Charlotte

@Leo Gura I am struggling to self actualize whilst dealing with Chronic lower back pain. I am 27 and have dealt with this pain for many years. It isn't getting any easier as I age. I allow the pain the hold me back and drag my mood down. Have you struggled with Chronic pain in your life? If so, how did you manage to work around it whilst maintaining focus?

@Pure Imagination Thank you for your input. This week, staying on track, after that day has been ultra ultra hard. Even today. Not to mention my family around me have been noticing my way of life has significantly changed (no tv, no radio in car etc) they seem to be coming worried about me, saying I'm taking this too seriously. How do you deal with such negativity? Especially when it's your family?

@Pure Imagination I know the feeling all to well ? Believe it or not, since that day, the ego has been very resistant to enlightenment work altogether, trying to pull 'me' in the opposite direction ? 'I' am aware of it, that's all that matters and I am persistent with the work. Tricky tricky mind ??

@Natasha Thank you so much for that link, it's really helped straighten things out in my mind. @Pure Imagination Will do! Advice noted. Thank you for responding.

Ok the confusion stage had gone, just to add... When I say glimpse, it was more of a perspective, an awareness. I realised I am no different to a tree. My mind is what makes me indipendent of the tree. I physically felt/saw the nothingness. Tell me I'm going down the right path? I don't want to fall into a trap

@Alexo45 Thank you for your input. Can you actually tell me what it is though? Is it my brain or spiritual growth? @Nahm glad to hear I'm not the only one. I will definitely give that a listen to! Thank you @Socrates YES!!!! The eye horizontal thing! I experienced that this morning. I was like "shall I move my head or..." ?

When I'm meditating the room starts to 'spin' (behind my eyelids) actually feels as if I am spinning... What the hell? It's putting me off

@Captain Flint thank you for your input. I too have experienced the eye flickering, kind of feels like how someone would look during r.e.m. I have just experienced something quite strange during meditation, I am a beginner I must point that out. It felt as if my hands where three times the size they were. I also felt a feeling of someone wrapping themselves around me, warm and comforting. There was also a huge light in front of me that seemed to drag me into it, I followed and I went to a place that was unimaginable, felt like a higher consciousness state. After I came back around I cried, for what reason I do not know. Are there trucks or the mind or something spiritual? Thank you again for your help.