youngshinzen

Day16:

27daysleft: woke up early, worked out and worked an hour on an empty stomach I initially planned to write for 2 hours in the morning, but that's not possible without eating something first problem is when I have my one big meal, I'm pretty tired and not as sharp as on an empty stomach in the afternoon I sat down and wrote for 15 min, didn't feel good after the meal in the evening I had another workout, came home, had to meditate for an hour and wrote for another 45 min for now, my daily goal is 2 hours, until I come up with a solution on when to write the anxiety to write is much lower after a workout whenever negative thoughts came up I immediatly went to the future where I imagine finishing the thesis and I remind myself of the vision board -> really effective, especially the ice cream and the colors that I used, somehow stimulates a feeling of celebration

@Michael569 Ok thanks. @Johnny ?? @SgtPepper Yeah, I'll def eat more fish. My doc said everythings fine, but cholesterol is too high (LDL much higher than HDL). I try to eat a minimal amount of cheese and milk to keep my insulin low, I'll add vitamin d supplementary. Thanks for the advice with the seeds.

@Michael569 Why do you call it carni keto? Is there a healthy way to do keto and omad in your opinion?

@Leo Gura I had an enlightenment experience a few years ago that showed me that there is a reason for everything. It is a causal chain to infinity and everything is started by one source. It fits to what you said on your live trip video: "It's perfectly out of control." and your new retreat video. For me the insight was: None of the things I perceive are coming from me, because there's a (one) reason for everything I perceive. Free will means there is no reason for my decision. Is how I interpret it contrary to what you said above or am I missing something?

@Aeris I want to continue a low carb diet, because it lowers my anxiety. I'm doing everything you mentioned, except for smoking weed. @Michael569 Dehydration might have been a factor, I've started to drink more and added sea salt to the water. Maybe that helped with the migraine aspect for the past few days. I broke my fast with this meal: 6 high quality eggs 300g of broccoli 15 cubes of feta cheese salad bowl, olive oil, olives, one avocado 300g of chicken breast in coconut oil Could be overkill, have to do more research on how to get enough calories on OMAD. I went to sleep afterwards. I didn't get symptoms of heat and nausea. This time when I woke up, there were pretty strong cramps in the stomach area and they spread out in a circular manner. It stopped after half an hour. Blood pressure seems high as I can feel my heart pump harder, I'll measure later. Mood is skinda down and body feels a bit lethargic. Is ketoacidosis even possible? He says it only happens to diabetes patients and a keto diet is far away from achieving such levels. Sleep is very good, no stimulants used. I have hay fever and to some extent nut allergy. Yesterday I ate a whole bag of macadamias and my lips burned, also the symptoms were much more severe than today.

Day15:

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you! I'll do that. 28daysleft: worked for one hour in the afternoon sat down crosslegged on the couch, lifted my pelvis and kept my back straight had a nap before, felt determined and energized converted my notes, added external info to it and made a graphic (≈2pages) during this hour I felt inner tension and muscular tension in the back increase, breath was shallow, had to let it flow consciously one hour seemed perfect, after that it would probably start to exhaust me

STATUS QUO Technqiues for motivation 1. Guided Meditation Two weeks ago, my therapist did a guided meditation with me to feel the future sensation of finishing this task deeply in the present moment. I sat down, closed my eyes and she told me to imagine being in a cinema that plays the movie of " @youngshinzen submits his thesis": I was seated right next to the knob that controls the curtains and starts the movie. I felt the texture of the red, round knob and slowly tilted it to the side. The curtains opened up and the intro with the previously mentioned title started. I saw myself walking to my university with two editions of my thesis in a bordeaux cover, the sun is shining. I seem a bit exhausted, but also energized and happy. I go to the service department and proudly place the thesis on their desk. After an uplifting conversation about the relief I go outside, with my chest out and open, feeling the FREEDOM and clarity in front of me. I smell flowers, sense the people's happiness (I project onto them?) and feel the lust to buy a huge ice cream. While eating I prepare for a trip." Then I'm being asked to communicate with my future self, who has accomplished finishing the thesis. What would he tell me? Here are the notes: Trust in yourself. Have as much fun as possible. Show others your small achievements on the way and be proud of them. Surround yourself with positivity. I will connect to these aspects everyday and also feel the sensations. 2. Scheduling thesis-appointments and making a reinforcement-plan I scheduled two hours in the morning and one hour in the afternoon. The therapist said that this is optimal in regards to the biorhythm. Everytime I achieve one day of studying focused for these three hours, I get a point. 6 points (one week, one day break) lead to having a special event as a treat (sauna, shopping, etc.) 3. Various positive thinking patterns I've doubted myself oftentimes and always made it through I will be an example for others that it is possible to overcome obstacles like these I want to experience the whole thing Habits: These are already implemented, some are fresh (OMAD, early exercise). I'll document if changes occur: No-Fap Keto-Diet One meal a day Structure: wake up early, exercise 30min HIIT, cold shower, study, eat, (sleep), study, meditate (1h) Vision board:

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Day4: ? ◽? if I would listen to the song again ◽? if not

Day3: from now on I'll just post the song, without a comment thinking about what to write distracted me from the song

Day2: not watching the videos, just concentrating on the "music" genre: j-pop sounded speed-up, whole song was distorted liked the chopped up vocoder melody in the chorus, rest was trash 3/10

Day1: Timid Tiger - Loveboat clicked on a random song in the indie section, no pun intended nice intro, waves crashing, marimba sounds already feeling like on vacation uptempo drum beat and a guy singing had a constant smile on my face throughout the whole song funny catchy hook

This is the second time I experience a synchronicity between the full moon and insomnia+hypermania. This seems to have started with the carnivore diet, currently keto. I came across some studies examining this phenomenon, but I haven‘t found a solution to normalize this. Any ideas?

@Michael569 @lmfao @Pelin @montecristo @RachelThorpe Thank you! Had a break from the issue because it rained non-stop, but will try some of the things you mentioned once it starts again.