Highest

I remember when I took magic truffles in Amsterdam, 57g. How I in the peak of it saw all as One. One fuckings thing. But it wasn't enough. It wasn't enough. Well, this time I'm taking 120 g. That should be enough to kill me ?

Yeah, well this time it's for real. ? I just wanted to start this thread here so more beings could see it. Hopefully, realize that a normal mundane life is not what to go for. Let the psycadelics show the way. Surrender, die to it. Live by it. It's a gift.... It's a gift to be recieved fully.

I realized just now, I want to live the rest of my life with mushrooms. They are easy to get my hands on... Starting from blank, knowing nothing. Projecting nothing. Let it do it's magic. In life and death, in darkness and good, in Love, in God, in Truth. Let it do it's magic... That's all I want... Magic. With that, I say goodbye. Goodbye forum... Magic is waiting for me..... Magic.

I remember sniffing mdma in new year once. Not much was left, so I sniffed just a little. But the feeling of love and connection was real. This gay guy laid on my shoulder and slept. He was attracted to my good vibe somehow. I could see his boyfriend looking at me in a devilish way lol. But I feelt only love. Only love. Now, I realize. If those bastards didn't sniff it all and left me with like a whole line to sniff, shit would have got...Beautiful. Beyond comphrension. ?

Time to take a long break from this forum after today.... So much to become aware of. So much to become conscious of. God is waiting. Reality is waiting. Reality is waiting. God is waiting.

This is Creation! Leaving nothing, absolutely nothing! In the interaction between beings. In the beauty of the butterfly and flower. In the impossible miracle of being a human being. This is Creation! Leaving nothing, absolutely nothing! And thus.... I testify. There is no God but God! I say, I testify. There is no God but God! The most Pure, the most High, the most Good. Greater than all. Beyond all, being the Creator of all. Above all. There is no God but God.

Okay, you can delete it than.

I look and all I can see is instant Creation. Created out of pure Omnipotence, pure Love and Goodness. Indeed, Created by the One and Only God. In the sunrise, in the reflection of the sun's divine light. In the trees below it and in the creators below them again... Here I am...The primordial, the Supreme untouched Creation of God. In my seeing, seeing a beautiful butterfly and it's Supreme design. In my intellect, seeing the Supreme design of my eyes and intellect. In my body and mind, moving the body with ease, imagining to infinity with ease. Here I am... The primordial. I am untouched. I am my own evidence of the Supreme... In other human beings, in our love, in our talking, in our kissing. In the space between us where Miracles exists... Here we are... The primordial, the untouched Creation. All I see is impossibilities. In the interaction and love between two individuals. In the beauty and design of a flower. Smeel the flower. The impossibility of smeeling, feeling it's pleasure in this impossible Supreme body... All I see is impossibilities... And here I am...Here we are... The impossible made possible.

I can look at my mother and become directly conscious of God Himself. Creation=God. I look, how she moves. I look, how she smiles and attacks me with her love. I look, how we as two, can have this conservation and everything that happens within it. I look, how we can possibly love. How love itself is possible. I look, I become conscious just by looking at her... How is she possible? How is this impossibility flawlessly right in front of my eyes this very moment? And I become directly conscious of the answer... God. I then look at myself and everything about me to it's very overlooked detail. I look at all of Creation and everything about it to it's very overlooked detail. Impossible. Yet, here it is right in front of my eyes. I become conscious... OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD... YOU EXIST.

I can look at my mother and become directly conscious of God Himself. Creation=God. I look, how she moves. I look, how she smiles and attacks me with her love. I look, how we as two, can have this conservation and everything that happens within it. I look, how we can possibly love. How love itself is possible. I look, I become conscious just by looking at her... How is she possible? How is this impossibility flawlessly right in front of my eyes this very moment? And I become directly conscious of the answer... God.

I become conscious in an instant. I am the highest of highest Creation. The most Supreme Creation. The most Beautiful Creation. The most Magical Creation. I become conscious in an instant... This is God's unimaginable Love and Goodness. This is God's unimaginable selflessness.... I am the Impossible... Right in front of your eyes.

The Spiritualists, say "God is everything. I am God." The religious is humble, they say "God created me and all of this." The Atheists are deluded, blind in darkness, unaware and unconscious. Saying, "God does not exist." I say, I have becomed conscious of God itself. The very core, the very Being and Godhood of God. I say, God exists. And I exist. I am the pure Creation of God Himself. This I cannot deny. I am the primordial Creation, the highest of the highest Creation. I am the primordial. And I am not here to deny, but only to testify to myself... There is no God but God.

They ask me, "What is God? Where is God?" I answer, "Do you ask what love is? Do you ask where love is?" I say and testify, God is Absolute. His existence is Absolute. God forbid that I asocciate anything in His creation with Him Himself. God forbid.

Looking at a beautiful sunrise like I'm doing right now... Take it all in, feel it all. How it's possible, how all this is possible... How I am possible. The impossible made possible... Miracles, Divinity... Divinity everywhere. God is God. Divine He is. Divine is all of His creation... Divine.

Merry Christmas ❤️ Now it’s Christmas again, now it's Christmas again. I can't remember the song... Time for all the devils to reunite and think about how Jesus died for our devilry ?

Mind stuff, mind stuff everywhere. God, who is beyond understanding, beyond the human mind and intellect, beyond grasp, beyond myself. But in my spiritual heart, in my very soul, spirit and life, in consciousness and awareness itself - there He is. Some look at suffering and see a mistake. I look and look yet again. All I see is perfection. Perfection in suffering, perfection in the dark and ugly, perfection in the inperfection. But I quess it's all a matter of perspective. Perspectives, perspectives everywhere. Creation, beauty everywhere. And God, who is beyond all perspectives, beyond all. Simultaneously, penetrating the heart of all living.

I'm awake now. My dream was, like most times, magical. Now I'm awake, awake. First things first. I had to call my love, call my love. Just to listen to her voice. Just to listen to her voice. Then I had to go out and take some breath, feel the wind blow in my face. Feel the wind blow in my face, feel my breath. Now, I'm making it into some poetry. Wondering, what to do today? Wondering, how will this day be? I will take it as it comes... I will take it as it comes.

Laying in the bed naked. Our favorite thing. Just me and her, for hours and hours. Kissing, touching each others bodies. Listening to music. Telling each other how much we love each other. For hours and hours. Joke with each other. When we lick each other in the face for joke. When we bite each other for joke. When we joke, Oh when we joke. For hours and hours. In those hours I forget everything. Love takes over. Love.

Understand this, become conscious of this. I am me and you are you - and God is God. At the very heart of it, it's not difficult to see that God is above you, greater than you. It just requires radical self-honesty. You didn't create anything. God did all this. You don't precision engineer and design any being in the womb, you don't make it rain or snow, you don't do anything. God does and still does all of this. You are not Omnipotent, you don’t have God's Intelligence or any of His aspects. You are a tiny piece of God. But you are not equal or comparable to God, just like a dog shit cannot be God Itself. It can be a manifestation of God, but realize how silly it is to say that a dog shit is God itself. Feel the absurdity of saying such a thing. Feel the immense contradiction. Just like this dog shit, the same goes for YOU. You didn't decide this. You didn't do this. Don't make a joke upon yourself, you didn't create yourself. You couldn't, you didn't. Become aware. Become conscious. Breathe. You are You. God is God. Liberation. Doesn't it feel good? ??

They say, "God is everything." I look at a dog shit, I'm conscious... No, that God is not. They say, "All is One." I see two beings in love. I don't see one. They say, "Love is not Absolute." I feel love. I'm aware and conscious...It's Absolute. Eternal. They say, "I am God." I'm conscious and aware... I am second to God. They say, "The world is an illusion." I'm conscious, all this is real. My body. My mind. My love. My feelings. I want to look at a sunrise. Take it all in. I want to love my girlfriend. Like it's my first and my last day. Look into her eyes, touch her beautiful cheek, kiss her sweet lips... Tell her from the bottom of my soul... I love you. Feel it, take in all the love. And realize... It's Everything.

I see not one, I see two. But when with my love, I see only her. I? Gone. I can't stop thinking about all that which she has gone through for me. All that which I have gone through for her. Through the darkness, the down, the pain, the suffering. And here we still are, stronger than never before. In love, like never before. What a woman, what strenght. Stronger than any man. Her heart and love, untouched. Her spirit, annihilated me, left only her presence. What a woman... What a woman.

I realized, in this emptiness, I know nothing. But then a voice told me, "But you do know, you do know, you do know." I feelt my heart beat. I feelt the music entering my ears. I feelt the feelings moving in my body. I know, I know...

God, in me He is actual nothing. Seen He is not, nor can man touch Him. Without name, without form. Beyond all. Above all. Greater than all. But here He is. In my very soul and heart. In my very consciousness and awareness. I'm fully conscious and aware of His existence. Like an echo, like a pure recognition. Before knowledge, before everything. And after everything. There He is. God... Just God.

My pleasure ❤️? Indeed, it's a awakening into itself. A direct conscious aware knowing... Of God. I will never deny that I have becomed directly conscious of God. That's what all the spiritual work leaded me to. But not to claim Godhood. No, only to know.... There is no God but God.

And if the human existence wasn't enough of a miracle. I take myself back to the old days. The glorious supernatural spiritual realm. The things which I experienced. Impossible. Illogical. Yet it all happened. Having my head spinned around. Seeing energy everywhere and in everything. How I became the energy itself. How I could take in energy from everything. How I could give out energy to everything. The birds, oh the birds. How they would communicate directly with me. The sun and moon. How they would mysticaly communicate with me. The earth, how I could experience it moving around in this glorious universe. The out of body experiences. How my soul and spirit disconnected and left my body. How I could, as the soul made out of pure light, look at my body, myself asleep. While I, awareness, was fully awake. Just looking at my body sleep. The Astral projection. I remember, dreaming extremely vividly. I saw this baby cat. Just looking at it. Then her mother came and she went with her, leaving with them pure love which penetrated my very soul. When I meet God Himself. How He came to me with all His Might and Godhood. So Supreme, I couldn’t look. So Supreme, I had to have my face turned away. How He breated His Divine Love into me. And how I just cried instantly, how I cried instantly... And much much more... And I say, if the human existence wasn't enough of a miracle. The materialist, atheist scientific minded paradigm... Annihilated. Burned away from me by the Divine light of reality. Magic... Beauty... Extraordinary.... And I say, if the human existence wasn't enough of a miracle.