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@Baldmunt Texting in a long distance relationship can be awkward. I don’t like it either. I’d casually tell her I prefer skype conversations and slip in the basics of what you wrote - I’d be easy going about it. I wouldn’t escalate it into some mellow dramatic “issue”.

I’m @DrMobius IKR. 5-meo is my #2 gentlest psychedelic and #1 teacher. I get some body load discomfort - somewhat similar to motion sickness. But not too extreme. Like a 5/10.

Great idea. Spiritual or PD traps?

Similiar for me. So intense. Have you done sub-breakthrough trips? I’ve found those beneficial as well.

The OP is is approaching a spiritual space, not chasing an experience. There is a dreading of the ego death experience. One can learn about the psychedelic experience from others, but that is NOT a substitute for direct experience. Ya gotta go there yourself. That fear, joy and excitement idea is delusion of avoidance.. We are not talking about riding a roller coaster - we are talking about dying. Of course fear may be part of the process.

Once you breakthrough it’s smooth sailing. I don’t go to breakthrough depth very often because it can be so intense to get there. And the lessons are difficult to integrate. IME, the ego and resistance lessens and surrendering becomes less dramatic

IME, the sub-ego death zone is the roughest part of the ride. Above and below is smooth sailing ⛵️

Be careful. Ego death can be serious business.

Very nice ? ? ♥️

The “I” wants to control the narrative. It wants to retain control and keep the game going. It will use lots of tricks to frighten, allure, distract. What you are going through is a step every self-actualized person goes through - including Buddha as he sat under that tree. There comes a point when one needs to place Truth higher than security and comfort to go deeper. This is when most people turn around. Pschedelics are the most potent self-killers out there. Truth is an acquired taste.

Because you don’t want to die.

@Arthur This is what “The Work” looks like. And nice work it is.? The community I lived with in Peru also called it “the work”. Perhaps it’s universal. ☺️

To me, it seems like you are at a stage with lots of de-identification with the personality. Perhaps part of the integration of your recent enlightening experience.

This is an overly simplistic belief. Sexuality, gender and sense of completeness is so much more expansive than this

Another limited belief. Challenge that believe and get rid of it! ? Feminine : feminine sex is one of the most popular porn genres. I’ve had fem : fem sex and it’s super hot!! Masculine : masculine sexuality also exists all over. I’ve also had masculine : masculine sex and it’s also super hottt!!! Feminine : Masculine sexuality also exists and it can also be super hottt!!! If you like Fem : Masc sexuality, great. Yet, don’t fool yourself into thinking that’s all that’s possible.

The belief that you have to have masculine to attract femin is only partially true. Feminine also attracts feminine. Look around, it’s everywhere. It’s one of the most popular porn genres for goodness sake. I’ve felt it too. If I read someone write that you have to have masculine to attract feminine, I would LOL. It’s so obviously not true.

Be aware of limiting beliefs. You are assuming that is true. There is lots of feminine : feminine attraction in the world. I’m super attracted to it. It’s sooo beautiful

Both are beautiful. It’s wonderful to explore both and find one’s balance. Would you be ok if a woman wanted to explore her femininity?

Be honest with yourself: do you fear that embracing your femine side means you will be less of a man? Do you fear that you will be more of a beta-male? Do you fear that if you became more feminine that you may start to like guys?

Seems like you are associating it with sex: ”why tap into feminine side as a *man* who wants to be masculine...” If you don’t think feminine/masculine has anything to do with sex, there is no need for “man” in that sentence. I think you are subconsciously associating feminine/masculine to woman/man.

When both people are in touch with their feminine/masculine, it’s off-the-chart beautiful. Pure magic.

I’ve used phenibut. It’s great for social anxiety, yet it can be addictive. I’ve seen message boards filled with people trying to get off it.

A similar process for me. Once I got a taste of enlightenment, there was an energetic shift away from seeking intellectual theories toward revisiting the direct experience of enlightenment. I would be careful setting up a scenario in which an aspect of the mind must be overcome. That can re-establish the ego and keep it relevant. Ego says: “You need to keep me around to help you overcome this facet of mind thing”

Some people like both action movies and love story movies. Personally, I think it’s silly to limit yourself to one. Both have beauty.

The OP is asking about connecting to one’s feminine side, not becoming more female. I’d first drop the association that feminine = female and masculine = male Then I’d start practice being more gentle with everything. Yourself, your friends, your pets, your clothes, your car etc. Then I’d work on seeing the beauty in all things: flowers, smiles, butterflies, music, paintings etc. Then I’d work with on expressing gratitude, appreciation, love, kindness Then I’d work on expressing insecurity and vulnerability with another. Generally, women are more open to this, but beware, I’ve tried some of the above with women that turned out to be manipulative and brutal.