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I was raised in the ghetto for most of my life, not trusting anyone was a big thing! I was also raised in a hardcore Christian household, my mom always told me not to eat at others people homes, the lie that the devil is external held me back. sleeping at family friends houses/friends houses was completely restricted from both my parents! I often have issues trusting my own friends and even family sometimes... I catch myself making bullshit reasons to justify my doubts. Anyone moved past trust issues?

I've been realizing, whatever I accomplish is not going to make me happy. Can anything external really bring true fulfillment? It seems like every human is their own planet. I find myself stressed sometimes. But it seems like reality is no where.

@aurum for the sake of love seems like the answer. @How to be wise I read it but I def need to revise

@Haumea2018 wow great advice, thank you.

Gradually building up on a monthly pace. How long does it take to prepare for a 90 hour non-stop?

Been feeling extreme fatigue, any recommendations besides coffee?

awesome vid, kinda feels like a prequel to life's A maze. Explains a lot of things!

Today when I practiced ujjayi pranayama I felt a heavy sense of heat hit me, hairs on my legs stood up, sweat began to bead, my heart sped up, a few tears came out my eyes. My spines feeling sore, across from my solar plexus, any1 identify?

@martins name ??????? interesting, I'm also keeping in mind it could just be my ego or it could be something higher

@Nahm I just realized leo did this only a year ago lol but I thought the process was more like e.g : September - meditate for 65 mins everyday October - meditate for 75 novemebr - meditate for 90 december - meditate for 120 on week take a break then do 70 then go back up to 90 for the final week etc. Just an example I'm def not ready atm but maybe I'll be really when I'm 24 ( 4 years ) from now or 25. Fifteen years is impressive wow!! I salute you by medium do you mean palm reader?

@NoSelfSelf this right here I believe!

@NoSelfSelf doesn't leo say to strategize, think of ways on how to improve? I'm trying I guess @Misagh I remember leo saying everyone has different strengths and weaknesses i'm trying only not to limit myself. @Barry J you could be right but hey I tried, I said gradually building up at a monthly pace, that sounds as releastic as losing 5-10 pounds and the gym in 1 month

@Joseph Maynor thank you for the advice, 1 day at a time

@Hellspeed toilet satori ?

@NoSelfSelf isn't anything possible in the Infinity? @PsiloPutty that's awesome dude, vipassana also sounds cool, would love to try it soon

@Serotoninluv today I got a whim that consciousness may be space. Our bodies are space.

Today when I was looking over my values, I questioned if family is one of my values. I then realized if we are the human race, can identification with " family " not add to our perspective of difference/ denial of non-duality?

@Serotoninluv interesting, didn't know that! I read Byron Katie's book on loving what is, self inquiry has done me well and there's more to do

@Serotoninluv I'm trying to find the rules actually! I seen this video and was inspired. I don't think I'm ready this year but I wish to build so I can in next 1-2 years

@PsiloPutty hour and a half but I practice kriya daily and holotropic breath work weekly

@FredFred woops, thanks man. 90-hour non-stop

@Cepzeu thanks bro

Yesterday I was at a creative workshop and they showed a graph on uneployment for the last 10-30 years. Ages from 15-24 in that last 10 years had the highest rate of unemployment - 2009 was the highest percentage. Around this time YouTube really blew up, thanks to call of duty modern warfare 2. YouTube and the internet i feel it's a part of the reason to why were able to find actualized/ actualizing existing is this prediction wrong?

@Psyche_92 all these I need to get in order to be honest. On top of working overnight security 24 hours some weekends def does a toll. @Space I'm vegetarian right now, on my way to vegan, it's just a matter of finances at the moment. I eat relatively healthy but at times I eat whats avaibale @Michael569 I also box four to three times a week and it's intense training, soreness ties into fatigue if that makes sense? And no I haven't been to the doctor in years!! @RabbitHole no phone, tv or PC for an hour before sleep is something that stands out to me. When it's time to sleep I'm glued to my phone ? @bejapuskas I appreicate it man. Thank you

@ChimpMonk much thanks