Carl-Richard

I can relate. The solution is to just construct some structure and try it out, even if it doesn't feel natural. You can actually do things without having full knowledge about it.

Experience it.

Growth is not a linear process.

What?

Do you think removing the forum will fix those problems or is it maybe only a symptom of an underlying problem that will anyway express itself through other means? What if the forum is a comparatively better alternative than say video games and masturbation?

What do you mean? Physical reality is constantly changing. Psychedelics speed up that process.

The only reason I came to this forum is because I wanted to abort my spiritual experiences

Do you take any vitamin D supplements?

Find out what causes the terror.

I think the word you're looking for is idiosyncratic.

Also to what degree can you predict that? Could you pinpoint the exact microsecond when I decide to not watch the TV show anymore?

Playing a Death Metal song in a church (unplugged)

Articulating things in your head is the same as talking to yourself. They say talking to yourself is the first sign of madness. They also say it's hard to distinguish genius from madness.

You learned the limitations of statistics. That's more important than knowing any specific statistic.

All I did was add some information to the nature of the statistics you posted. If you care about properly understanding statistics, you should appreciate that. Was I wrong? Is that why you're so upset?

Surrender to Love.

IMO you should find a balance where you're following a cycle. Going too long makes adaptation and feedback mechanisms kick in and you start losing the juice (for me it's at the 1 week mark). You want to keep riding that upward curve and that requires pushing the reset button from time to time. Remember that ejaculation also has its benefits.

What the heck are you on about?

Exactly my point.

He is on the spectrum though which can make you come off as overly formal at times.

Today's world -> Generalized AI -> skip Orange -> Matrixian reality -> Enlightenment downloadable for free -> technospiritual oneness.

This a common laymen misunderstanding of schizophrenia. Schizophrenia has nothing to do with split personality. It's a psychotic disorder characterized by symptoms like hallucinations, delusions and other miscellaneous symptoms. What you're referring to is called "dissociative identity disorder" (DID). Also don't worry about these thoughts you're having. Realize that the mind isn't a single object to begin with. It's a fragmented collection of impressions that come and go. There is nothing dangerous about observing this fact directly. Self-inquiry is essentially about investigating what your experience is made out of. There are many pathways to that practice. If the thought of being an observer arises, then self-inquiry is about investigating that further. People often ask questions like "who am I?" or "where am I?" in order to provoke that investigation. That's only a question of method.