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@Privet but I cant control fantasizing and my staring, though I try to be mindful of that. so are we talking about addiction or abstaining from ejaculation? why do all this? im so confused. Its so hard to tell if its a placebo or not. is the end result self control?

omae wa mou shindeiru NANI?!

@Alien I think from the perspective of the one who dies it's exactly the same, though after you "die" you cant compare it with physical death because people who died cant tell us how it was.

I do think that im doing the right thing but the mind is a tricky thing, I would like to get as many points of view on it as I can. why so?

as you progress with consciousness work, you will be able to control whether to dissolve something or not, as long as you dont quit. this too shall pass. look at sadhguru for example. first all your meaning is destroyed which is a good thing, because then you can build a meaning which is much better. just continue putting in the work. dont start to be lazy and half assly nihilistic though if you notice yourself being lazy thats a trap. passion will come as you progress, watch leo's latest motivation vid, he talks about that.

Dont believe the article, dont believe bentinho, dont believe the buddha, dont believe in yoga, dont believe in meditation, only believe in yourself (aka nothing). I read some of the article and a lot of the stuff that is said , is said from the materialist paradigm. I know that some of bentinho's teachings are great, the guys clearly knows some stuff (or doesnt know ). I can see why ordinary people flip their shit because of some of the points that are made in the article, but if you would write an article about japanese zen it would be even worse. that's why you have to have a lot of teachers. I personally prefer teachings with the least amount of belief required, and as I see bentinho just says stuff that might be true to him, but other people may just misinterpret that stuff and he might not realize this. he's young afterall.

@Joseph Maynor great answer, you helped me a lot, but one thing I dont understand, why being an ideological ascetic is a trap? dont buddhist monks and the such do this all the time?

you were clearly not ready. in my opinion dont do psychedelics for another few years. you have serious work, practice meditation and learn sober. you have to learn how to surrender.

I want to try some psychedelic in the future and Im thinking about substances and ways to do the trip. I did psychedelics a total of 2 times. One of the options are shrooms, in which one option would be to be in an empty house, and the other option would be to close the curtains and be in darkness. should I try a lower dose first and then dive into a bigger one? (thinking about 1 gram then 3 or something like that) and if so, should I do it in the darkness? im thinking to do the first small dose in the light and the second one in darkness, though it could be also reversed. what are your recommendations? it would be my first "strong" or "traditional" psychedelic, I survived one pretty harsh trip though before. another option is LSD. im thinking about AL-LAD since leo advocates this one so much but on the other hand I want to be mindfucked and from my understanding AL-LAD is better for contemplating things that you kind of know about. what other options are there for LSD? Thanks. p.s. My reason to try psychedelics is to expand my bubble and to grow as much as possible, what psychedelic generally I should do for that? Im also pretty sure I have a lot of hidden insecurities and fears that im not aware of, which might limit my everyday life, I would like to discover them and deal with them. I say that because I dont have any big fears in my everyday life but my life is pretty mediocre so far. I also want to break that mediocrity.

@Ether its like coming to a gym and asking :"can I lift 500 pounds just this time?" This work is so fucking tricky anytime you want something you get the opposite.

are you sure it's kundalini? i've had the exact same but im nowhere near kundalini. it improved since I changed my diet.

@ProblemSolving how does nofap help? I dont have problems with any of the things you suggested. one thing i do want to work on though is enlightenment. you have any idea how nofap may help?

@Samurai Y and how much time do you think that it will take you? how are you planning to do it? what if spirituality Is the solution to these problems?

@Samurai Y what do you mean by "dive"? do you think you can make a shitton of progress in a day? this process takes years, you already started it by being curious.

I think that's the whole point of books and outside information. Though sometimes reinventing the wheel is a waste of time. balance is key

@Max_V are you sure theres such a thing as a 'stuck' emotion? if so, why exactly? where did you learn this? im interested. are you saying that without any mental trigger you have sudden strokes of body emotion?

Lol, funny, I am since recently almost exactly the same, fear/anxiety in body and negative thoughts arise, though it's all just is there and there's no attachment to it. I think it's not yoga that gets rid of the body feelings, but wisdom. Emotions arise out of beliefs, and beliefs are changed doing shadow work, understanding the root of the beliefs, increasing clarity, and changing them. A lot of these beliefs dissipate with spiritual work also, enlightenment, because higher wisdom is obtained. take this with a grain of salt, just using logic here.

At first glance and in my parents' perspective (I think) it seems like my parents are having an alright life, more or less financially stable, more or less happy, but it's very "shaky". I notice my mom being regularly anxious about everything and my dad having anger issues. They're drinking every week, and while I dont judge them for doing so, I feel like their life could be much better than it currently is. I cant help but want to do something to improve it at least by a little bit. I dont try to convince them of meditating or doing anything, but I do talk about it sometimes just so they know that it exists. They are pretty closed minded and judgmental about me meditating. Lol if they would know what I read about I think they would send me to an insane asylum. nontheless, is there something I could do to make them less anxious or angry? maybe casually talk about some stuff they might not know about and might help them? maybe doing nothing at all and letting them see how I grow, which will motivate them somehow (thought I dont think it will work, they believe in people with "talent", they are not really the growth mindset type). thanks p.s. I focus on helping them currently and not really "the world" because im a very isolated person and they're mainly the only people I interact with. Also Im doing the life purpose course so im getting "the world" handled. Also from my current paradigm family is more important than other people, I cant lie to myself.

@Soulbass @Ether I didnt even mention change. I asked how can I affect my parents for the better. I love them as they are, I just want some tips on how to make their lives better.

Im on the health train recently and been wondering if I should not touch alcohol again in my life. I drink not too much at parties like once every few months. I didnt see any reason not to drink, but im probably ignorant. give me reasons not to touch alcohol ever again.

I sometimes get in that great space of mind when I watch a vid of Leo's for example and I find a contemplation subject. Sometimes I start to contemplate but often that space of mind gets lost and I cant seem to advance in my contemplation. What seems so effortless and enjoyable in that space of mind becomes a chore outside of it. I just get disinterested and want to pass on to do something else. Also extremely often I cant seem to find any contemplation subjects. I think to myself what do I have to think about and nothing comes up, my mind becomes blank. I have something to contemplate only if I get triggered by some material.

@Faceless I understood that theres a contradiction but didnt understand how to solve it

@Leo Gura is it possible to have an experience (in this case, sight) of nothingness just by contemplating what it is?

Classic question, but I need a refresher because I lost my way (not that I had one in the first place) Is it even possible to become happy? As I understand it's just an emotion, so it's not lasting. If so, what's the alternative, whats the alternative to not feel numb to life? I am meditating and am on the path, but the path is quite long, so I need some way to not feel shitty right now. Do I become happy by not having the need to be happy?