Carl-Richard

I've had many dips into the source while meditating, but I'll go a step further and only mention the times I've awoken suddenly in the middle of the day without consciously meditating: I sat on an airplane while listening intensely to Martin Ball's song "The Fractal of Being". The plane was about to land, the song was coming to an end and I was completely one with the music, until the lyrics said "Surrender to the flow", which was when a deep sense of warmth started emanating from my chest, and a sudden flash of terror and the realization of "oh fuck I think I'm going to die!" filled my center of attention. I opened my eyes and started to reach for my water bottle, and then most amazing thing happened: my hand moved completely of its own accord. There was no "me" moving it. I looked out the window at the beautiful landscape as the plane touched down and felt a deep sense of nostalgia while thinking "This is it". It was Me. It has always been me. It's what I've been all the time. It was the feeling of my living room when I was 3 years old. I was about to start crying as I was melting into the love and beauty of everything, but then we had to get up and leave the plane. I looked around as we were about to leave and I could see all the faces sitting in the rows behind me all at the same time. It was like everybody was all sitting together and I could feel all of them. Everything in my visual field was in crisp, crystal clear focus. I walked off the plane while feeling lighter than a feather, and I looked around, caught the eye of a toddler sitting in a stroller who looked at me with a confused stare. After that, the feeling of terror started to creep up again and I had to grasp onto my mind to keep myself from disappearing into it all. Infact, 5 years later, that is still what I'm doing. Almost one year ago, I sat in a lecture. I was extremely well-rested, peak-energy levels, very calm in the body and mind. I had slept well, worked out two days in a row, it was the first day of true spring weather, and there was a full-moon. I had eaten just the perfect amount of food, the perfect type of food, my stomach was in the most perfect condition, I had abstained from all sexual activity for 5 days, my body was super flexible from stretching out 30 minutes everyday for 5 months, and I was sitting completely still with an upright posture while just listening to the teacher. I had recently experimented with provoking emotional releases during meditation, and I had become very aware of how I was creating tensions in my body. Somehow during the lecture, I became aware of how I was tensing up in the stomach in order to focus on what the teacher was saying, and I had the insight that if I just relax, let go of the tension and sit back, maybe I'll feel better. That is what I did. It felt great. Then not long after that, I got the sense that the lecture was suddenly slowing down, the teacher was talking very slowly and my sense of time and perception of what the teacher was saying gradually started to change. Then the familiar feeling of terror from my past awakenings of "oh shit I'm going to die!" arrived in full force, and I had no idea how to stop it. I tried manually tensing my stomach, clenching my fist, moving my feet, but then the insight that "you're still creating all of this, this is still all You" just cut through that illusion like it was nothing. I was on the verge of a panic attack until the lecture finally ended and I walked out (more like levitated out) while talking to my friends, all while trying to keep a straight face without revealing how I was about to freak the fuck out. I went to the toilet, somehow managed to ground myself, and went back to talk with some of my friends while looking outside the window at the beautiful spring weather. The rest of the summer was spent finding new interesting ways to clench my stomach in order to keep myself from disappearing. So as you can see, the common thread through all of my awakenings is a cycle of opening up, freaking out, and closing back down again. Infact now, just as we speak, despite not having meditated since march last year, I've entered a perpetual tug-of-war between staying grounded in dualistic perception and suddenly merging back into nondual perception. This happens often many times a day where I'll have a mini-freak-out of "oh shit I'm dying" and clenching up whatever muscle I choose to ground myself with. This weird form of neurosis can sometimes impair my performance, like during my last written exam, where I will be completely immersed in my writing but get interrupted by the realization that time, space and myself is about to fly out the window and never come back unless I scream and shout for it to come back. It's not that bad during the winter when the energy levels are comparatively low, but I'm a little bit concerned about how this spring will turn out. Other than that, my life has never been better

You've provided a set of conditions in order to place a value on love. Love is unconditional.

Unless you have some medical condition you shouldn't worry about that. Besides, sitting 1hr in the same posture hurts. Your body isn't stupid.

It's not like Jeff Bezos is running a YouTube account. So you're saying Jeff Bezos should give out free book samples in every city because it will lead to increased Amazon book sales? How do those numbers really pan out though? How many book sales would you expect to be generated by 10k USD worth of samples? This has been established a long time ago, dw man

How is giving away $10k a day supposed to make Jeff Bezos more money? Have you looked into why people don't read more books?

Why are you messaging Jeff Bezos?

My life is this forum obviously . I would ask the same to you.

I don't understand what you're implying with that lol

It never will get better.

That's fine ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Ask yourself what happens when the stage reaches its peak. The evolutionary impetus, the human desire to expand endlessly is a strong force and is the main driver behind SD development. The defining characteristic behind all spiral development is "transcend and include"; a process of integration (Wilber). Red arises when the survival prospects of the Purple tribe is maximized. Historically, this mostly started happening after the agricultural revolution. Energy that was earlier spent on survival now goes towards questioning current tribal values and taboos. This allows individuals to develop a sense of individuality, by questioning their relationship to the collective, and the egocentric self is born. These societies are also more able to more accumulate resources and expand their influence, and this leads to conflict of interests with other tribes. At Red, this is solved through domination of the opposition. Everything is about the power of the individual (the society is ruled by a strong leader). This is how empires are formed. Over time, as different tribes expand and clash with eachother, the level of conflict and carnage reaches unbearable levels, and this opens up for the need to again unite people under a set of common values, like in Stage Purple, but in a way that transcends different tribes; a higher purpose, a set of transcendent principles, ideology, dogma: Enter Stage Blue structures like organized religion and nationalism. These structures contain values that serve to tame the excesses of the impulsive and egocentric Stage Red: values like law and order, morality, discipline. The society again flips over to collectivism, and now different people from different tribes can co-exist with eachother relatively peacefully as long as they share the same transcendent principles (being apart of the same "meta-tribe"). Stage Orange sees the limitations of Blue dogma and recapitulates the historical expansion seen in Red, but instead of merely ramping up conflict through unhinged egocentrism, there arises a new set of higher principles: values based on the individual's own ability to reason (rationality). So you still got transcendent principles, but they're individualistic instead of collectivistic. Concepts like freedom and individual rights are Stage Orange values born out of rationality. This new-found individualistic desire to expand leads to the strenghtening of structures that parallel Stage Red empires on a higher-order level: conventional institutions, companies, corporations, and syndicates, which sole purpose is to perpetuate a set of higher principles (ideology), or generate wealth and financially dominate other competitors (capitalism). Summarized, Stage purple has the tribe as the highest meaning, Stage Red has the self as the highest meaning, Stage Blue finds a higher meaning than the self, and Stage Orange puts rationality and individual freedoms as the highest meaning.

Less talk, more showing.

Trying to pinpoint a person's SD stage by looking at their youtube channel isn't necessarily going to be accurate, especially if the channel is concept-oriented. The main concept of his channel is obviously money and what you can do with it. That has an obvious orange flavor to it, but what he decides to do what that money could fall in many different directions, and there he often tilts green (environmentalism, community-oriented etc..).

Thumbnails are kinda supposed to be flashy like that.

@The_Alchemist You're an absolute gem

@Leo Gura

The world doesn't change overnight. Mindfulness meditation becoming mainstream is one baby step in the right direction. For the world to switch from the materialistic paradigm to nonduality requires much more than just a couple of apps becoming available on your phone. It requires immense development on multiple fronts: collective spiritual development, scientific paradigm shifts, social, political, cultural etc..

This phenomena is not endemic to a specific culture. It's a social phenomenon called "the Bystander effect": https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bystander_effect 9:58 His explanations seem very dodgy to me, makes me doubt his credibility.

You would never ask this question in Norway

You're asking the wrong question: "how" can he study history if it doesn't exist?

I'll just preface this by saying that this video makes me want to pull my hairs out. It's extremely frustrating to see how Connor tries to go about explaining things while displaying zero signs of spiral wizardry (if he even had an ounce of it, he would've never debated it in the first place, so I guess that is the price you pay for getting to see something like this). It's more an example of the limits of stage orange than anything else (to say that Connor accurately represents anything would be a stretch), which is why I ended up posting it here. Regardless, if you ever wanted to see what a "debate" between an "awakened" person and materalist looks like, this is probably the closest you'll ever come to it. EDIT: Don't watch this. It's a waste of time.

I've had similar thoughts but for different reasons. I had recurring night terrors as a young child that consistently unfolded through three phases: 1. the "meat phase", 2. the "needle phase", and 3. the "peaceful phase". Consistent across all the different phases was an underlying and persistent feeling of impending doom, although strongest in the two first phases. There was also a strong sense of things being very very "wrong" (things being upside-down or inside-out). They were more like visions than dreams in the sense that they didn't follow a coherent narrative, and there was generally no sense of having a body that was separate from what was being experienced. The first phase had a dark, gloomy, hellish feeling to it (black colours, dark reds, underground feeling), and it involved an infinite amount of large structures of something resembling chunks of decomposing flesh or internal organs, infinite in size, but also having a metallic or rock-like quality to them. They felt extremely heavy, coarse and threatening. Accompanying the underlying sense of doom and wrongness was a feeling of violence, panic, terror, dread, the sense of being crushed and squeezed. Sooner or later, it would transition into phase two. Phase two is even harder to describe visually, but the main characteristic of this phase was the sensation of being impaled by infinitely thin and infinitely long needles from every possible direction. The colour were more shiny-beige, metallic. There was also a feeling of being constricted, suspended in air, with sharp pains extending infinitely in all directions. Phase three is very interesting. All the painful and terrifying visions from the other phases disappeared and were contrasted with a feeling of silence and a very eerie feeling of peace. Visually, it's like I was in a brightly lit, white space with no defined boundaries except for a little scenery of tiny translucent chairs amidst thin, angelic veils. There were still remnants of the feelings of impending doom and wrongness, but there was also a growing feeling of "this is going to be ok". It's hard to remember, but I would probably have these experiences maybe once a month. I can't remember how old I was the first time I had them, but it could've been everything from 3-5 years old. I think it stopped happening when I was around 10 years old, but I continued having different types of nightmares (and sleep paralysis) where I would get the same sense of impending doom and the feeling of a dark presence coming to get me. The reason why I'm bothering to type all this here is because I've been wondering what could have caused these types of experiences in such a young person. Is it remnants of violent deaths from past incarnations? Or is it just a result of something as benign as rapid brain development? I have no idea. It still fascinates me till this day.

Somebody help this man before he drowns in Blue.