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I'm a native German speaker but I lived on south Africa for couple years and my English is nearly the same quality as my German. Does it matter if contemplate in mixed language? Do I have to choose one?.

@Leo GuraFirst of all, i have not posted something in a long while because I needed to clear my head. Nothing worked anymore. I was just thinking and spinning instead of focusing on being. So when sat down this afternoon I didn't have any intent of finding or really doing anything. There was just plain curiosity inside of me. And...I cant really describe it here. Of course not. There was nothing! But as soon as I "touched" on it if you will, emptiness was "gone". It is strange I can't explain it. It must sound like I'm talking around some BS. When it was gone there was really nothing gone...

(i was just contemplating while walking in nature)

@Leo GuraIn the blog you posted a video where you once talked about the intelligent design of a blade of grass and its sort of infinite nature. How come I've had the exact same "insight" or maybe in my case "thought" or realization without having tripped once?

@Leo Gurasomehow i stopped to meditate, contemplate and eat healthy after it all started good, it has been about 3 month since i stopped all of this. But i KNOW that self actualization is the only real option that is worth persuing for me. And i also know that it is not a gamble. If you take it very fucking serious you will succeed. But i just tumbled of and away and i.. Just don't know. I need to start again. Please please help me, give me a tip or something. ?

@Leo Gurawould be really interesting to hear from you guys why do you identify with what you identify with For example ( even though i had experiences without any substances influenced Show me that i might not be the body) i identify with the body because of the experience of life and the way the eyes move through the world when you walk for example Please give me your thoughts on this

The part where the subtitles reads "so many beautiful birds" hitler ACTUALLY says "they will drown in their own blood" ????

@Source_Mystic thank you very much, i will definitely use your advice

@Nahm im such a newb ??

@Nahm i guess you're right. Kinda, work on the things you want, but don't think so much about them all the time

@Leo Gura i will definitely have to do something to get started again. Deep down, this work is like really the only thing i want to do and make a living from it in some Form. There is nothing else that grabs my attention this much as all of this work. But somehow I get still distracted

@Leo GuraSounds weird but i can't bring myself to start meditation or self inquiry. Ive been keeping a lot of notes on Evernote lately and doing that good but i just cant start although i want to. I always think "oh weeell you know when school starts you wont find the time, bla bla bla". I had a habit of a mix i guess you could say between inquiry and meditation. But i think after i had this experience where "my self" was caught for the first time and it was weird and scary as shit, i stopped to do meditation on a dayli bases How do i develop that again where ive fallen of for a long time?

@Yonkon my coworker went to a doctor with this and told us its really important. You can tone it done meditation but you NEED TO see a doctor ?

@Leo Gura i think to much ?

@Leo Gura Isnt Enlightenment "raw reality"? How can "you" then become sort of more infinite than all of reality itself?