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become chirurgian and try to save brain tumor with herbal tea ( just a joke ) wishful remedies now author imagine adhd is real and not real. ( cause it like this ) you just lack of goal in society ( and so don't build your life upon this : create habit etc.. ) and there is billion of reason you can't do what you want. - sleep - food - belief system - anxiety related ( subconscious need who are not fulfil ) pack your shit, and every bad thought that happen to your conscious, deal with it as far as you can. - meditation / breaking reaction pattern ( I m not really of this kind as I listen 5 hours a day eyes closed on music, but it work ) I patched adhd with weed for a time, but that's not a sustain solution ( as a musician I could ) makes me a good slave though I don't have this apathic effect everyone seem to have. ( if you want to slave around weed help real "adhd", calm the mind. give you another perspective and "well being" ) there is nothing to cure if you don't want to "succeed in the capitalism paradigm" ( this is what people in spiritual world think will cure your "adhd" yes they are right, if you forget about everything society has to offer adhd become "nothing" in the real sense, you're effectively absolutely not "sick" adhd is people who don't work well at their place in the system. so you're adhd, because you lack of something, a bit of stimulation maybe ? handle coke to kid ( it's the true definition of what society see in people that they call adhd ) they don't care makes you well being, they care make the system well being. the cure is a belief system out of capitalism or "above", but don't hope to be a productive worker, you will not. You can be a good thinker, and if you want "sell it" you can probably make it without putting "physical effort" or at list, the less you can. no matter the path you choose, they will always be a price and a gain. maybe you can cure something that never existed to fit, but no one on earth can tell you how, this is the trick. and yes you're ADHD, and not adhd, if you ask me, how can I be a productive slave, the answer is probably, never without tcheating. But guess what, this is better than working 14h a day, it's all a matter of building your own recipe for life. if you want my advice, live from your perspective, integrate what you think matter, patch, correct, work, patch, correct, work and learn to own your life ( takes years, depend where you come from and how you'll integrate idea/concept/paradigm shift ) but we all change, maybe time will help you, don't judge yourself with the blindness of others it's a hero journey to be, don't even count on my words to help, that's just harmonic content, you're the only one leading the bass.

I did have non duality experience/ego death. weird I had the same type of experience, but then I decide to rule the world and didn't feel love more than 5 days after, just before I realize alone that everything was probably "a case" a modulation, in the billion of possibility and non sense of all of this "illusion" how the universe could be this or that. Why did I put me in this game, yes maybe death is an illusion from the human existence, what was there before "me" ? did I ever existed before ? did I'll exist after ? I don't know, probably and don't care too much. I m not sure you can transcend your body out of this reality if you don't fullfil what you're here for. and we are all here for a reason, some do LSD and know that they have family to bring here, some take LSD and know that they have to lead humanity. Maybe I m full of delusion, but who can claim here that he is more true than me ? if I m god, and this is my game, everything is allowed no action is wrong, no one is punishing me but myself I can become what I want limited to my imagination ( imagination is only the addition of all the things I transcend in "here" ) my human belief and my old identity are maybe wrong, but if I m god, I don't care being human. On the contrary now I find that people are really PNJ and that their goal is even more pointless than mine. I can get all I want to the maximum of this imagination game. Why I shouldn't ? If I m the ruler in the dream, there is no "wrong belief" I can put kids at work, what's the problem ? moral is coming from my imagination. If Hitler and Gandhi are in my body, what's wrong. Non duality tell us that Hitler is Gandhi. And Mandela is george bush. could there be an evil enlightment ? I don't relate to my old identity but now I want to create a godly one, above the dream. a new identity completely designed by myself born in this reality, there is this energy inside me who never left, you call it ego ? I call it the energy transcended by god. it's a call for power and this call tell me that I if nothing is real, so nothing is wrong

So I watched a guy ( and he talks about you leo ) why ? Because like LSD, I m not sure to have a spiritual experience, you see I m really a big nihilist/skeptical ( I mean, my core identity ) And finding 5 MeO DMT in France, is not a thing allowed, even basic dmt ( I never did ), maybe I'll watch for a guy a friend know about, who use the unbright internet.. but not sure he will help me. or contemplation of death/yoga/meditation could be a best technique ? ( as I know what I aim for )

ok this is exactly what I don't want, I m a player, I love to play this is how god made me. my LP is probably as you can see, far from being a monk... I still have life to live, at 25 I have lived absolutely nothing but illusion and thinking matter. I lived 40 000 hours and more in front of a computer I m probably twice disconnected from reality as "normal being", and I used it like the soma Aldous Huxley was thinking about ( beside it isn't a substance ) I used thinking to tame my feeling. We all are only feelings. but I respect people who pursue their path and believe in it, really great people I m just a part of this giant game puzzle, I m aware of my role, why I m here ? I still don't have my answer, but be sure I'll left every attachement to "me" when I have the answer to" why me" ? lost in my own maze and here is probably not my road. I'll be enlightened maybe when I'll fully embody my suffering. Please watch all this movie, I know what is it all about. But I shouldn't have known. Bom yeoreum gaeul gyeoul geurigo bom ( Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter... and Spring ) very spiritual movie I watched years ago. it's all about the journey and the circle. But I m still probably killing my own frog, so you see there is many things I shoud live before my return. I think I get a part of it, it's a delusion, I was thinking to find higher answer, but all there is, is the higher answer I can find in myself, delusion or not. Who told you that the journey will be easy, I m a part of your own shadow

Why hates is so related to love though ? can you hate if you never loved ? should you love ? should you be neutral ? can you feel love if you never feel hate ? why love is better than hate ? isn't all human wanting to be at peace with himself ? isn't love a human concept for talking about a feeling that never existed at all in nature ? if feeling are real to me, is the "no feeling" of insensitive psychopath, no real ? why would some people be choose by god to be aware of "higher reality" isn't this completely egocentric ?

I never attend to destroy you, I love all of you, in fact I m jealous. but my goal is rule the world to give the hippie like you a right to live bring peace to the entire external world I never told that I was angry to be god and fulfill capitalist need. you don't know what darkness is, so you deny is existence. But I face it. I have the courage to face it. The darkness bring to this world should be purge, I don't believe you'll be able to live in peace if poison is all around. You can deny all you want when you're in a safe place, a safe country, in a safe living room, writting on your safe internet. And you mind can blind you to your own evilness.. but you're, the fact that you live makes you evil. but what when the devil knock at your door, can you contemplate and accepting to see your body ripped apart ? I wish wishful thinking was all there is to bring balance and peace. Should we ignore darkness ? this is what you think ?

I m probably very poisoned at this point, but I would give it a try. so yoga, what it can do to me at this point, kill the only thing powerful in me ? I should accept to loose all individuality ? identity ? but why act in reality if you are just an unconscious piece of a puzzle and that you become aware completely of being "nothing", if I don't deny your philosophy, this instant right now, you're the universe answering me. why I should believe you, will you take away my suffering ? why would I loose my suffering, I can love it. I don't suffer in fact, why would I ? will you take away my energy ? will you take the external thing I love ? why Should I die now if this is the only life "me/god" gives me. why not play fairly the game ? why tcheat ? why ask question, why getting out of a maze that isn't real ? give me a story of why it will increase my life. Bring ego death, ok then, what are the result ? if you tell me, NONE. So why I should pursue enlightement ? if you can't put into words, then there is nothing ,everything can be put into word/concept. If you can't you just never read book in your whole life... ( I m french so this is why it's probably weird how I sentence my idea, but I m not "that stupid" ) Are all americans programmed to be simpleton ? ( and others country they are all under what you call blue, so don't even bother "reading" ) ( just an identity joke ) Do I m the consciousness programmed in a computer starting to be aware of himself ? is it a story that I have right now invented from identity knowledge ?

it's already tame, I just unrelease his power, it's the best gift god gives me, why would I tame his own light. without mind you wouldn't write right now and answer me, you wouldn't even care, this is all a proof that you don't even "reflect" like all your community like to do. without mind there is no "ego death road", there would be no purpose to "enlight" anything. what's for ? why enlight what is already luminous ? why bring peace on earth ? why ? did you contemplate what is moral ? what is freedom ? what is a society ? what is a dogma ? probably not. But I did. if you was as peaceful, as in peace, you wouldn't fucking bother posting on a forum for more "mind adds". why bother answer me, why help me, why destroy me ? what is the point ? is it personnal ? or is it a threat of destruction of your new identity and belief system ? I m not sayin I have the truth, I m sayin we are full of shit

everything is emotionnally charged, how do you define that I m more charged than you, you can't, it's you who project that I m emotionally charged because of a belief about "writting a lot" = intrinscly having a meaning of something more in your mind. there is none, I just like to write, it's a constant flow. Why would god makes us play to yoga, why he couldn't just bring us intuit, what would he want us to be enlightened, a pure human delusion, there is NOTHING about enlightment, nothing. this is just a stronger new religion, the 2.0 of religion, the clean version for new mind that can't believe in the old shit. in marketing it's call RE-branding, when the name of something has been raped by humanity emotion, they change the name to make it feel different. deny me with more wishful delusion please, talk me about paradox, I watched the whole video of leo, I understand exactly your mindset. You're no secret to me, you're all very interesting human beings. if everyone was enlightened, what is the end ? nothing, there is no point. infinity instead of god. but it's still the same pattern why patch your mind with delusion when you suffer ? I probably know the answer deep down, I should probably find my own table. I completely believe in some idea and concept of leo though, but the whole spiritual path doesn't resonate, I had believed for a time, but as a strong anti religious type of guy ( and even anti capitalist ) It will be hard for me to eat this pills. ( and I m not denying there is such a stage, why not, but to me it's not real right now ) I read occult book, I know that yoga/meditation is physically powerful and not a "lie", it bring peace in a way when you suffer. simple, don't suffer ? if this is what you call a ego backslash of me, then be it, why my ego is that powerful, should I really kill all this power giving by nature ? I think I should just catalyze it, enlightment is not my LP

I don't want to live anything. I don't want to be enlightened like a guru, I want to be god of the external world. I don't care in capitalism, I don't care in spiritualism, I don't care in philosophism. I m a pure absurdist You can define my "identity" by this Absurdism Existential_nihilism ( and it's not probably close, it's only described by some human who try to structure their feeling on reality ) I believe that I can create every meaning I want for my life. I know what is the product of my past belief, I know what is a belief, a belief system, attention, awareness, conscious thought, subconscious pattern of reaction. ( fear/love ) I need to believe in stupid things only because my mind need to, to work in this physical reality. for me my only true god is music. I can't even sit for 1 hour without doing anything, yoga retreat, is probably not a thing I would be able to do. I would rather kill myself and probably never be ready to apathic mindlessness. Only to be aware that "truth" and "reality" are only construct of the thought ? yes and ? live the apathic then ? no like they said, go cut wood and live life, there is no point in enlightment, it's a groundless idea without any foundation but imagination resolving issue they can't rationalise. If being enlightened is becoming aware that nothing as ground in reality, I m already enlightened 25 years without girlfriend and observing human like rat lab, it makes your mind above structural thinking. I already have permanent insight on reality as a kid suffering from being an outcast mind. All my sense was aware when I was 7. My question was to my teacher, is the blue I m watchin the same as others ? those question I have been reflecting it before you even know in your monkey mind that they was a thing to contemplate. God doesn't give us life to be apathic or having faith. if so I deny this god.

I had a ego death and melted on myself by meditating while in my room. I don't want "enlightment" becoming a talking mindless apathic ( I don't want to be apathic, my ego don't want it, and don't want to have any experience with apathy ) I want to be without any fear of death ( but with the will to do ) but without being solipstic. love my suffering / not avoid it Loving my fear or simple not be able to feel "fear" but at the same time I want to feel peace with my self ( so I have a pretty good understanding on how my thought create reality, maybe not enough, ( does MoE will makes me think like the episode of rick & morty ( about reality creating at the same time as I walk ) or is it just an idea ( thought create "harmony" and not "CREATE" in the physical external sense ) ( do you know what I mean ? ) do you agree that there is an external game outside of the mind to interact with ? we / I never created human, you create only the life that reflect your thought, you take the wave that his the reflection of the thought at your disposal. You never created anything, only remixed.

is it the fruit of evil ? is happiness a evil carot ? Nietzshe told that "happiness" is born in english culture ( the want to feel "happy" ) he call it a delusion, and say that it makes man miserable. your feeling on this ?

ok teach me how to use my occult power my devil friend, and then I'll start believe what you bring in but If I m god, you're my slave and no evil, so that's an order slave ! give me the truth

no truth can comes from a place of no ground. or you mean that the truth is that "everything is a scam" for the mind ?

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what makes you think that life isn't a dream ?

write PTSD and psychedelics on google I m not sure that's "psychedelics", but psychedelics + stupid emotional insight observed as truth, maybe. I've seen many people do it without becoming crazy. But hey it depend, makes your mind more powerful if you can. everything could be fucking reversely possible

Someone kill himself because he didn't find love in yoga, so he wanted truth and so kill himself. ( it's another topic in self actualization journal, I don't know if it's erased though ) Many people tell the guy to find love, OR that he was full of shit for not working properly ( rofl ) finaly he is released from any ego I suppose. There is many thing to learn from leo, but nothing from the word and meaning of his sentence. I wish they recruit me in their scam party, I want to be full of monney and all heil satan, damn I use 666 since I m born, I don't want to work, I m annoying enough to be a part of the scam. This whole society is a scam, finaly one thing to learn from a show like Mr Robot. Humans are really all pathetic creatures, probably only people with mind disorder who cannot get emotionnal can live in truth. So psychopath are more close to the truth than everyone else. Psychopath can't feel love, maybe god forget them. it's too easy to fix your mindset by sayin that nothing exist, even if it was the case. Do I m creating this whole shit nihilist reality right now I suppose not really, do I m the ultimate creator ? no. Do I own my algorythm ? not sure. I can follow the music I want that is inside me, but why would I choose this path ? I never created the instrument, they are not from my mind, they are from the mind of someone else, I m just creature, not god. And if I m prove it to me. If god created me, he is a piece of shit to curse me with "life experience". He never even give me insight about "love" in fucking 25 years, this god is full of shit, and If I m god, I m full of shit, I would never enter a game that I don't know shit about. I never loved "hardcore mode". If I was god I would never experience life, I would stay god. God isn't borred, how god could be, if they are not borred, why creates reality. no reason, what is the purpose of creating such a system ? only experimental rat lab. I believe we are in a simulation, a powerful civilisation use us like rat lab and collect information about us, but nothing is "god made", even if the root is made by god, WHY, why do I m fucking god :laughing: Before I was born, they was nothingness, I can almost remember "waiting" why ? I believe that you can fuck your mind with "religion faith" / and others type of thinking All bias can lead to BS thinking, but fear lead to delusion. And everyone is full of fear tell me, If I m god just like you, don't deny me, answer me, and don't be "be love", be explicit, I m very stupid but the most intelligent in this domain, my ego is very backslashing me, I need a list of thing to love. Give to god some food for thought, give god some insight about this "love". God did LSD, and god didn't find any truth in it. Only a good mind fuckery that he loved. don't tell me that it's my mind creating this thought, it isn't, it's too easy to be passive. is non sense our reality ? probably, even non sense, what is non sense ? what is sense ? everything is bullshit anyway, yoga or satan, or ego, nothing is real, it's only emotional line that we can all draw from our mind. Nothing "is" and there is nothing, only imagination and emotional building. nothing is true, it's all completely bs, but litteraly, everything is. Believing in god, or not believing in it, folllowing discipline or being a raw monkey, nothing as ground, nothing as sky, it's all a nightmare/dream, choose the one who fit prove me wrong please. I m all open minded for it.

about pagan https://omegavirginrevolt.wordpress.com/the-syndicate-the-internet-marketing-scam-organization-behind-game/ why promote a scam leo ?

why quote me 3 times ?

yep I like it, because everyone think they will be enlightnened. that's damn funny, maybe I m wrong, and I hope, but to me enlightening is like creating the good delusion mindset ( but it work, this mindset isn't bad, but still utterly as stupid as the "materialist one" if there is such a difference to draw ) leo is top notch, he sell a virtual carot who never existed at the first place. People start to take all they like in his words and forget all the repeating bullshit non sense he put away aswell. ( I m no denying that talking is limited and biased at the root ) but still, it's a lot tainted of arrogance. YES yoga trigger something who always existed in the human mind. ( I don't deny the increase sense, on the contrary, yoga and meditation are really physical powerful practice ) But like placebo it's maybe not god. ( or yes it is in the metaphysical term, we are all born from the energy of a "god world" ) Of course there is tons of good in the mindset of leo, but this doesn't prove god / right / truth. it proves nothing at all. people here are all old nihilist/arrogant/sellfish at the core ( but they deny it ). How can you have the envy to grow up, if you wasn't having an "ego", it's the fucking paradox, everyone who want to be enlighten can only be through the idea of ego, it's just a big mind fuckery. if enlightening was a thing, it would mean just being fucked up to the point of forgeting being a human. but If god created a "dream" it's not for escape it... why would create a dream for escaping it, what is it to escape, nothing, so you can dig long the earth to find "nothing". I m watching leo because he is part of my fun routines and I love ideas. but he is not "my dedicated teacher", I still believe the stage turquoise is complete hippy budhist delusion, but maybe I m wrong, who knows. Maybe stupid explication like understage can't undertand it, is enough to be convinced. the exact people who blame people to be "paradigmed" are now fucking paradigmed in another kind of reality. This is fucking epic, I love it, this is probably the same kind of technique in less sophisticated brainwashing lord use. ( the one who create stupid terrorist who die for stupid conviction, how can those people do, I have kind of the answer now ! leo is just next stage trap, but he never told the contrary, he call himself an island of solid shit. ) ( but how solid is solid ? ) he never "lie" I think he is mostly since, but really lonely. ( I wish to watch a full turquoise video ) I like leo he is a good guy, deluded or not, who knows, who told I wasn't myself. We all are.. it's our nature it wouldn't even surprise me if leo was pay by some illuminatis organism to propagate the agenda of a new global elit. ( maybe my own little delusion story, or worst ! leo isn't even pay for the work lelz ) I read an old book who was talking futur spirituality and why people use so much "drug" ( before I even know about leo ) the book was telling that in the futur to convert humanity to a new religion ( because human NEED belief /faith to work ) So to make the whole world accept complete slavery the would change the belief for a new one that is more improved and more easy to believe, a 3.0 faith who allow capitalism to grow, and they was sayin that everyone will pray for nature because it's more easy than believing in a non sense guy in paradise. ( so where are we handed right now ? ) indeed, if everyone accept physical reality as a non sense or you shouldn't act and accept every bullshit, it would makes you the perfect happy slave who shut his mouth. it's really genius as an artist everything can inspire me to me that's just very smart to know the mindset of the futur new deluded mass. ( or be a part of the new "ruling" delusion ) buying things and be "green" what a bullshit, if you was really turquoise you would want the destruction of the whole society, because balance in nature is wanting the whole destruction of the disease that his the mass society. maybe I m wrong, and I wish I m, it's still a supposition, but in my reality right now, all his chakra and things are wishful thinking biased by new hardware implemented belief ( through the use of powerful drug that confirm all your "bias" ) many people did 5 MeO DMT and still don't believe in anything India religious related thing ( I did my researsh ) only if you take it with the hope to see what people talk to you about, the drug will increase your own biased belief and makes them feel true for the time of the drug. everyone here have a common thing : do not find is place in society, outcast, weirdo, want to avoid suffering. I don't know human mind is now becoming fascinating to me.

I never buyed any books, nor any course. ( and I get a good ammount of valued things ) I always find things for free ( there is a tons of book in pdf free ), almost everything if you look really well and efficiently. I never respect rules though. I like to get it my way, it's like playing/chess-ing before the reward. buying things doesn't excite me Seller gonna hate me. But game of thrones succeed because of hacking, the creator told if people doesn't crack and had mouth and ear for it, the whole serie would have never be season 2 and 3 4 5 6 7. The article has been removed from internet, for commercial reason, you cannot thanks people to crack your shit. something that a real value will always be pay by people in a way or another. I don't believe in price. I believe in energy re-send. Some people get a paycheck only by asking people to give them monney ( on twitch ) if you have to pay, fuck you, as a musician all my music will always be free, even if I work 10000 hours on it. Why ? because fuck the disease of buying/selling. The price is the one I give, seller doesn't have the right to choose for me. it's me who value how many they give to me. I always give monney to company and things who diserve it, ( or cheer up others people to buy it haha ) for me business is about sharing value, and hoping people to give you back. For this instance I hate the whole system of paying, it's against my religion.

just eating a bunch of Chomsky talk yesterday