Charlotte

Take notes.

I have an end of year exam on the 15th Jan and I haven't studied once. I'm being a lazy f. 'Charlotte, you made this commitment to your life purpose and it ain't going to fall on your lap without the graft so pull your head out of your arse and actually do something about it.' I can talk about about how much I want it until the cows come home but if I actually don't put the rubber to the road I might as well just continue daydreaming. I will start tomorrow (today). I'll go to the library and actually start. I've gotten too comfortable in the comfort zone and I sure as hell no the comfort zone kills (metaphorically speaking). I know if this was English studies I'd be all over it but it's maths and it just doesn't resonate with me at all so I end up avoiding it. I just cannot seem to grasp it. Regardless, I'll start tomorrow, build momentum with it and try my best.

@Viking Sorry to hear your feeling this way ❤️ Have you done anything at all to challenge yourself over the past few months? Like really challenge yourself. Facing fears? Overcoming fears?

@Tistepiste No worries at all brother ❤️

https://www.youtube.com/user/ActualizedOrg

This

This morning I woke and just wanted to sing... song of choice.

@Zigzag Idiot My absolute pleasure ❤️

Something has shifted over the past two months. It's no longer just belief based. I actually am starting to see that we are this awareness that experiences 'stuff'. I am actually living it everyday. Not all the time but the direct experience is happening more times throughout the day. Thoughts are part of this experience, they're the biggest and the most rooted. Emotions come next, they're also extremely illusory and will trick you big time. Then I'd say sensations come next. See, hear, touch, smell etc Reality/life is a wave. People don't understand they can choose to ride this any way they wish, or not at all, observing the wave. They have this eternal still presence they can access or remain in and they don't even know it! Suffering has been the portal for me personally. The death of the two dogs. Also observing thought throughout the grieving process was a game changer. Eckhart's teachings and what he speaks of are spot on.

@Viking Possibly lost connection to nature and to life. Are you maybe taking life for granted? Listen to Preetom's questions ❤️ And maybe contemplate and visualise your death (on your death bed for example). I know it sounds morbid but I can only speak from personal experience and it worked for me greatly.

@Viking Do you value life?

I was going to right exactly the same.

You made the right decision at the time. That exact time. It couldn't of been any other way? Do you see it? Can you go back and change it? What you are doing friend is bringing thought into your present (the past.) Dragging it all with you... I know it's harder than what it appears but do this for you. Bring up the choices you made into your awareness and feel the emotion that comes with them. Feel them fully and then say "I forgive myself." Say it so you believe it. Say it over if you have to.

@VioletFlame ❤️

Dog/god. Just sayin ? ?

Theme of the year. Accept and flow? Or Resist and suffer? Your shout. ?

Please keep threads on topic you beautiful hoomans you.

This!!! Thank fuck someone said it! I feel it's being taken as an ideology on this forum sometimes

@Rilles Faw shaw ?

Nah, he's definitely trippin balls in his flat ?

Jesus did I wake up sore this morning. My groin is absolutely screeeeaaaaaaaaming at me today. I've had to use a crutch. I've further injured an injury like an absolute pleb. It didn't hurt during practice otherwise I wouldn't of done it ? never mind. Another lesson learnt. Was supposed to be going into the woods tonight with dad for Nye but he let me down at last minute, too dangerous to go by myself. I was so looking forward to it. I bought a little picnic and everything Never mind. I've decided to sit in my bedroom this evening instead and enjoy the stillness in meditation. Also using the time for a time of reflection. I genuinely can't believe the change in quality of life and I'm not even just saying that. I feel like I'm living everyday as if it's my last. I know I keep saying this but everything is just do damn beautiful!

You do seem a bit miffed if I'm honest Joseph. Can you not just chill a bit? (For your sake) ❤️

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Same!! Brilliant isn't it. This thread had got me thinking of laughter and left me giggling ? @Gerhard forgot to mention as well. Dancing around the house HOWEVER you damn feel is also brilliant for laughter. You get that silly it's funny.

@Gerhard Yoga? I giggle for ages all the time. You know the type of laughter you used to do is school when you shouldn't be laughing. That type. Also realising the truth of stuff makes me laugh. In order to laugh at someone cutting you up off for example you'd have to change your perspective.