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Morning glories @S33K3R Hi! Glad to know that other people from here are into gardening too you can make some kind of mulch with the reaming tree leaves i guess lol you can make barbecues every other day till you get enlightened

20 juni 2018, woensdag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap (high urges)- I was so clue to relapsing but I self-talked myself to not do it ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)-not finished pronunciation deck I planted a bunch of seedlings . I felt good. Yes, this is me. I need a 1234 plan Back pain doctor Put money on pinpas/card for italki More time outside. English grammar /speaking; italki Laptop for school Gardening pest control Swimming lessons sage seedling. pretty feeble put in the tray was eaten by small black flies so i chose to move in here. it didn't survive tomatoes first day a few days later this little guy just appeared even if i put the seed there a few months ago parsley morning glory during noon, under strong sunlight. it will be fine by the end of the day

19,6,2018. Put money on pinpas/card for italki English grammar book, anki, itaki create account and skype 20 juni 2018, woenSdag I watched movies till 4am.i slept in till 13:12 I had intense dreams. I mean very very complex and rich dreams. Whole worlds created in front of my eyes 23.06.2018, UNSANE 2018 Wow. Being a woman stalked by a man is hell. I never thought about this. What can you do? If you are like most girls you've got 2-3 friends? No one to help them. I mean would your friends help you if you would be stalked by a creep? What can you do if you have no friends and no family? And even of ypu have friends they won't probably help with such big problems. You are all alone What can you do? Go to a lawyer? A cop? It's pretty shameful to do it. It's embarrassing to tell to your friends and family about this. The dude might stalk you day and night but this isn't ilegal. You can't do anything about this. They are just there. But you marinate in god knows what kind of terrible emotions. Damn. THAT'S SCARY. 19 juni 2018, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️30!!!!/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I feel insecure. I read the thread `` shamanic breathing.`` I felt bad that I avoided doing it for 3 weeks. I feel that I m not doing enough practices. But I do! I am going to nl because lp! I re-started meditation. I AM LEARNING ENGLISH. I am learning Dutch . I am doing shamanic breathing. I AM STRUGGLING BCASUE I AM GROWING SO FAST,. Moving abroad it`s a perfect way to grow yourself fast and intense. I am gardening as best as I can bro I hate my father. he`s a neurotic motherfucker. he had decades to deal with his short temper and anger issues. why didn't he do it then? https://athleanx.com should I go to the gum for 2-3 years. Just to build a better chest/upper body. I am a little insecure that I don’t have well defined muscles. so????. Well, first I heal my back pain/injury which I have avoided to do so since last year bro. this gym thing can wait for a few more years i found these moth shells under a raspberry bush. i pured to much water too often and therefore the stem rotted. DO NOT water a plant-like-cactus to much or this will happen again

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@Star Net I`m definitely in. i love to watch the sunset in general

You seem like You used to not sleep or sleep very late at night, and Maybe that is the reason that You are facing problem when it comes to sleep, yes, i feel resistant to go to bed pretty much every day i went to sleep very very late in the last couple of days without doing the breathing sessions at all BUT it was an interesting experience overall and i re-started my shamanic breathing after a few weeks off. Thank you@Star Net for coming up with this challenge

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18 juni 2018, Monday /maandag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat ✔️reading ✔️30!!!!/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) 17 juni 2018, Sunday/zondag? yes ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap (high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower -lol i just realized i wrote WORM not WARM lol ❌30 /30m mind powers ✔️30/30 meditation ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Join us e4rd challenge/star`s challenge---- bla bla bla. Abstained/refrained eating junk food. Contemplated further the other night plans. Considering even more to try a italki session in English etc. Star net challenge-- sleep: 23.00-7.00. bla bla bla procrastination I will wake up at 4 o`clock I am excited lol.---i woke up latterly btw That`s a wasp/small flies bee trap. i used some last year. great kill count btw https://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Wasp-Trap 16 juni 2018, Saturday/zaterdag zondag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️21/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 23.00 !!!!!!!!!! ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Had plenty of time to think. Difficulty falling asleep I listen to the first Pimselur free Dutch lesson. It was fun af. I will; buy the course. ( btw i bought it ) I will buy the f forever in-development app. Their pronunciation thing is helping me really good. ( btw i bought it , i am pleasantly impressed by their pronunciation cards ) Should I boy the pronunciation product for English too? no the 3rd leaf from the top was eaten by slugs/snails 15 June 2018, Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high!!!!! urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ( yes! I woke up at 12:00am and I brewed a green tea and than went in my garden and read and drank it. It was a very very pleasant experience. Ill do it again tomorrow. ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3.30-4am ✔️ ?❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) n[ɱ] as in "bronwater"[bʀɔɱʋa:təɹ] I find the Dutch language exciting and interesting af. I feel tremendous resistance to be productive. I felt tribble urges to eat junk food lately. These urges kicked in stronger and stronger since I started doing shamanic breathing Tomorrow I will start the 3rd challenge(set link). I am glad that this turned out to be the definitive challenge although I voted for the second one. I really need to fix my sleeping schedule. . Some tourist stopped me today asking where he can find a taxi. I felt anxious af. I tried to talk with him in English but all he was saying was taxi taxi taxi. And I don’t know how to give directions in English also . Its strange that this made me feel anxious and relived afterwards -not every foreigner is fluent in English as I expected , yet they have the balls o travel and work in other countries. I realized that I take myself to seriously `` who? They to laugh at me??no no no!!!``. Lol Learning Spanish - Pimsleur, Italki, LingQ, and Memrise Start pimsleur(its fun, easy, listen whilst commuting,---- schedule: 2- 3 times a week an hour long, he used it for several months.(it will take time to learn dutch lol) Italki-very useful, you can teach you teachers Romanian Lingq (use it later) -I can import lessons so I can use self help books/restaurant menus to learn Use memrize to build your vocabulary. Build your own courses. 14 June 2018, Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am again ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)

well, this applies to me 100% . thank you for this tip. i really need to figure out my strategy for the fallowing months

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the day before yesterday: i did no breathing session,went to sleep at 23.30(early for me), i had a hard time falling asleep too@Star Net @now is forever because my mind was filled with problems i avoided to contemplate for weeks. yesterday: i woke up at 7.00 and did the first session of breathing but after it i wasted pretty much all morning. i did the second round after 18;00 instead of 12;00. and finally the 3rd one at 22;00. i had a hard time falling asleep again -though not like the previous day today: woke up at 6;00. hesitated at first but did the 1st session eventually. than i wasted again pretty much all morning. around 17:00 the 2nd one but fell asleep half away through it. i did the 3rd around 19.00 . i wasted some time till 22.00 on the internet because i felt resistant to go to bed. I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace. problems: I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace and to not procrastinate in the morning

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13 June 2018, Wednesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (high double af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5.30am..... ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ❌Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation + personal deck) I Put other ornamental plants into the ground. I received the grammar book I was talking about on  June 11th. It`s amazing plant update/ organic update A year ago i made an experiment. i cut the bottom where i had a 1 month a morning glory and put it into the ground. below; organic farming method: smashed eggshells (anti-slugs/snails and releases Calcium gradually) note: i put them after the slugs ate parts of those leaves a few days after i put it into the ground and a massive heat wave hit -all leaves fell of but one(cannot be seen in the picture) 12 June 2018, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily2/5 ✔️no fap ( low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️❌reading ✔️/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3am+++ ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation + personal deck) I am working on a plan to implement all the advice I received on actualizedorgsifyum learning Dutch Schedule Learning Dutch 12 juni 2018 From actualized,org froum https://www.scotthyoung.com/blog/2016/11/29/learn-languages/ \ Italki Get a Dutch girlfriend Befriend some natives at college and try to speak with them in Dutch Pimsleur Conversational  -though not the cd`s but the mp3`s get yourself in a context in which you have no choice other than speaking the language you want to learn. ``for instance, i use this forum as a means to improve my English`` use total immersion/Do everything in that language. //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// From other sources Anki Fluent forever app Italki Tim ferries reviews (tim ferriss, scott, benny) Memrize Journaling in this language/thinking 11 June 2018, Monday maandag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am++ ✔️✔️?Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I ordered on of the best grammar books in the English language. I meant to do it for moths but resistance kicked in + the advance one that I will buy 10 June 2018, Sunday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap (high af af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ❌Shamanic breathing ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Day 30 of 30 days of no-fap I will maybe end this vacation now….. After 2 weeks and 4 days but ill take 1-2 days of next months?! Dutch anki fl forver------------ after today`s session I feel much better. I just made some progress lol . Only 80 days left(i start uni in NL at the end of august instead of latterly as i would in my country). I feel anxious af,. What should I do? Pickup? English? Dutch? Gardening ???????? nothing at all? Saturday , 9 June 2018 or Tuesday, January 1st Zaterdag, negen juni 2018 ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3 /5 ✔️no fap ( high af urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I am getting pissed off about the proper watering schedule I try to figure out . I either delay it too much or I pour to much too frequently I spent pretty much all day tieing tying my father`s grape veins. I got lost in the process. I am still seen as a sweet desert by thirsty mosquitoes But in the end I felt ok abut my Dutch skills. ✔️Note- record thyself when attempting to speak in Dutch -it will be totally satisfying to listen to them 1 year from now. lol

Lol I don't think it's that young when you've been with your man for 10 years lol I'm not the youngest wife/mother lol OK, if you say so

@zoey101 what? why are you married AND have a child at 24? you are way too young for this in my opinion

@MarkusSweden OK then, I made a mistake

@BjarkeT i will try to and think in Dutch. Thanks @ajasatya This forum helped me to improve my English too. And I`ll be in a situation like this as soon as I`ll start uni (especially at the market stores and at restaurants) Thank you all, and I am working on a plan to implement all your advice step-by-step

@MarkusSweden Aren`t you like 40? I think I saw your age once on your profile