Strikr

The more angry & toxic it is, the best challenge it is for me to make it a friend.

Look for the wisdom in yourself through the people you hate, what does it tell about yourself ?

it's not scary, funny at the end. just draw when things start weird, it will not be like this the all trip, maybe 1% of the trip.

I wasn't aware you was talking meditation maybe you should try a full day, to see a relative gap of result, try different techniques, see the one who "work" https://sites.google.com/site/psychospiritualtools/Home/meditation-practices it happen in different shape, can't tell, mostly some people experience kundalini, as I did.

the growth comes for the one one who look for it, don't expect quick result for anything you just started. expect sometimes many years of practice or week before getting "something" out of any kind of practice.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random send here where it go for you do not tcheat my roll dice : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/James_Stewart,_1st_Duke_of_Richmond ( I'll read now )

maybe you need to focus & put the effort right now if you have to ask the question. I would return the answer to myself

someone got Hitler page at his first roll and don't assume the dice

yep I watched the whole video and I really plan to do that if life push me to do so. Will smith had always been a very inspiring human being this quote is very true, but it's hard to be aware of fear before jumping, I have been there in a way. he shit on himself a lot before, great way to awaken people. mainly the fear was all in the head

I'll fucking do it once if I can ! on my to do list

You do not find them, they find you.

yes leo is cult master, we pray for him every night as dicted in the manual of actualized.org fanatic I tend to drink blood in his honor every morning, as he told me to do so. but I feel sorry for him, he is only the shadow of big cult call'd .. a society, but we are working hard everyday, it ain't easy.

nice roll !

learn to be more fearless

my point in fact, I didn't say do it freestyle

@Joseph Maynor your way is the best This is probably why the quantumality of the whole, doesn't make us good friends probably * again this annoying kid pushing shit on me *

have a good trip, be strong no matter what

humm yes you probably right on the time though, 30 min could lead to problem let's try for 5 min, only to check if the will is strong

@Soulbass want to play in DnB, Meditate on this maybe the best way is not listening, but dancing with the earth.

yes but from my view, they didn't disapear. they just never "poped" I'll try hypnosis tap for dream

I mean, most people talk of their dream like if it was a movie/real experience of life. Are you bullshitting with me ? For me, it's maybe a bunch of feeling that looks like 4 seconds of cutscene on a half whisky bottle at their best. ( and my blood is pure, my diet is more than good and balanced, I do sport, etc.. no drug, no coffee, no thea ) for instance : I can tell you I was in a forest and I was feeling a ninja on me. But I couldn't even tell if tree were in the forest or the color of the ninja, I can only know the "feeling" of being in a forest with a ninja. this is why it's easy to differentiate the dream state delusion from reality when I wake up. ( not in the dream, I believe the feeling to be "real on me" while in the dream. ) I hear people on internet tell they started to loose feeling with real life when they did a lot of "lucid dream", can't happen to me ! After waking up, I just see how foggy it was and only a bunch of entangled feeling. Never had "scary attack" neither, the kind of delusion people talk about with monster, only once in fact, but I did breath hard in the dream, and wake up. ( and it was just like a picture who wasn't moving, like a fixed texture and a feeling of "fear", maybe 3 year ago ) all my dreams are like this, since I m a child ( I m 25 ) , when people tell me it's like a movie, I believe they are just joking or upgrading their feeling about it, nothing "serious". do you really have imagery in your dreams ? why I m only having "pure feeling states" for me when I get a dream, it looks like this time or you wish you hadn't drink all the vodka alone ( flash on flash of feeling ) ( I don't drink alcohol since years and wasn't a fan of alcohol ) any advices on having better imagery ? is it my "DNA/brain" ? something else ? can some people never experience "lucid dreaming" ?

and me.. I wish I had just a clear image that I could "draw" after I wake up ! ( I m not that bad at drawing ) I read the more you talk about it, the more they'll come, so in a way I m already practicing.. no mental problem, no conflict with people, pretty stoïc lifestyle besides being a lot focusing on music. ( I don't hear sound in dream at all. nothing I can remember of neither )

yes, that's possible, but this is why I asked what is this thing ?

maybe, in a way though I should focus, I'll try anyway. My super dream was more when I was waking up in the middle of the night, then sleep again thinking of going for a lucid then -> sleep again ( I read it was the best technique ) but those kind of "lucid dream" of mine, are just me aware of being in the drunked dream, it's still flash on flash, I just become aware of the flash sort of. I call those one lucid, because they are a bit less foggy than usual, but still they are drunked, just a bit more feeling ! you believe in 25 years, I couldn't have a decent dream, when people talk to me about having "real movie" ? I can't even have a clear fixed painting ?

I did have dreams and I can remember I had a bunch of feeling, feeling 1 feeling 2 feeling 3, then wake up and sometimes there is kind of "imagery" but that's ULTRA FOGGY. at my best I can tell it was a dark place with grey walls. I could told you I was in a car, but if you ask me the color of something in the car or the shape/form of something, can't tell at all. Sometimes I see my dreams from a sky perspective, or completely out of my point of view, ( still in a flash way kind of ) Really if someone was ultra drunk to the point of having flash, this is the structure of all my best dream. ( but not full black out of course, only flash/ then another flash, another room / then another flash another room/space, another feeling ), I did the things to be super aware of reality, and I practice meditation daily since 2 months ( and I m a "basic amateur good drawer" ). Even after mushroom or LSD in August, no "vivid ultra dream" at night. I watched about lucid dream, worked on "being aware in reality" ( psychedelic like mushroom ( never had " big visual hallucination" while tripping ( once it worked, but I never had those mushroom again, only created "bubble" and little disturbance in the color of things. ) but that will be hard to tell if it was "dreamy" because I can't relate to my dream for being something else than a drunked experience