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Carl-Richard replied to caelanb's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Would be interested to hear about some specific examples -
Carl-Richard replied to Vipassana's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Do you feel it's working? -
In reality, there is nothing holding me back other than the story I keep telling myself: that I need to grow and develop as a person. I mean I'm not even financially independent yet, and the state of my social life/achievements is pretty dull. It doesn't really matter if it's a belief, a story, or an illusion, because even though I know that is what it is, I still feel an urge to hold on. I believe time is the only answer, hence growth. I think there is value to the good old sales pitch for enlightenment: "Have you tried living life but nothing seems to make you satisfied? Try enlightenment!". I haven't really lived life yet, and even though I know that it won't satisfy me, I still feel like I have to do it.
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Just have to add that this guy doesn't represent the majority of people in stage blue at all, but it's nonetheless a good example of stage blue lines of reasoning, and it's also just too hilarious to not add here: 8:35-9:35 "Is jazz a derivative - a lower derivative, of the waltz? It's a simplification and a judaized version of the waltz. It's waltz without the order." "There is no order to jazz music! Jazz music is not ordered like music- ... it's made up on the go. Jazz music is made up on the go, that's why it sounds so stupid. Jazz music is all *bbrbrbrbrbr* - atonal!"
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Without sounding too arrogant, I already know all this. It's just that when I go down that route of accepting and letting go of all the fears and selfish ideas, I keep spiralling down into the process of dying, and therefore I'm latching onto these fears and ideas as a grounding tool, because the prospect of dying doesn't seem right for me (which is a belief too). Yes, I know this is all just a game I'm playing with myself, but I just really don't want to die at the moment :). This is why I feel like an idiot, because I've spent years to obtain this, and now I'm doing everything I can do in order to successfully shoot myself in the foot.
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You're actually correct. Not long ago I became aware that I have been holding back a lot of emotions, and it manifested itself as a tension in the gut area. I started to try to provoke emotional releases during my meditations, and after maybe only 2 months of doing that, I noticed the tension subsiding and I was becomming more "embodied" rather than numbed out. Sometimes meditation can make you totally disregard your emotions, and it's not healthy. Anyways, I was doing well, and then spring came and my energy levels naturally started to increase, and I was catapulted into non-dual states of awareness out of nowhere, and I responded in fear, because it feels like death, and I'm not ready for it. I believe the main tension that I was unconsciously holding onto all those years was the fear of death, and when I trained myself to become conscious of this tension, I reached a point where I can drop the tension at will, but then I would go into a process of dying. So basically, like I've explained in a topic I made 2 weeks ago, I've spent the last few weeks trying to consiously recreate some form of emotional tension in order to ground myself, because I don't want to let go into nonduality. It scares me, I feel like I'm not ready, that I have to grow as a person. These 3-4 years of daily meditation has totally shifted how I experience reality, and there is really no turning back, even though I'm trying my best. It's really idiotic if you ask me haha
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It might be dangerous. However, when we're dealing with these types of phenomena that can only be described as an invisible ominous force, we must remember to acknowledge our inbuilt fears and biases around these things. The fact that this creates a sense of paranoia and distrust should be expected, and that should be weighed with the evidence at hand.
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Carl-Richard replied to Patrick_9931's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Smiles Sometimes it's hard to construct a life when you're trying to deconstruct it at the same time. -
@VerballyHazardous Being pedantic and narcissistic like that is often just a result of being immature. I call this phenomena "high school atheism". It happens because the status quo of the society is orange, and teenagers will soak that up like a sponge and use it to flaunt their newly developed reasoning apparatus. @Thewritersunion Orange Peterson vs. Yellow Peterson haha
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Carl-Richard replied to Patrick_9931's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I was in the same shoes as you at your age. Now I'm 22, and I've come to realize that I'm actually not ready. I'm not ready to die, to give up my life to God. I still have things I would like to do, and I'm not developed as a person. Nothing wrong with a meditation habit, but don't be surprised if you suddenly start dying while sitting in a lecture or something. If you're not ready for it, it can become a burden if it comes uninvited. -
Carl-Richard replied to habibi87's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
@ivory They didn't skip over orange. I don't think that is even possible, even if process isn't always linear. Evolution is a gradual process, building on what is already there. The new stage is very much a reaction to the preceding stage. @Roy True, but these countries are the only real world examples we got for now. Even though current events of stagnation can lead to progress in the future, you have to be careful to not mistake that for current progress, because it's not. Two step backwards is still two step backwards. If we constantly invoke the mystical reality of "it's all one continuous evolution", there is no point in talking about anything. We're currently in a stage of stagnation: socially, economically, politically. Will it lead to progress in the future? Yes. We like to think that we learn from our mistakes. -
Carl-Richard replied to habibi87's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
@Etherial Cat I should've clarified that when I said that I believe this crisis will lead to a net decrease in development, I wasn't excluding the possibility of growth in the future, but rather I was talking about the current state within the crisis. Even though there are signs of green forces being provoked during these times, there are bigger or atleast equal forces of fear and resentment growing in the background. I don't really see the point in bringing up the absolute in a relativistic discussion like this. Yes, everything is one, it's all interconnected, but we're still here in the flesh, trying to make the pieces fit. Granted the fertilizing effects that a world war has on the world, like you said it's not the state of war itself (mistrust, hate, anger, decline, death) that causes the evolution to the next stage: it's the end of the war and the subsequent prosperity. War is inherently destructive, and it's first when the war subsides and given time that growth can happen. Yes, it helps to burn the old ground for more fertile soil, but you could also have a war that is followed by prolonged stagnation and no growth. You want to avoid destruction if you have the choice. -
Carl-Richard replied to Bittu's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
That may be correct, but that's just semantics imo. -
No, because then they will be the ones in treatment.
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Carl-Richard replied to Bittu's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Waken What exactly did you add to that statement? -
Carl-Richard replied to montecristo's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Why not try death for a day? -
Carl-Richard replied to habibi87's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
Did WWII cause the emergence of stage green in the world or was it due to the subsequent prosperity? Would stage green never have appeared without WWII? -
Carl-Richard replied to habibi87's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
@Roy Let's look at actual real world examples: why are scandinavian countries consistently more green than the rest of the world? Not because of crisis. -
Carl-Richard replied to montecristo's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Meta-Man This man is speaking the truth. I've been dying many times, and it's no joke. It feels like you're going to disappear forever and never come back. -
I was socially anxious for as long as I could remember, probably peaking around 14 years old. I would never initiate a conversation with anybody else than my 4-6 closest friends in high school. I started smoking weed heavily at 17 years old, and expanded my circle of friends. I was getting better at talking to people, but I was still very neurotic. During my final year of high school, my normal life almost fell apart (skipping class, isolating myself etc.), and I was forced to stop smoking weed. Even after that, my longest break was around a month. Around the same time by pure luck, I discovered the concept of mindfulness. Then came spring vacation and I was "forced" to not smoke weed for a week, and I decided to practice active mindfulness during the entire week. After that week, I decided to try to meditate with eyes closed while sitting, and during my second serious attempt, my mind became very quiet, and I entered a state where it felt like I was dissolving. I quickly got up and stopped the meditation, because it was scary and I had no idea what was happening. The day after, my mind was extremely quiet, and I was going to take a physics test, and I had no fear or anxiety at all. I was super focused the entire test and did better than ever before. I had no desire for smoking weed for a full month, because I was just meditating for hours and hours, trying to hit that sweet point again. My memory is very foggy, but I can't really remember ever feeling socially anxious after that experience, atleast not the same way as before. I believe it was caused by the reduction of the amount of negative self-talk from having a mystical experience. Fast forward 4 years, my social anxiety is virtually non-existent, but I'm still relatively quiet, mainly because I don't have many thoughts running through my mind. To say that meditation changed my life is an understatement. If I didn't find Leo's channel, I have no idea where I would be today.
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Vegan Gains is the poster boy of stage green intellect and stage red emotional development.
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Carl-Richard replied to habibi87's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
I believe a crisis like this leads to a net decrease in developmental stages. Progress from orange into green comes exactly from that abundance created by orange: the shift is a result of growth, not stagnation. -
Carl-Richard replied to montecristo's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Let me put it like this: sometimes less is more. A stable practice that gives good results doesn't have to be complicated. -
Carl-Richard replied to Bittu's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Will I ever learn to trust myself? -
I've had DPDR from weed many times before, and IMO it's quantitatively different from an enlightenment experience. DPDR from weed feels like you've put on a helmet. Enlightenment experience feels like a helmet has been taken off.