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I've chosen good paying job (top 1%) and almost no free time. However, I knew nothing about different way of living when I started working ... it was all about the money .... since I woke up there was a resistance towards my job. This job allowed me to plan my job retirement within 2years and I can concentrate on other things and not to be bothered by the money. As a householder, get the money and do as much sadhana as you can. If still unsure buy Leo's course and find your niche/purpose for instance. Also, learn from Leo's journey as well. In my experience, many of spiritually oriented people still have/had residual blocks and issues related to wealth and money.

@Consilience Congratulation, just 2h per day for 1y is zero in terms of time of the universe. Without Leo's or similar explorations it is difficult to grasp the is-ness. The order of understanding is as in @Leo Gura quote: "You are God. You are Love. You are Infinity. You are Leo." Contemplating in the reverse order .... who am I? what am I? who is the other ? what is this ?

Explore it as a strange loop.

God can be conscious devil. Consciousness does not guarantee moral concepts.

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Returned from holiday. It was short but I enjoyed it. I listened to Great Minds of the Eastern Intellectual Tradition https://www.amazon.com/Great-Minds-Eastern-Intellectual-Tradition/dp/B00DTNVNT2 I liked it and found many things that I even never heard of, one interesting character that I', aligned with is Nagarjuna. https://iep.utm.edu/nagarjun/ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm part of online dyads group that I appreciate. I booked flight to London and I plan to attend few days retreat. Hopefully, second wave of COVID won't be the issue because I already cancelled previous retreat in May. It is something that I'd like to bring into Center Self+Love. The opening of center has still few months to go.

Goal: finish Leo's course, self-realization , self-actualization, center for enlightenment I started with self-actualization and self-realization when money stopped making me happy, actually lots of things stopped making me happy, I got into relationship problems and I tried to find out way out of misery. It is already almost 9 years now. Time to move on !

I'm really thankful for COVID lockdown in a sense that I have ability to build Ikea kitchen and at the same time listen to Leo's videos. I've just listened to stage red video and I've seen myself in certain situations in stage red. Not only that I had realization that when I used to play games as a teenager I appreciated more Civilization rather than Doom and similar. It is not that I did not play Doom/Wolfenstein or similar but I got bored much earlier than some other strategic games. Therefore, I appreciate Leo's remark on playing games with elements of red stage in a sense that it should give red perspective and serve as some kind of bust/release of red stage behavior. This might be the way how to move teenagers trough stages faster than earlier generations.

Dyads is something that I wan to do in Center Self+Love therefore I signed for online dyads. I wondered how self realized I am. At first, I had dyads with somebody who wanted to open to me because I was asked to repeat communication. However, in the second set I fucked up because I jumped in on purpose, I wanted to do good but I realized that I was not asked to do it and therefore I failed and lost trust, it was a good lecture. I apologized and I accepted it but my hope was understanding why I did it. Well, what to do I have to let go. Today, I just finished first evening with group working and I had opportunity to have dyads with master. It was interesting to see how people are struggling at different levels. I looked like people are at different levels of spiral dynamics but they struggle similar way, it looks like reaction to barrier is the same, banging head against the wall instead of finding the way to break or go somehow around it. If anybody feels he/she wants to try dyads with me feel free to contact me.

It is unbelievable how life plays its cards. I have to deliver to officials project that is done by architect or similar and I asked my uncle whether he would do it. Long story short he agreed so we almost almost finished the project. Here comes lump inside the breast of his wife and all is stopped, rushing to doctors, hospitals, surgery. Many people say that it wants to tell me something. Well , I just say, if there is any suffering I'm too attached to a project. Or one can say, waw, what a coincidence! At the same time we all become more conscious about the limited physical life as we know it.

I'm just listening to Leo's new video and I went past 17min realizing that I had that realization in the evening after 5Meo when I wondered whether there is even something .... I questioned here and now and I saw there is no-here and no-now that was mind-blowing . Interesting, Leo claims that: all there is - is nothing and the reason that it exists is that it is nothing, excellent. after 35 minutes thich nhat hanh advices to ask if you got "empty" glass. Empty glass ... but empty of what ? reality is just superposition of mega wavefunction that is actually virtual ?

I heard it in one of the recent films: "Gravity is a reaction to loneliness." I cannot unlike it. I triggers lots of buttons. It seems I did not post for several months. This does not mean that I was doing nothing, it seems I do not need spend time writing memos but I was living life. Is there any better film than your own?! One should keep living rather than keep watching ... However, I also realized that how attached I become to the project Center Self+Love. Once I realized that all is as it should be and there is nothing to be done it helped me to return to parvatha state. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To infer one’s existence no other evidence is necessary. The senses and the mind arising from the ego cannot serve as evidence relating to the Self. The Self is their basis. They do not exist independently of the Self. One’s own existence is self-evident. Bliss is the Self. All become dear only owing to the love of Self. Love is not different from the Self. Love of an object is of an inferior order and cannot endure. Whereas the Self is Love, in other words, God is Love.

I heard it in one of the recent films: "Gravity is a reaction to loneliness." I cannot unlike it. I triggers lots of buttons :).

what layer? Sure , I get it, you want to put it into concepts.

Hmm, that is the shortcoming of language. I mean the definition of real. What is? Yes, all seems real until it isn't. Also consciousness is real until it isn't. Even Newton was looking for a substrate of light (ether). If projection is what we experience etc. we still do not know how many dimensions one need to go to get to the director, if there is any. Ultimately one is going to ask why? .Substance aka matter aka ether

You went through strange loop but you seem to be still stuck in material paradigm. Once you accept that the consciousness is the source then the physical world crumbles. It is just an echo of the property of unspeakable.

have a break as I mentioned, you might develop mental dependency Start much lower 5-7ug and up by 2ug, good luck

Ivan, you have to try it yourself. I've been doing it for more than a year and I'm sure of huge potential. It is next big thing after hemp :). However, whatever becomes business looses something, let's see what it is going to be. Get it from good source, find your levels, levels for work up to levels for contemplation and creativity. Just try to keep minimum of 3days in between and you should be fine, Monday and then Thursday is a good rhythm.

How to teach that cannot be taught? Path to total awakening does not go trough the garden of Eden but through the flames of Hell.

sometimes there is truth in jokes

My top 5 strengths: all of them fit but I'm not sure about the order Your Top Strength Bravery and valor - You are a courageous person who does not shrink from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain. You speak up for what is right even if there is opposition. You act on your convictions. Your Second Strength Fairness, equity, and justice - Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance. Strength #3 Creativity, ingenuity, and originality - Thinking of new ways to do things is a crucial part of who you are. You are never content with doing something the conventional way if a better way is possible. Strength #4 Judgment, critical thinking, and open-mindedness - Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind. Strength #5 Humor and playfulness - You like to laugh and tease. Bringing smiles to other people is important to you. You try to see the light side of all situations.

I was reactivated from my personal retreat by Leo's first video after retreat. I do not want to react on his video, I just say that at one of my 5-meo experiences I received message that I have to forgive myself therefore I quite resonate with the mental purification process Leo was going trough. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I return to my "Center Self+Love" endeavor, I had to postpone the opening which suppose to be latest April. Actually, I'm glad because I felt I was tired of overall process and I could see there the problems are and I did not anticipate many bureaucratic hurdles. Covid break gave me also more time to think about things around management of the center and where do I want to lead it. What directions do I want to push that comes from my journey. I expect post-Covid reopening of borders and economy in late may/june. I started asking : How to operate the whole structure of center? How am I going really participate in the overall process? How to attract teachers and motivate them so they provide best service for people? No that I did not have an idea but I saw that people are mainly in survival mode, especially due to Covid, nobody is sending checks with dollars outside America .

Yes, Peter was just sleeping past 3 years. You cannot awake without him !

All the administrative work around starting business is really annoying. I end up creating non-profit organization S+L, guess Self+Love but English names are not allowed therefore S+L. I started to call the place "Center S+L", Center Self+Love. I know I'm going to expose myself here but hey that is naked life ...) https://www.facebook.com/CentrumSelfPlusLove So, all in progress except, neighbor above flooded inner walls of "Center S+L", grocery Billa that has monopoly in the neighborhood put fence that people cannot park nearby (well, I need access for renovation, building material is heavy stuff), the floor that I ordered looks like cheap Polish crap and it takes double the time to put down. I found out that I'm going to need additional permission from hygiene, a subsidiary Ministry of Health and they also need analysis of water quality and god knows what else, smells with corruption for me. Oh, I wonder how clean is on-line business. Yes, I started to run "Center Self+Love" as a "profit" business because nobody wants to work with non-profit business. People do not understand that it is just a vehicle for avoiding administrative burden. My vision is quite simple: Centers for Self+Love are going to pop up all over the Europe/World and they are going to communicate in some progressive fashion, share knowledge and information how to progress within self-actualization, self-realization, enlightenment work and other life pursuits. That is enough for today, feel free to comment, criticize or help with development Center for Self+Love ...

As I mentioned before I inclined to yoga especially ashtanga because it grounding for my self. I reached the point where I decided to take teacher training course because it could serve as a survival instrument and I hoped that some of these people were far in the personal development. Well, I know it is not true and I realized that many of them they are just still stuck in survival mode. Not only that but I asked about yoga teacher jobs and I realized that yoga studios are screwing up yoga teachers and in order to earn enough money one has to waste lots of personal energy and there is no enough energy left for their own practice. So my goal become how to go beyond survival? There is no security in the world but I listened to Sadhguru and he expressed that it is almost first time in history that we can just buy stuff, live from it for a long time (a year or so) and concentrate on transformation. Hurrah, so I buy stuff, close myself, going to exercise and meditate and I'm going to transform myself into enlightened being. I realized that it might not be the path for me as one can look at it as running away and it can at certain point become a problem. How to go beyond survival as a householder with family? I had to wait until I have seen that my children can be self-sustained and I can be involved at the limited level. Anyway, I've observed that there is some healthy level of parents influence on children but beyond it parents just create barriers and blockages in children's future development. At the same time I look at my relationship(s) and I wonder what would happen to the relationships if one goes beyond survival? I see there issues with my addition to pleasure, porn and sex, I think I worry about the unknown. I transformed my life to a rhythm where I would incorporate meditation, yoga, self-development into my life. However, I've seen it is not enough. The only resolution I could come up is that I start something that would support my practice and at the same time bring some compensation that would support my life and expenses or at least part of expenses. So, I decided to start yoga studio where I would play a role as a teacher. At the same time I have to find a space which I would own and I could manage how much to pay yoga teachers so myself too. However, this idea changed over time and it transformed from yoga studio to holistic center. I would use topics and experiences that I went trough and offer it in terms of workshops over the time. I wondered how would I call it, I came up with an idea of sahaja yoga (sahaja means spontaneous enlightenment). Then friend of mine become involved in choosing name and she proposed name Arya and given that I wanted to involve her in the studio I changed the name. Also I did not want to influence things, I try to give things free flow. Then I was influenced by Leo's video which ultimately explained few things around Self and Love that I already experienced and I had them in my mind but they were not connected. I started to see connections and it led to ultimate idea for name: Self + Love.