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Not being beautiful, I can only speculate - but I imagine you'd get lots of unwanted attention for a start, plus people are liable to have all sorts of preconceptions about you (like you're just a pretty face, for example) and will struggle to see past your physical beauty. I know it might seem like a great blessing to be beautiful, but it seems to me that it's very much a double-edged sword.

@Natasha And what's worse, now you're the designated pissing driver

Yeah, that's how I've started to feel about it, too - it was initially hugely frustrating, but then I started to think it was actually a blessing in disguise. Coming on here can become an addiction like anything else.

Speaking for the majority of the forum there, I suspect ?

@Giulio Bevilacqua Good plan

As perverse as it might sound, the fact the pain got worse could actually be a sign that it's working - it often gets worse before it gets better.

I'm noticing more activity in the upper part of my chest at the moment, which is a new development as far as I can remember - it's the familiar dynamic of energy meeting resistance, which then stirs up feelings of upset, frustration, and anger. I've been feeling very irritable around people the past couple of days, I find myself wanting to snap at the smallest thing though thankfully I have just enough self-control and good sense to know that a) it isn't warranted, and b) it won't help matters (quite the opposite, it'll just create complications). I'd say I should invest in a punching bag to release some of the frustration, but that feels like too much effort at the moment quite frankly, I doubt I'd make a dent in it Boy, trust really is such a big word I've found. It feels sometimes like armies are massing on the northern and southern borders of my heart, and it's been pretty well established by now that fighting a war on two fronts is a fool's errand, so it feels like I'm - hmm, what's the technical term? Oh yes, that's right - fucked. I know there's no use grousing about it. Doesn't stop me, mind, but, y'know, I'm only human.

I think maybe the issue is that you're conceptualising reality as being something separate from you. When of course, the reality is that you are reality. If you truly knew your own nature, you would understand. But to truly know it is to consciously be it.

@Gianna Excellent advice

I think the key is to recognise how you're working against yourself. Self-honesty and self-awareness are so, so important where consciousness work is involved.

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Love that 2001 is also a great shout, very deep film.

True. Though the joke of it is that God is simply resisting Itself.

Been referenced on the forum quite a bit recently, but 'American Beauty' falls into this category I'd say. It's about the awakening of desire, and then a recognition of the mysterious force that pervades all of life. Great shout, love that film - it's essentially a heist film, but it's the tragic backstory that really gets me. Oh and Hans Zimmer's score, my word ?

I'm experiencing thudding head pressure at the moment, my third eye and crown chakras appear to be active AF at the moment. Again it's interesting to notice the corresponding activity in my heart chakra - I'd had a realisation when I was having a desperately hard time a few years back that my head and heart were out of alignment, that my mind was basically estranged from my heart, and I seem to have undergone a process since then of bringing thought and feeling back into alignment. Interesting to observe how that dynamic plays out energetically and emotionally. (As I'm typing, a song called 'Stubborn Love' came on my Youtube playlist, which feels very appropriate )

What a great line

I need to see this film, sounds amazing