own money. I think that is amazing what we can achieve in the next few months and years as we learn more and more. I am looking forward to hit a monthly income of 10.000 euros. Wow! Laufey - Promise (Official Audio)

Hey I figured out that some products dont sell because the listings are shit. Made new ones or improved what i could and im waiting for approval. I really want to watch some tv series. I am going to celebrate 1 year without TV series and movies in 3 weeks. I feel like i want to be lazy for a while. I will be in vacation and it will also be chill at work. But i can use that time to find new products and so on. Why do you want to be lazy? We went to her place to take out the carpet with shit. She had explosive diarrhea on it =))) It was worse than i expected. We realized she cant take her pills right anymore. She combines them or doesnt take anything. Also, we suspect that she is cooking with expired food. Me and mom were preparing her pills when my mom was literally shutting down from being so stressed. I didnt really understand why but she really couldnt rake it anymore. She cant take care of my grandma. It is too much for her. Im playing polytopia once again. I am tired and looking for some escape. Im less stressed with clients tho. It was really hard a few weeks/ months ago. I finally sent the list for both imports from China. I am waiting for a response now. I am excited to get our first legal import. I am looking forward to order some more products next month. I cant believe another year passed. I feel i made so much progress since i finished that stupid degree. Pff. I am excited for my future. I cant wait to do eMag full time instead of my regular job. I dont feel that i am using my full potential at my current job. But with this side hustle it looks like the sky is the limit hehe.

Hey Last year i arrived on time at work parties and got drunk faster. This year, i didnt even want to go. Arrived 3 hours later. Why even bother? The vibe was lame. I refused to drink for the first few hours. I got some beers and shots but remembered to drink loooooots of water. I didnt get fucked up at all. It felt good being sober and not embarrassing myself. I even took care of a colleague and a girl from SEO. I gave them to drink some water until they felt better. The boy got drunk as fuck and opened up too much. He told to my boss and supervisor how he needs to tell them about his secret past once he hits 1 year at this agency. He told me that he got fired for arriving high at his previous job. I found a bunch of new things about old and new colleagues. My old supervisor doesnt want to own a business or work in management because he values his freedom over money. Interesting. He doesnt seem happy tho. My boss is more relaxed than him. The SEO girl told me how she made a shitload of money from owning her own affiliate beauty site with her BF. They did well until the site went down until she had to get a job. She loves the freedom she has here for being an employee. She didnt like working all days and worrying about her site all the time. I understand her but i want to make money. I think is worth treading peace for money. Especially now, that i cant even afford moving out. I admire my boss's personality. You cant complain to him since he will make it seem you are dumb. Whatever you say he throws it back at you. He is confident to the point of delusion. He is the same age as a co-worker but they are totally different. The other guy is very insecure and frustrated. We feel bad for him. Everyone is making fun of him. We had a new colleague in our department. He told us they he thought of starting his own agency after working in PPC for 10+ but he didnt have a partner. Too bad. He seems frustrated. His GF left him and this is why he wants to change his life. At the Christmas party i was thinking what to say when i want to quit my job in the future. I am overthinking it waaaay to much. I will have to adjust to that new life. My grandma is getting worse and we encouraged my parents to get her proper help. She mixed some pills and shit on her carpet =)))))))))))))) My mom barely keeps up with the stress of taking care of her. She started eating more and my father is also putting pressure on her. She didnt get hired after the last interview. The saloon wanted her to work for FREE for 6 months and only after that she'd get hired. Unreal. She would start cleaning toilets, being a desk clerk aaaaand after that being a massage assistant and so on. Ridiculous! My brother moved in with his GF and we cant even talk with him on the phone for much before she gets upset. Ooof. We are worried for him. We had 12 others today - never had so many in one day. It paid off to associate with other listings =))))) I am looking forward to sell more and grow this side hustle. I am wondering what is going on with my high school friends. We barely meet with each other and i also dont feel like seeing them lately. I dont feel inspired meeting them and we dont even have fun as we used to. I also feel upset that i am the only one reaching out except for 2 of them. I am wondering how will they react when i quit work to do eMag full time. I think that it is amazing that you can make $10 just by making a package in 1 minute. I still didnt drive since summer.... I feel bad about it. I am still afraid as fuck. I am still off tinder and i feel good. I am spending so much less time on insta as well. The Swedish girl texted me after 1 day and we kept talking. I am wondering if it is worth it or not. I will ask her for a 3rd date today. Let You Break My Heart Again - Laufey & Philharmonia Orchestra (Official Audio)

Hey, I deleted Instagram from my phone once again. I was spending too much time there. I was very excited about the products I found a few days ago but we can't sell then because they are counterfeit. Of. We finished the list and split the order in two. A part will come by plane and another one by ship. I associated with other seller's products by having a lower price. I want to get read of those stocks. It is working hehe. I felt better today. Yesterday was really hard. I had to calm myself down. I am making so much progress now. It's good that we don't have more money to buy stocks since the initial stocks didn't work very well. My brother moved in with his weirdo girlfriend. So far he didn't work much on our business. It was hard to catch him on the phone since that girl made him to do smth each day. I gave him some tasks to do which I didn't want to actually do. I did some other tasks. Looking forward to sell more. I am thinking to watch some TV series after this year ends but I'm not sure. I made so much progress since I got that shit out of my life. It was such a great year 🌞🌞 It was really hard many times but I really feel I made progress in different areas 🌞🌞. What a year woaaah ;)))))) I didn't even imagine I will make so much progress this year. I didn't see more than finishing college. That was the biggest obstacle before doing whatever the fuck I want after work. I am not looking forward to do a masters. I learned sooo much from actually starting a business versus getting some stupid paper 📜.

Hey Trust your intuition. She seen my last message from last night. I feel stupid trying to sooo hard to go out with her. I was thinking of her questions about my longest relationships. I am 25 and only had one relationship a little longer than a year, 2 months last year with another girl and some kind of relationship this year for 6 months. I thought (for the first time) that it doesnt look good at all. Why didnt i have more relationships and dates bu this age? Anyways, i am dealing with this as well. This year i dated more girls than ever before. I never kissed so many girls and never had sex with 2 girls in 1 year. Isnt much but is honest work haha. Made another mistake at work. Classic. I feel tired and discouraged to be honest. Instead of getting money for this Christmas like last year we got vouchers for eyeglasses. Some of us dont even wear them. Ridiculous. I saw that another colleague got double my amount of money on his voucher. Pfff. I dont even get the same bonus. Maybe i should change my job.... My boss told us how bad is at other agencies and how good we have it. But i know from my brother that he earns more and works less. Some of his colleagues get to work at noon. So once again beating myself up for my salary. I didnt even worry about this for half of this year. This is a new problem. I feel stuck and i also feel impatient to make money from selling shit online and quit work. This wasnt even a problem a few months ago. I finished college several months ago and it feels like a lifetime. I am not wasting money on clubs and drugs but i cant say i am investing them either. I dont have enough to actually make smth with it. Whatever, I should shut up and keep working on my business.

👋 Went to bed at 4am. Couldn't sleep. I was too frustrated. Went to work and called a new client. I was anxious since I don't like calling them. I changed some of my accounts radically. I'm looking forward to get more conversations. I had to push myself to do it since I didn't feel like it. I felt anxious about meeting with the swidish girl. I kept thinking she'll cancel again. We met and she was colder than last time. We had fun at the Christmas fair. She opened my eyes about what more is to life. She asked me about my longest relationships. I had just one hear and a month of smth. Nothing serious since than. I don't think she liked that. .Asked her if she wants to meet again and I got a feeling it was a no even if she said yes, we'll see. She told me about her 10 year relationship and how he lived in different countries blah blah. I thought wooow, so cool, this girl is out of my league. But I was thinking how I thought that my exes exes where better than me. My standards were lower. I helped my brother to move out yesterday. We met with this gf who ignored him for some reason. Turns out that she is having a hard time just moving out for the first time. She is afraid she won't be able to live in an Apartment with my brother. That she misses her mom and she is making a big deal out of this. Wow. I can't believe this is real. I met younger girls who moved out and didn't react like this. wtf is wrong with her? so some things are really hard for others. some things are hard for me. I spoked with my sister about ordering new products. she has very good ideas. why don't we just but the most sold products instead of trying new and invalidated products? Really! She has a super good point. We have just 1000 euros to make the next order. Not much honestly. But we might see better sells from the products I found. If we just spent so little on stocks it will take a while until we can quit work. Yeah, it will take us longer than I thought to actually get to 2000$ per person each month. Back to that date, I feel envious on her affording to travel and have fun. I'm not doing much lately. Me and my friends don't have money to travel like her friends. We don't even see each other much now. I'm looking forward to make more international friends and have some fun. I'm stuck with this job now. Yeah... What else? I still didn't use tinder. I guess I should wait a little bit more until I date again. I don't feel like I can give real value to someone. I still live with parents. I still use my little money for silly little things. Some food at work, some dates, some products and that's it. Not much honestly. A simple life. I still feel frustrated, of course. I'm at work all day just to make enough money to live. Actually I'm not there yet. I'm not looking forward to go to work honestly. My colleagues don't seem happy. My supervisor was stressed today having to take care of another colleague's clients. I did smth awesome today 🌞 I refused my colleague to help her with her tasks. I spent my day working on my clients. What is the point in helping her if I don't get paid better? I have to get a few more clients and after that I finally got $1000. Which isn't much anyway I would like to wake up early and work out