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youtube yoga instructor: It's okay, you can scream and cry, just keep going! me: I can WHAT

@General 2 К.Довлатов. Техника "МИД"

I use a variation developed by a russian psychologist, and it's really cool for fears and limiting beliefs. I get LOTS of physical reactions when releasing emotional charges though, like yawning and runny nose. Also, it's tiring, so I have to go at a small pace. Guess I gotta be patient to get tangible results.

Current weightloss attempt finally reached the starting point of the previous one. Oh, we truly don't appreciate what we have until we lose it. (shoot me)

@Privet grow up and let me go already, will ya?

Week 8 of jogging. I feel profoundly gaslit by everyone who ever said exercising ups your energy levels.

Shieeeet, physicality is exhausting. I've built up my jogging routine up to 3km for now (took me 7 weeks and a partner in crime), and with the mean deficit of 300kcal, I don't have it in me to care about anything else. Like, fuck hydration, nutrient balance and appearance, just let me sleep. And this shit doesn't even qualify for minimal healthy lifestyle level of physical activity! These baby steps hurt my fucking ego okay

I would just break down lol

Turns out mirror neurons make things like depression and obesity contagious. Y'all better stay away from me lmao

Heard in a lecture that depression is a karmic consequence of lack of discipline in sticking to your plans and daily practice. LOL, I feel so called out.

So fed up with all this academia shit. Don't tell your kids that scientists are those just, selfless, lofty people who make the world go round. That's fucking bullshit. We're fucking parasites.

Me: oh no, I can't get people to notice my value and appreciate my works Universe: hey wanna this cool marketing analytics job? Me: haha, good one. Also yes, thank you

I feel an oddly strong motivation to work hard just to make all those people who were 'disappointed' in my depressed ass low-performance look like pathetic lazy fucks. Yeah, I know. Not very mature.

Guys. Please try therapy and healthy lifestyle (ya know, exercise...) BEFORE woo-woo shit

Am I becoming more honest? 2019: https://sdtest.ru/result/fb60852b41a4c8854609bb9b91e3cf50 2020: https://www.sdtest.ru/result/0fccf049177f76caf9c1415ae99402a6

@Hello from Russia Dunno, I suspect you have some high-ass standards of what to call productive activities

Guess who just tracked 45 hrs of productive activities this week! Probably for the first time in my life, since depression has been my default mode from like age 12 yay

That feeling when a book about depression says that judging about the reality by your emotions (e.g. "I feel guilty therefore I really did something wrong") is a cognitive bias that fucks you up . . And you're an INFP

Perception for an illustrator is like unprotected sex for a woman.

Science, man

Hey, childfree artists make sense from evolutionary perspective now

Gravity != Compatibility . . . oh shit

Fuck proactivity I'm a reactive person, and you know what? I'm okay with that. I'm here to evolve by skilfully reacting to my environment. To absorb the stimuli and then morph them into whatever the inspiration tells me to. So, I'm done feeling guilty for not being active, entertaining or enthusiastic enough. If someone has a problem with my style, they can go proactively fuck themselves :3

Damn, those songs are beautiful. I mean. Woah.

Suffering != Growing up Have I mentioned it already?