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18 juni 2018, Monday /maandag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat ✔️reading ✔️30!!!!/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) 17 juni 2018, Sunday/zondag? yes ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap (high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower -lol i just realized i wrote WORM not WARM lol ❌30 /30m mind powers ✔️30/30 meditation ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Join us e4rd challenge/star`s challenge---- bla bla bla. Abstained/refrained eating junk food. Contemplated further the other night plans. Considering even more to try a italki session in English etc. Star net challenge-- sleep: 23.00-7.00. bla bla bla procrastination I will wake up at 4 o`clock I am excited lol.---i woke up latterly btw That`s a wasp/small flies bee trap. i used some last year. great kill count btw https://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Wasp-Trap 16 juni 2018, Saturday/zaterdag zondag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️21/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 23.00 !!!!!!!!!! ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Had plenty of time to think. Difficulty falling asleep I listen to the first Pimselur free Dutch lesson. It was fun af. I will; buy the course. ( btw i bought it ) I will buy the f forever in-development app. Their pronunciation thing is helping me really good. ( btw i bought it , i am pleasantly impressed by their pronunciation cards ) Should I boy the pronunciation product for English too? no the 3rd leaf from the top was eaten by slugs/snails 15 June 2018, Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high!!!!! urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ( yes! I woke up at 12:00am and I brewed a green tea and than went in my garden and read and drank it. It was a very very pleasant experience. Ill do it again tomorrow. ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3.30-4am ✔️ ?❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) n[ɱ] as in "bronwater"[bʀɔɱʋa:təɹ] I find the Dutch language exciting and interesting af. I feel tremendous resistance to be productive. I felt tribble urges to eat junk food lately. These urges kicked in stronger and stronger since I started doing shamanic breathing Tomorrow I will start the 3rd challenge(set link). I am glad that this turned out to be the definitive challenge although I voted for the second one. I really need to fix my sleeping schedule. . Some tourist stopped me today asking where he can find a taxi. I felt anxious af. I tried to talk with him in English but all he was saying was taxi taxi taxi. And I don’t know how to give directions in English also . Its strange that this made me feel anxious and relived afterwards -not every foreigner is fluent in English as I expected , yet they have the balls o travel and work in other countries. I realized that I take myself to seriously `` who? They to laugh at me??no no no!!!``. Lol Learning Spanish - Pimsleur, Italki, LingQ, and Memrise Start pimsleur(its fun, easy, listen whilst commuting,---- schedule: 2- 3 times a week an hour long, he used it for several months.(it will take time to learn dutch lol) Italki-very useful, you can teach you teachers Romanian Lingq (use it later) -I can import lessons so I can use self help books/restaurant menus to learn Use memrize to build your vocabulary. Build your own courses. 14 June 2018, Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am again ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)

well, this applies to me 100% . thank you for this tip. i really need to figure out my strategy for the fallowing months

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the day before yesterday: i did no breathing session,went to sleep at 23.30(early for me), i had a hard time falling asleep too@Star Net @now is forever because my mind was filled with problems i avoided to contemplate for weeks. yesterday: i woke up at 7.00 and did the first session of breathing but after it i wasted pretty much all morning. i did the second round after 18;00 instead of 12;00. and finally the 3rd one at 22;00. i had a hard time falling asleep again -though not like the previous day today: woke up at 6;00. hesitated at first but did the 1st session eventually. than i wasted again pretty much all morning. around 17:00 the 2nd one but fell asleep half away through it. i did the 3rd around 19.00 . i wasted some time till 22.00 on the internet because i felt resistant to go to bed. I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace. problems: I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace and to not procrastinate in the morning

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13 June 2018, Wednesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (high double af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5.30am..... ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ❌Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation + personal deck) I Put other ornamental plants into the ground. I received the grammar book I was talking about on  June 11th. It`s amazing plant update/ organic update A year ago i made an experiment. i cut the bottom where i had a 1 month a morning glory and put it into the ground. below; organic farming method: smashed eggshells (anti-slugs/snails and releases Calcium gradually) note: i put them after the slugs ate parts of those leaves a few days after i put it into the ground and a massive heat wave hit -all leaves fell of but one(cannot be seen in the picture) 12 June 2018, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily2/5 ✔️no fap ( low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️❌reading ✔️/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3am+++ ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation + personal deck) I am working on a plan to implement all the advice I received on actualizedorgsifyum learning Dutch Schedule Learning Dutch 12 juni 2018 From actualized,org froum https://www.scotthyoung.com/blog/2016/11/29/learn-languages/ \ Italki Get a Dutch girlfriend Befriend some natives at college and try to speak with them in Dutch Pimsleur Conversational  -though not the cd`s but the mp3`s get yourself in a context in which you have no choice other than speaking the language you want to learn. ``for instance, i use this forum as a means to improve my English`` use total immersion/Do everything in that language. //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// From other sources Anki Fluent forever app Italki Tim ferries reviews (tim ferriss, scott, benny) Memrize Journaling in this language/thinking 11 June 2018, Monday maandag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am++ ✔️✔️?Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I ordered on of the best grammar books in the English language. I meant to do it for moths but resistance kicked in + the advance one that I will buy 10 June 2018, Sunday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap (high af af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ❌Shamanic breathing ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Day 30 of 30 days of no-fap I will maybe end this vacation now….. After 2 weeks and 4 days but ill take 1-2 days of next months?! Dutch anki fl forver------------ after today`s session I feel much better. I just made some progress lol . Only 80 days left(i start uni in NL at the end of august instead of latterly as i would in my country). I feel anxious af,. What should I do? Pickup? English? Dutch? Gardening ???????? nothing at all? Saturday , 9 June 2018 or Tuesday, January 1st Zaterdag, negen juni 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3 /5 ✔️no fap ( high af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I am getting pissed off about the proper watering schedule I try to figure out . I either delay it too much or I pour to much too frequently I spent pretty much all day tieing tying my father`s grape veins. I got lost in the process. I am still seen as a sweet desert by thirsty mosquitoes But in the end I felt ok abut my Dutch skills. ✔️Note- record thyself when attempting to speak in Dutch -it will be totally satisfying to listen to them 1 year from now. lol

Lol I don't think it's that young when you've been with your man for 10 years lol I'm not the youngest wife/mother lol OK, if you say so

@zoey101 what? why are you married AND have a child at 24? you are way too young for this in my opinion

@MarkusSweden OK then, I made a mistake

@BjarkeT i will try to and think in Dutch. Thanks @ajasatya This forum helped me to improve my English too. And I`ll be in a situation like this as soon as I`ll start uni (especially at the market stores and at restaurants) Thank you all, and I am working on a plan to implement all your advice step-by-step

@MarkusSweden Aren`t you like 40? I think I saw your age once on your profile

@Star Net 2

@Mondsee Thank you a lot! I never thought about this! @Joseph Maynor Thank you and i will buy it in a few days. @Max_V Can you teach me how to swear in Dutch? @SFRL This makes sense now with your other posts that i read previously.

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@zoey101 Thank you very much, I`ll look into it @SFRL Interesting idea Off topic: I always thought that you were American

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8 June 2018, Thursday Friday vrijdag donderdag, acht juni 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) i was seconds away from fapping -i stopped just in time. i feel proud of myself ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️❌reading ✔️14/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3.30am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy some of the cards i created for anki on June 6th When And How To Transplant Seedlings Into The Garden

June 7th, Thursday 2018 20 January 1993 7 June 2018, Thursday Donderdag, zeven juni 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️16+/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower. It`s getting easier and easier. ✔️5 /30m mind powers ✔️4/30 meditation ✔️1/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3AM++ ✔️ ✔️✔️Eating healthy I put another morning glory into the ground. I feel good about this. I poured just enough water not like the previous time Lol I want to start swimming classes, to do smth with this summer. I feel like I am wasting time I looked into one of the folders where i put resources on learning Dutch. i found a really cool product which i have totally forgotten about it. in addition to the previous plan i will learn this too. lessons : learning a bunch of similar words(all colors,fruits) at once doesn't work well also learning a bunch of unrelated words doesn't work either (pig-Buddha-toothpaste-swiss cheese) what works bes is learning seemingly unrelated words withing a a story (waiter- back-pain-floor-Friday-to stand) . June 6th, Wednesday 2018 woensdag, zes juni 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 1/5 ✔️no fap ( high high high high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 7am!!!!!!!! ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy I am getting tired and sick and bored of watching those shows daily albeit I know that it`s not as entertaining as I would like it to be. I save up thread after thread daily thinking that one day I will read hem thoroughly. I will stop roaming around on this forum and use the search engine when I will actually need smth eg(nutrition, relationships) instead of saving up everything. I got angry today that I feel so much resistance to take care of my plants. I started learning Dutch since any language is fun to dabble into it. I will use anki, my old trust-able friend My one month plan (basically to learn as much words as I can, than to start with the grammar rules) To learn to count to ten The days of the week The months of the year Some of the most used 100 words in Dutch Random words Also, I want to have fun whilst learning them -so I use funny pics and memes June 5th, Tuesday 2018 Juni vijf, dinsdag 2018 Dinsdag, Vijf Juni 2018 When writing the date in Dutch you always write the day first, then the month, then the year 09 januari 2010 09/01/10 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2.3/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am/5am ✔️ ❌ ✔️Eating healthy I sent all the papers needed for accommodation. I made a mistake. I found out how to convert pics into pdf-actually it’s a site. Pics garden (above&below) i felt resistance to water them for a few days. i need to work on this. regular and proper watering -no excuses June 4th, Monday 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2.9/5 ✔️no fap ( medium-rare urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy LESSON: apply for an internship

ACCOMMODATION PROCEDURE FOR COLLEGE (ADVICE) This is what i learned so far. if you are in my position right now you`ll find this useful first of all, calm down. it wont be as difficult as you might think apply for accommodation as soon as possible because most universities function on the basis of first-come, first-served also, some unis cant guarantee rooms for everyone! so hurry up after you get accepted to your first option college you will receive a link to the accommodation site (basically a list with the various options,types of rooms, prices, location check the distance between your place to the uni using Google maps albeit they state the time on the site. the time between these locations it`s usually longer than they state it on the site if you can choose your room in a student house please check on Google maps where your room it`s situated (facing the nosy street or not) in your application form ADD AT THE DETAILS SECTION a POSITIVE assessment of yourself to ensure that you will receive the studio/apartment/room by differentiating thyself from the other applicants (who don't write anything at all to advertise themselves). eg: non-smoker,friendly,clean&organized individual, i`ll pay in advance read these articles https://www.difc.ie/tips-student-accommodation-dublin/ https://university.which.co.uk/advice/student-accommodation/applying-for-university-accommodation

So like ok I will write in here posts for all of a week and than I will post them online. Why? Because I spend to much time writing them each night. Ha June 3rd, Sunday 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ✔️❌ /30m mind powers ✔️less than/ -6/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am 5am+ ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ❌shamanic breathing i went to an event alone. i resisted a few day at first.it was interesting 10/10. sure i will do it again June 2nd , Saturday 2018 6 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 4.6/5 ✔️no fap ( high af and very twisted urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️11+/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌/30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy although i stated that tv series and movies are not as entertaining as they sued to be -some of them are really really good, so i kept watching them the accommodation staff from my college is really really nice. they helped me a lot to clear my confusion and to realize that i should take it easy -i will find accommodation anyways i think that their site has a bug because i can see the accommodation forms they sent by clicking on ``apply`` links lol my fellow colleagues have between 17 and 26, some of them are from Vietnam,Canada,Japan,Germany,NL and Brazil so far there are two 17 year olds and they asked specifically to not have a woman allocated to their room lol some girl asked to have one male roommate and 1 female roommate lol . she seems really serious about it June -what already? , Friday 2018 5 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3.5/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️21/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ mind powers ❌ meditation ❌ concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy So I swiped through the accommodation site offered by my college I find the perfect studio. And even less than I would pay in a student house. I send an application mail and the owner said that it has been already rented out. Now I suspect that he lied to me. What if she doesn't like my nationality? What if I wont ever find another one? Bullshit!!111111!!!! I will!! I do not know what was his motive. Maybe it was the truth. It a rejection it`s normal. Even people from west Europe face difficulty in finding a place to stay/a room or an apartment. It`s not about me. It`s normal. Even west Europeans are rejected from some places. It`s not personal ! Anyhow, I applied for a room at a student house. Maybe it`s better this way I will go to an event alone this it what happens when you overeater them. their roots rot. Harvard University 2015 Class Day | Harvard University Commencement 2015 -these graduation taped ceremonies makes me think how fast time goes and that in no time i will be there 2018 May 31th. Thursday 4 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3.6/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ✔️Eating healthy I helped my neighbor to recondition his house together with his construction workers. It was quite demanding. I started at 9:15 and I finished at 22.00. I understood why they drink so much. Their work is very hard. It seems comic that they are viewed as inferior in society although they make all the effort to build houses and buildings whereas ``intellectuals`` are just jerking around doing nothing. I understood how lucky I am to have a supportive family and that I got into self actualization A bunch of mosquitoes bit me. An unidentified naughty bug bit me yesterday on the wrist of my right hand/sapping hand and now it swollen af -it looks like a fake hand or a poser hand or like it`s gonna explode with pus lol One of the workers told me to stay in school unless I want to end up like them lol . Yesterday I planted two my morning glory seedlings. I got emotional that I was unorganized and I got agitated during the planting process. I stepped on them because I put them on the ground beside the holes I was digging. Lol. PLS DO NOT PUT YOUR SEEDLINGS ON THE GROUND after you took them out of their pots. Anyhow, they are good and nice. Sarapr is right. I should focus on materialistic aspects of life/of the pyramid and than to move on more deeper topics. I will let kriya etc and enlightenment/ psychedelics /enlightment- spirituality books stuff for later. Maybe I ll do kriya from sophomore year or maybe end of freshmen year. I dont know yet. I cannot jump from the stage am AT to god level. I cannot go from stage red(in some places of my life to stage turquoise by ignoring my problems challenges 30m of meditation will be the same but I will upgrade to mindfulness to at least make some progress yo I will focus on: Physical exercise Traveling/gathering life experience Letting go of high school/the past/grudges Finding lp 100% certainty Social life etc/socializing Winning at college Accommodating in a new city/at college English language skills/Dutch skills Experimenting around Nutrition/cooking Style/clothing/self esteem. Fix my dating life/sex/pickup Dealing with old emotional wounds, self esteem issues etc/ building confidence Building a stable and strong ego I am anxious that I wont get a place at the accommodation provided by my college. Also, I am apprehensive about how I will deal with other students and whether my English is not enough to get into class and socialize at all I looked at myself in the mirror from my neighbor bathroom and I was like: I like my handsome mustache. It looks good. It makes me look funny. And I am a funny person. You can tell I will tell a joke before I tell it. I think I will keep it for a few weeks, maybe all summer. And yes is still feel ashamed of it but not like I used to. Hey! A comfort zone challenge is a comfort zone challenge Why are people so serious about their marriages and romantic relationships? They seem just jokes . I feel scarcity about this summer and what I have time to accomplish. I should take it easy* I will keep these baby vacation of mine (2 weeks to 1month) I will keep cooking, walking, reading, I want to start pickup I will learn the alphabet/basic notions in duck lol I wanted to write Dutch Revise english grammar In august I want to plan and read about what to do and don’t do in my freshmen year and other college knx. I have gathered a lot of links, screen shots etc. 2018, May 30th, Wednesday 3 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( medium urges ) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌/30m mind powers ✔️ 5/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy I started to love my mustache. I find it cool, now that my beard grow a little. Maybe I will keep it. Maybe I will grow it longer .lol. I feel better about it. It complements my style. Off course I am still insecure with it but I push myself just by having it lol. I planted the morning glories. I was nervous. I had no idea almost what was I doing. I added to much water. I stepped on them bc I put them on the grown before planting. I watched in darkness 2018. I couldn’t bear to be blind. Being at the mercy of strangers….. That scene where she/blind woman get assaulted by some street boys/street rats… geeee, scary af.… being helpless is one of my biggest fears . I decided to learn basic Dutch during freshmen year although I said I will start from the sophomore year. Why mot? If it will be once a week I will still make progress. I was admiring the hot girls form some kind a vegan store, who where into clean eating and I was thinking that I have no chance with them . Bullshit!!!!! I am quite a chetck catch. I am well build, funny, smart,, Interesting, NOT OVERWEIGHT, not into rat race, I have a passion. I work with my hands/man work. I bought black maca, spirulina and cocoa POWDER smoothie: 99% cherries and cherries, cocoa powder lemon juice leftovers and honey smoothie: 99% cherries and cherries, lemon juice leftovers, a lot of honey ++++ cocoa powder,black maca, spirulina. BLACK MACA is the worst think i have ever tasted or drank. that smell........ just no look at that! two distinct colors! this is the next level shit smoothie 29/5/2018 2 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily3/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 1am ✔️ ? ? Eating healthy do a 10day fast/2 day water fast. Read more about plant care. Stay outside like a maniac. Take meditation seriously. 30m daily. No excuses This it`s inspired from After reading quanti`s post I decided to really start kryia yoga, opening my chakras 125 days left till college this is how the land i will plant them looks like : 28-5-2018 1 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2.5/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ❌spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am+ ✔️ ❌❌ Eating healthy ❌shamanic breathing

lol take it with some strong alcohol ``to help with digestion`` @PhilGR a smoothie or choose some fruits but avoid the ones that might get you to throw up due to your stressful state

that's quite interesting! the large majority of people need a cigarette outside due to social anxiety but they rarely smoke alone at home i thought you take them because of peer pressure

How many days it last?? @John Iverson