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✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ✔️reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ /30m mind powers ✔️13/30 meditation ✔️/10 concentration ✔️studying - 7h( 2h than 2h sleep than 1h than 1h than 1h) ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ✔️Eating healthywho cares? who cares? (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cawho cares?uliflower,not too much milk,coconwho cares?ut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,who cares?curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, breawho cares?d, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIEwho cares?S; high urges How many times did i check out who cares?this forum? who cares? was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread?who cares? how mwho cares?uch anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? /who cares?5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post?who cares? /5 fuck this shit and fuck chemistry. i ate unhealthy today and i got diarrhea like symptoms but who cares because i had to study so i crammed for another 2h anyways. and on top of that i just realized that i was too kind and permissive with myself in the last year. `` should i force myself to study more ? nahhhhh i will next week. `` nope. now i have to recap months of exercises&subjects in a few h 1 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th)

May 22th, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily3 /5 ✔️no fap ( low or moderate urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? i don't remember ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ✔️reading https://www.amazon.com/Requiem-Dream-Novel-Hubert-Selby/dp/1560252480 ✔️10+/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ 5/30m mind powers ✔️10/30 meditation 1?/10 concentration ✔️studying -see below ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 1/2am ✔️ ✔️ ✔️Eating healthy (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; urges How many times did i check out this forum? was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? /5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? /5 STUDY PLAN 3h total. i started with 2h math, although i took baby breaks 1-2m and struggled o keep consistency. i felt somehow stress that i was studying with a timer. after i eat i felt unmotivated so i fallowed sara`s advice and read for a few minutes . i read Requiem for a dream. it worked! after 10m a i felt motivated af 1h mathematics no chemistry though now another 20m mathematics. owowowowowo also, i alternated difficult exercises with easy ones and my resistance lowered significantly i feel very angry and irritated by everything. i am tired. 2 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th)

yes, remarked this the other day when it took me hours just to recap one lesson albeit i thought that i will be done with it in 40m and thank you very much

✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ✔️❌reading ✔️14/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ 5/30m mind powers ✔️10/30 meditation ✔️1/10 concentration ✔️studying (same coffee shop,less than 3h, struggled to study bc of tiredness and stress -though i manged to recap a lot but not all the most difficult problems; felt like throwing up because of stress and worries, forest fruits tea+cocoa powder+cinnamon-----perfection) ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; no baby How many times did i check out this forum? was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? /5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? /5 small talk 2 people i felt guilty for making too much salad at the point at not being able to eat it not even in a few days always say be to the coffee shop staff. that place is not a cave. be polite. worried massively whether i will find accommodation in NL even if i pass the exams. also how funny it would be to get hit by a car right before these exams? ahhaha i have been preparing for this for months and puff lol. i have been growing my beard for almost 2 months. i keep it very short because it looks ridiculous when it grows too much -maybe i don't have the genetics to grow a pirate-beard. anyways:, here is a very helpful guide about how to do it thyself. finally parsley seedlings! How cool is that? NEVER SOW YOUR SEEDS VERY CLOSE TO ONE ANOTHER (and never more than 3) (see first cell) SAW SOW STUDY PLAN Time to take action on this piece of advice: I`ll start from tmomorrow i will start with 2h -chemistry than as a break 15m reading from https://www.amazon.com/Hope-They-Serve-Beer-Hell/dp/0141029455/ref=asap_bc?ie=UTF8 which i read last year and i enjoyed it very much another 2h -math 30m lunch (beetroot, parsnip+carrots, meat) 1h chem 1h math *note* i may actually study less because i have just recently begun to study for long periods of time so it would be wise to take it easy at first 3 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th)

@sarapr you seem the kind of person very conscientious about school work so i have a few questions. What do you do when you feel tremendous resistance to study? -do you force thyself? -do you start with easier topics? How often to you recap already learned notions/problems? How many hours do you study per day/week? How many hours at a time? Short or long breaks between study sessions?

@Amilaer--- +1

May 20th, Sunday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3.6/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ✔️reading ✔️/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️5 /30m mind powers affirmation -``i am studying all day`` ✔️9/30 meditation ✔️1/10 concentration ✔️studying (forest fruits tea+ cocoa powder, coffeehouse, 6h!!!!!, taking a stroll around the mall as a break is working! ) ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌❌Eating healthy (a lot of pizza,fries) ✔️ 10/30+5observation shamanic breathing - no negative emotion arose, i breath faster and deeper than before, due to the fast movement of my chest and therefore of my body, my dick was moving so i got a boner again, i felt very very cold, i meditated on this album but the songs where to short so it was difficult to fall into trance + (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; no urges How many times did i check out this forum? 3 was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? yes how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 3/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 3/5. small talk 2 people i wish i was at the beginning of high school again. to waste time. to do nothing all day. to daydream all day how i will magically get what i want and how i will live abroad one day etc. those where the times.... i find in food a way to escape my problems and negative emotions. today i spent a lot of money to eat at the mall. i think that i can let myself to slid a bit till i finish these exams. something else happened but i will write about it next year or during this summer. i thought i was over this negative habit. ``ignorance is bliss`` interesting video(it was recommended by someone on this thread - i cannot find the thread anymore) - i decided to take a 1 month off after these exams. after i finished high school i kept studying all summer and than massive burnout+ego backlash hit me in the fall of 2017. I do not want to go through that again. like him,i do not feel that i have done progress with the do-nothing technique i am doing it for over a year and i got significant results only in the first 6+months. i will change it with mindfulness meditation . in the summer2017 or fall2017 or next year? interesting thread. it inspired me to start kundalini yoga next year during summer. this it`s actually the first thread i ever read on this forum. very very inspiring. yes morning glory seedlings. this is WHAT HAPPENS when your pots are to close to a surface which overheats because of the sun. Choose their spot carefully pls 4 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th)

May 19th, Saturday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily /5 ✔️no fap ( moderate urges; since nofap i get random boners through out the day whereas before this rarely happened) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ yes overeat( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️10 /30m mind powers ✔️20/30 meditation ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️studying (coffee shop, 2.35h+) ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3am ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy + (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; no urges How many times did i check out this forum? many many times was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? yes. a lot how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics?3 /5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 3/5 i did made small talk with 2 people. It made me feel better. Lesson -some people don't want to engage in small talk, move on. ↓row1:arugula ↓row2:fennel ↓row3:sage ↓row4:tomato seeds i got from someone ↓row5:tomato seeds i got from my last year production ↓row6:parsley ↓row7-8:morning glories i got from my last year production (April30)Day 1 vs Day 19 fennel deceased seedling. It died in WW2. Lesson: use quality and enough soil from the start! 5 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th)

@Peter12 Personally i did not go to my prom. I don't regret it. Proms are overrated. At the end of middle school i went to a resembling kind of festivity and I FELT BORED OUT OF MY MIND. I remember that a mother who was taking pics told us that we have to enjoy the party because these will be the happiest moments of our life and we will regret not taking advantage of it. Well, i regret that i went at all. Almost a year passed since my prom and i don't even regret that i stayed at home. That night was barely mentioned again in conversations. You can use the money to go out with your friends or to buy books instead of paying for a costume which you`ll wear just for a few hours.

May 16th, Wednesday (update) ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ 10/30m mind powers (yesterday i did aff and positive self talk so today i i did aff and visualization) ✔️1-3/30 meditation ✔️2/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) -went at 2am but i wanted to stay way more ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy btw the university was super ok with the fact that i paid for those exams in the last minute and that they`ll receive the money after one or two days. lol 8 days till math/chemistry exams //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// May 17th, Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️studying ( i wanted to jump off the window. mathematics is hard. my brain stopped working) ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3am; i didn't even brush my teeth ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy + (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; moderate urges How many times did i check out this forum? 3-4 was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? actually yes , i was bored lately how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2/5 i felt resistant to put all the pics of my plants today so i divided them in chunks. it seems to work. 7 days till math/chemistry exams parsley seedings tomato seedlings lol //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// May 18th, Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily /5 ✔️no fap ( high and intense urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️13/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation ✔️/10 concentration ✔️studying ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; high urges; i wanted to watch a movie but i couldn't find it free online. i was lucky How many times did i check out this forum? several; 5+ was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? yes.... how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2.3/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2.3/5 they received the payment. i have 60m to finish for each one of them i feel apprehensive about those tests. i even felt like throwing up when i thought how much i have to practice in like 6 days bc i procrastinated for months 136 days till college -i feel scared. will i be good enough?. also i feel somehow excited a about all the possibilities that are in front of me revelation: i can study better if i don't overate. also water is wet 6 days till math/chemistry exams (may 24th) morning glory seedings. i am proud of my work

@MisterMan wow this really sounds good. you got flow. i just read the comments the beats are good too

@ElenaO lol i can`t believe we are actually talking about this seriously. i will put an explicit sign next time. thank you for your observation though

yesterday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( i won count the days because i don't see the point in doing so -it`s too stressful; high urges; i used ``edging`` for hours and the next day i was in a state of lust and temptation -don't use edging.) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ✔️✔️Eating healthy no ✔️(no) have i overeat? NO(no, i did not) {no} no ( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ 16/30m mind powers whilst listening to jazz. it works! ✔️31/30 meditation ( i meditated in a park. the first 16m where amazing but the rest of it was a struggle(i was thinking that someone will steal my stuff because i had my eyes closed. hAAHAH) ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️studying ( i went to the same coffee shop. i managed to study for less than 40m. i was to tired.) ✔️go to sleep at a decent time( yes yes yes! i went to bed at 23.00) + 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; : no urges How many times did i check out this forum? not at all was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? lol lolo no how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 1/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2/5 i felt for a second that i am not my mind nor this ego that i am improving nor my brain i felt guilty for not studying more //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// May 15th, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( faint urges in the morning, no urges for the rest of the day) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ have i overeat? no but i almost ate to much ( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️10 /30m mind powers ❌0/30 meditation ❌0/10 concentration ✔️studying 4h, same coffee shop, black tea + cinnamon ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) i watched stupid videos all night till 5am ✔️ ✔️❌ Eating healthy (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages sosges, processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) + 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; no urges How many times did i check out this forum? 2 was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? no how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 3/5 i think i will write these posts in the morning/noon because i have stuff to do and i can afford to roam around here too much . i write them at night but then i feel so much distracted and resistant to go to sleep and therefore i am prone to waste time on the INTERNET yes less than 10 days till the admission exams for college. //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// May 16th, wednesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (moderate urges; thought of edging again) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat -i was again one fork away from doing it ( my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation ✔️/10 concentration ✔️studying (same coffee shop,2h, i made a study plan -i have resisting doing one for months).Amazing! ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ✔️ ✔️❌Eating healthy + Eating healthy (to eat vegetables,smoothies,legumes,omega 3 pill , fruits, unprocessed meat, nuts, eggs,salads,fried broccoli&cauliflower,not too much milk,coconut milk,soup,spices(pink salt,oregano,curry),to minimize unhealthy food consumption) (no sweets, no unhealthy snacks, bread, sausages , processed meat, cakes,ketchup, pizza,ice cream,soda,cheese) 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; no-no urges How many times did i check out this forum? 2+? was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? yes how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2/5 i initiated three small talks with : at the bank with the consultant/cashier?. she was quite friendly actually. when i left she even wished me good luck! Amazing! i felt good and she felt good to -i assume) lesson- always start the conversation RIGHT AWAY supermarket cashier at the coffee shop with the barista : she looked sick so i just asked her ``are you sick?``. and she said : ``hehehe i was, now i am recovering``. than the barista-man gave em some a weird look and started talking with her about some stuff. lol keep being in a positive state . it makes the initiation easier. also, i realized that i first need to push myself by making small talk even if i don't feel like it. and as i speak more and more i get ``in the zone``. ``what will my dear readers think of my teenage-preparing-for-college-admission problems ?``. lol. it just happen to start this journal now. there is no shame in being young and unexperienced and scared and preoccupied with unimportant things lol i checked m email today and i saw a message from college reminding me to pay for those exams (apparently tomorrow is the last day when you can pay.lol. i have been preparing for these exams for months and i felt so much resistance and postponed to do this quintessential task. it would be pretty funny to not be able to take them just because i payed paid to late. what a twist would be. though i still feel resistant to read and take action regarding another email

MAY ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( moderate urges, thinking way i should fap today and to re-start no fap again tomorrow and to never fap again;Day 3) ❌spending time outside ❌daily journaling ✔️❌ ✔️Eating healthy i overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️ 15/30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ✔️5?/10 concentration ✔️studying (though massive resistance and worries that i wont pass those exams and that i wasted time) ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time + 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 3: moderate urges ; i watched dumb videos on you-rube to forget that i have to study 24/7 How many times did i check out this forum? 2 was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? no how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 1.1/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2/5 doubted myself today a lot; thought about how i will fail; thought how i will not speak in English proficiently at uni and everyone else will and hey will give me ``the look`` bc i am 19 and i don't speak English perfectly already lol ; i wish i could go back in time and learn 24/7. i wish to wake up and all my problems to be solved or gone i need to fix my sleeping schedule, diet,eating sweets,overeating,to take more care of my plants,to spend more time outside.to study more English make your goals more concrete i will go to sleep earlier today. i know i can. 142 days left/even less -4130 left of my 20s 18-22 posts per page important lesson: cauliflower resists in the fridge for more than a week and still looks decent (whereas broccoli is almost yellowish) i wrote on this side just because i can

@ElenaO thank you! lol i am working on this. 80% of time i overeat because i just like food. the ✔️ means that i overate and ❌means that i didn`t . i will make it clearer from now on. i bought leo`s lp course over a year ago but i got stock at figuring out my values. i feel tremendous resistance to do the exercises.

MAY ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 1.5/5 ✔️no fap ( Day 3;moderate urges;wet dream) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ✔️ ✔️Eating healthy i overeat lol ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️12/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️15 /30m mind powers ✔️1/30 meditation ✔️5/10 concentration ✔️studying ❌ go to sleep at a decent time //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 3: i-dont-rememberer-urges How many times did i check out this forum? once was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? moderate how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 1/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2/5 apparently hippos and rhinos aren't the same animal. i am surprised that i barely feel socially anxiety in crowded places like subway stations or supermarkets. although i felt lonely in the middle of the crowd around the fruit aisle .i remember when i felt moderate anxiety way back in the fall of 2017. interesting. i made fruit skewers! everyone from my family eat ate one! this is such a handy method to eat fruit! don't use too many sweet fruits/alternate them pear`s flesh is too thick and harden -use apples dont combine pineapples with oranges -it will be too sweet top fruit-combination : grapes, watermelon, oranges, strawberries,bananas i made a delicious fruit salad. watermelon, pears,apples,grapes,oranges,bananas + coconut flakes, hemp seeds, various seeds) lol

I am back on track, baby! ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2.5/5 ✔️no fap ( Day 2; high urges - i calmed myself by reminding myself that by saying``i wont fap just once and from tomorrow on i will go cold turkey`` i will go nowhere and that i will feel urges daily so there is no point in delaying going cold turkey ) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ✔️❌ Eating healthy ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️34/30 meditation ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️studying ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time ✔️15 /30m mind powers whilst listening to this album. i will keep doing this,maybe i will keep on track (5m affirmation, 5m positive self talk, 5m visualization)   + How many times did i check out this forum? just now three times was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? nope how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2 /5 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 2: high urges; i eat at a restaurant and i abstained to eat ketchup or mayonnaise although i had a burger . i don't know why but the other day i eat a full bag of potato chips albeit i haven't one in years. lol . baby ego-backlash? i can believe how much i have changed since may 2017. the high light of the day: I DID MIND POWERS FOR 15 MINUTES! i have been doing them on and off for months. but today i decided to start with 15m daily, than to increase to 30m. why i have done massive changes after a massive ego backlash? (April 18th-started this thread,i relapsed a few days ago and now i started mind powers) Amazing! i realized how wrong is to watch porn or to masturbate thinking about hot babes. porn is fake af. those people are just playing a role . and why would you even imagine fucking hot girls? it`s nonsense. what i read today: https://www.rsdnation.com/node/61376 https://www.rsdnation.com/node/60985 i really like his style. he is really enjoying the process https://www.rsdnation.com/node/357233 interesting. that`s what leo talks about all the time

✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( moderate urges; day 1 ) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ❌ ✔️Eating healthy ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️31/30 meditation ✔️6/10 concentration ✔️studying ✔️go to sleep at a decent time + How many times did i check out this forum? just now was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? nope how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 1/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 1 /5 145 days left 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 1: high urges; i felt resistant to do my work and delaying them by watching some movies/tv series seemed the perfect solution ; i was bored ; watching some episodes seemed a good solution; thinking that tomorrow i wont be watching seemed logical i will read from Daygame only a few times. i have 2 important exams on 24th May . if i pass both of them i will be accepted to the first college from my list ( best suitable for my lp,major,future plans) i will, from now on include more clippings from this forum and from the INTERNET lol this thread is almost 1 month old. i feel that i have grown a lot and maybe that`s way i have relapsed. that`s how we grow . shamanic breathing session: music it was the best one so far. no n. emotions surfaced. i just felt relaxed and calm i did 25m i have thought of quiting only 3 minutes before the timer was up music for 10m observation though use a thicker blanket next time i will try to do it whilst listening to this album or i will listen to these two in the same time gardening lesson: don't expose your seedlings too close to sun/heating/light source use good soil. don't over water the plants

@ajasatya hmmm interesting

✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ❌no fap ❌spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ❌ ✔️Eating healthy ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️studying (only a bit but mostly i watched tv series) ✔️go to sleep at a decent time How many times did i check out this forum? just this time was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? no how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 1/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2.1 /5 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 0:

@ajasatya congratulations. Do you still get urges? @John Iverson 20 days

✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 4.2/5 ❌no fap ( i went into a masturbation spree all night but the rest of the day i abstained; high urges ) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy✔️ ❌ ❌ ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ✔️reading ❌10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️studying going to bed at a decent time ❌ How many times did i check out this forum?just this time, though i meant to check it out out of boredom at noon was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? low how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 2/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 2.4/5

lol i am day 1 again but i know that i can do nofap and i will resist better to my urges in the future lol nope i am at day 0 again ahhahah

MAY Sunday 6-5-2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 1/5 ❌no fap (i relapsed . lol. day 0 ) ❌spending time outside ❌daily journaling ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️5m/30 meditation ✔️5/10 concentration ❌studying ❌go to sleep at a decent time How many times did i check out this forum? not even once was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? nope how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 3.9/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? 3.9/5 i feel a little disappointed of myself nut i am positive about the future. 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 0. i relapsed. tough i did not watched them till 5am today,Monday 7-5-2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3.9/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) day 1 yay.....! ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️ overeat ❌no lp course ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️❌ /30m mind powers ✔️34/30 meditation ✔️5/10 concentration ✔️studying i watched tv series alll night till 7am ❌go to sleep at a decent time How many times did i check out this forum? only this time, but i wanted to do it more was i obsessed over the views/popularity of this thread? no how much anxiety/resistance i felt to write about these topics? 4.8/5 have i worried what people will think after reading this post? yes,4.7/5 147 days till college 4135 until the end of my 20s i am positive about the future. i know i can do these challenges nofap and no tv series/movies. i am better and grater than these temptation . it is hard but it can be done 30 days of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES; Day 0: i still watched some tv series tough i resisted for the first part of the day