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Damn that sounds extremely fucked up. My Mother is a narcissist and still that shit just sounds brutal as fuck. Love yourself! Its going to get better.

I wouldnt consider it disrespectful tho, hes probs just a little bit tired or something.

When I broke up with my ex She made up a story that im mentally ill and I spent 6 months in a mental hospital. The head doctor is basically a sociopath. I live in Finland. When I was taken to the hospital, I got injected with a drug so violently that I screamed shocked. Life is not the same after that experience.. Never will be. I feel like treating depression and other mental illness is so so corrupt. No drug ever helped me (nothing wrong in the first place) but I was still forced to take amounts that would make a horse sleep.

Also a very sensitive person on the path. Makes sense.

Met a kid on the streets of Helsinki Finland. I was in an altered state of consciousness, basically a ecstasy state. Walked past this kid, and I asked him if he can count all the cobblestones of Helsinki, Finland. He gave me the exact number in 3 days.

Yep, the direct experience was too shocking. It was like meeting God in flesh.

As many of you might be aware, we live in a mainly stage orange society. I've taken Leo's life purpose course, if any of you still are considering it, please give it a serious shot. That course changed my perspective on reality to a whole different level. We're all victims of collective ego (I'd say stage orange science based society) which abuses us. Today I had a big realization about my own life's work. What has been seen in my trips to the mental hospital can never be unseen. The abuse that stage orange medical industry is making on us is quite horrific to be honest. This has to change. I would love to hear your thoughts and experiences on this subject, or stage orange scientitism in general. DM's also welcome.

Also had similar experiences when doing a solo psychedelic retreat, songs changing based on what I'm feeling, etc. Freaky

A video on this subject is my suggestion!

I have also been abused by people close to me. So I think I can relate a little bit. I am still in the process of forgiving, maybe I haven't processed all my emotions yet. Journaling works wonders. Singing is profound for me in dealing with emotions. If you're dealing with guilt and/or feelings of inferiority and anger and whatever, just remember that it will be okay. I had to kind of get to know the triggers which subconsciously reminded me of the abuse situation. When you get triggered, etc, just keep breathing deeply and allowing the feelings to pass. Allow yourself to feel lightheaded even. Notice if you judge yourself, and let it go. In the end you can choose to be the bigger person and forgive, but you must not force yourself. Only do it if you authentically feel ready for it. Letting go and releasing these emotions can be quite intense so be prepared just my 2 cents.

Interesting thread! Follow your intuition with all your courage and don't give a fuck about anybody else's opinion.

Thanks guys! I was planning to share some of my crazy trip experiences Thanks for the idea, I will probably write some or check my commonplace book for something.

Hey guys, I decided I would share a little bit of my journey thus far. It's been a wild ride. I have been following Leo's content since he didn't ever mention God, been also on the Actualized Forum since it's very earliest days, mostly as a lurker. I would say I have been doing Self-Development for around 7 years now. I originally got into it because I was a very shy kid, had social anxiety, so I started doing pick-up and got involved with self-development because of it. Now 24 years old. So I have a few years of experience under my belt, by no means a master yet but that's cool. I've done LSD, Mushrooms, 5-MeO DMT, NN-DMT and a bunch of other psychedelics. Also been practicing different spiritual techniques, studying and contemplating and read around 150 books. Mostly Leo's book list. Also watched almost every single Actualized episode, except all of the very first ones, many of them multiple times. I wanted to talk about my experience with this work. The amount of work is actually quite big. I haven't had a dayjob in years, (I'm very blessed to be born in Finland where we have a welfare system that supports people with no jobs.) But, oh boy, are the rewards massive as well. To the guys and girls who are struggling with this work right now, feeling confused and lost, maybe depressed. Keep going! There's a lot of value in this! I got started with this work because I battled with depression for my whole life. I was somewhat a different kid growing up, was bullied a little bit. More on the sensitive side. Little bit of a traumatic childhood. But this work has completely transformed me. It has brought me so much that it's really impossible to describe with any words whatsoever. It's literally beyond all words and concepts. I'm honored to be a part of this community!

So, I think we're all heard Leo and other spiritual teachers talk about our true nature, right? Love, God, Consciousness, etc. In middle of my contemplation session I kind of got a flash in my mind, a question popped up. Is it an epistemological mistake to know Truth? Can Truth be known? Or can it only be directly experienced? I'm feeling that language is very limited as well here! Enlightenment means you're directly conscious of the Truth? Deep understanding of Epistemology is essential to know the Truth. I just became directly conscious of this aspect of reality. I guess that's why Leo also teaches it. (thank you for all you done for us man, really grateful for this. you're the sensei man.) Also, if you guys be me right, can you even answer this to me? If I'm only asking myself? Lul Reality, you are so funny sometimes.

I like to listen to his talks as audio books. You can get them from Audible for the cost of a audio book and some of them are over 40 hours long. It's good stuff, definitely check it out. Also; This right here.

Okay, so. You want to hold the belief that it's possible for you to succeed, which gives you a certain flair of confidence. So make the distinction between 2 types of confidence. The one that you 'can succeed in whatever you're doing' Tackling limiting beliefs, visualizations and breath work can help. Then the other type of confidence is like an side-effect of having a lot of direct experience in your field, that comes with time.

Do you feel like you're succeeding in your vision for life? What was the hardest thing you have done? Whats the best comment/email you ever got? Congratulations on the big milestone, man. Much love!! <3

I almost want to congratulate you for being courageous. Really well done.

I definitely think you can do do both at the same time. Maybe figure out for yourself through for example contemplation, which feels more exciting to you right now, and pursue it with bigger efforts.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosenhan_experiment TLDR: Mental Hospitals are very abusive. Related to survival of pharmaceutical companies and materials paradigms of reality.

Thanks for the story. Can't wait to take my first dose of 5-MeO soon enough.

I will be trying 5-MeO-DMT for the first time when it arrives in a few days probably. I am going to be plugging it. Any tips/tricks welcome! What kind of dosage do you guys recommend for first time plugging? My Body weight is around 75kg (165 pounds), and I am a male. I have experience with LSD, mushrooms, NN-DMT, along with some other psychedelics. Thx!

So basically you want to learn to de-filter yourself. And learn how to become a good conversationalist. Very worthy investment to make! I think of myself as a skilled conversationalist. And I've had others tell me this as well. So let me share some knowledge for you. Some guys say you must make her talk, some guys say talk about yourself. I say learn both. Learn how to listen, and how to talk endlessly. The easiest thing you can do when you run out of things to say, is to ask a simple question that's open-ended. So it's not a Yes/No question. An example would be; Why did you choose to major in mathematics? <----- THIS IS AN INTERESTING QUESTION Rather than What is your major <------- THIS IS NOT AS GOOD The reason behind this is that 1. Everyone asks whats your major 2. A "Why Question" actually engages the other person to think about his/her answer for a moment. She actually might have to think about the answer for a few moments. Which is good. Her answer might be something like "Well, mathematics was always very interesting to me. When I was younger, I used to play with numbers on my spare time back in my hometown." "Why Questions" are much more effective than simply asking something she can answer with a "Yes", "No", or just with one word. So ask "Why Questions" Next Tip; Body Language Start to pay attention to your Body Language and your conversational partners. When you're building trust with another person, show your hands. Take up space. Speak clearly and loud. Smile. Laugh. Watch how sexy male actors behave in movies. Tony Robbins is a good example too. "Realize that what you are saying has value simply because it comes from you." Pickup in the end isn't about what you say. You attract others based on who you are, not what you say. But, being a good conversationalist is obviously a big big big advantage to have. So get learning! Learn to speak endlessly about yourself and your life, and also learn to listen deeply. I think this is a deadly combination to master. Good luck!

You're dealing with a narcissistic personality it sounds to me. One strategy for dealing with a narcissist or sociopath is to act like a “gray rock,” meaning that you become uninteresting and unresponsive. Using the Gray Rock method, your objective is to make someone lose interest in you. You don't feed their needs for drama or attention.

Yeah don't be an asshole guys. We have enough toxic behavior in society. Be assertive and live a non-needy life. 1. Find your Life Purpose. You need to live an exciting life to attract beautiful women in my experience. If you only get your good feelings from her, it's a dead end. 2. Always wear stylish clothes. The more stylish the better. This will automatically make people perceive you as more attractive. 3. Having great fitness is in your control, and it makes you more attractive. So focus on that. 4. To reach the flow state, you need to have a clear plan on what you're going to execute. For example; Tomorrow I will talk with 5 women, ask for at least one phone number and make one girl laugh. 5. Sexy body language. Take up space when you sit. speak a little louder than normal (It will feel like shouting at first). Walk like a Gunslinger from the wild west. Or a male model. Pick one guy who you think is attractive and observe how he behaves. Go watch a YouTube video and pay attention to the body language. I used and still use a question when I get rejected and/or girl isn't answering etc. "What would I do if I had 10 chicks chasing me?" "What would Leonardo DiCaprio do?" This immediately puts me in a mind space of detachment, just this simple mental exercise. Read Mark Manson's Models for more info about how to be attractive without playing any sorts of games or being an asshole either. Also, getting 10's is of course difficult. And having a great relationship is not easy. But I believe it is doable. You must understand the principles of detachment and non-neediness and embody these traits in your behavior and character.