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I tried to do nofap carelessly and actually what it did is strenghtened my desire for certain sexual activities that im not even interested in, when i actually tried to do them they weren't exciting at all and it was all just empty anticipation. i actually experience a bit of fear right now realizing how dangerous it is playing with your brain and I want to get some information as to how exactly do rewire my brain to positive things. as i understand it, the more i think about something the stronger the network about that thing is the more desire i have to do it. thats what i guess happened with me. if its true then no pmo means more thinking about wanting sexual experiences and that actually creating addictions that werent even there. how do i turn this to my advantage for example to want to read books, study, do life purpose work, raising consciousness, etc.

I think a really great idea would be to keep the possibility to thumb up comments, but to not show the number of votes, instead, show incremental jumps in thumb-ups. like a purple color is 5 thumb ups, blue is like 10 and so on. that way, people would be able to tell the most agreed on posts, while eliminating a substantial amount of judgement about a post. I completely agree though with removing the reputation underneath the profile picture.

maybe mention it in your next video at the end, make some poll and put it in the description. I dont live in the US but I would like to see the video of it. Also I think you need more videos with your legs for the purple cow concept to work better

almost every time I have a tiny break like going somewhere, eating, or basically things that dont require mental energy, I contemplate about stuff. I was wondering if thats any use, because its kind of scattered sometimes and the concentration is not fully on the contemplated subject.

"the power of now" by eckhart tolle. introduced me to spirituality.

If you're willing to spend the next few years meditating from morning until night, like the buddha did, you may have some progress, not guaranteed. Though if not, without any guidance your chances I think are extremely small. dont let your ego say "I can do this by myself". consider the possibility that you dont know something about enlightenment. I also think that gurus are not only for knowledge, you may have a lot of knowledge, but still gurus can offer you plenty, consider that possibility. also, the youtubers you mentioned arent teaching enlightenment 24/7, consider that too. I think its just ego stuff.

@Cjaryo yeah, that, but the problem with that is that people are also advocating being aware of breath or being conscious during these breaks, so I wondered whats better, if thinking about stuff during the day is just monkey mind or not. if theres any use from that

im actually going through the same, those thoughts of "how can i be this blank". though the more im aware, the more i realize thats just monkey mind. if you don't meditate you have to start. i dunno how to deal with it except accepting yourself and loving yourself. consciousness work does this.

it's my 1000th time posting about this, sorry. I was watching this video of terence mckenna and the message was conflicting with other advice i've got. he says basically that in order to experience a psychedelic truly I shouldnt try lower doses first, that he recommends to take an average dose and just dive in. I was recommended to go 1g then 2g then 3g, while he recommends I guess just going 2g. what should I do? is it recommended to for example to just try at 0.5g and then go to 2g? he also recommends to do it in the darkness. Basically there are 2 approaches which I see: the badass exploration one and the enjoyment/bliss one. badass exploration is the one in which I guess would grow me the most and is just in silence with closed eyelids meditating. enjoyment one is with music on, just vibing. my goal really is growing so Im attracted more to the badass one but it may be counterproductive in the end. maybe the most growth is when you enjoy it the most. I dont know. how do I utilize this substance to the maximum?

You have to raise your consciousness. watch leo's vids, read books. what would happen if you say got a girlfriend now? maybe at the start it would be nice, but judging from how bad you want it, long term it's not gonna be pretty. READ BOOKS AND EDUCATE YOURSELF. this is crucial, you dont realize how ignorant you are, knowledge is crucial to play the game called "life" in our age. There was a time when I too was craving a girlfriend and then I read a book (called the way of the superior man) which said that girls get attracted to guys with a purpose, that what's most important to them was their life calling, and from there I realized there's no gold in that mine called "seeking a relationship". Just focus on developing yourself and find solace in being alone, you wont have a fulfilling life depending on other people. I recommend doing nofap. you're going to have to face your demons one day, we all have to. watch that vid, nothing that will send you to hell there, just pure logic, try to be openminded. remember if you ever get stuck in life read a book that is relevant to your situation. best thing ever. I recommend buying leo's book list. There are books that you find usually, because they're not popular, because they were not marketed greatly, but the things that are said in them are extremely profound.

From what I can guess, since beauty is absence of a seer, enlightened people can always access beauty? are there degrees of beauty?

if you are asking literally, yeah, im at the university away from my family during the week and usually I dont interact much with people.

I have a ton of excess energy that just makes me want to move my body, its like a desire to contract muscles. on top of that theres speech impulsiveness, which means I spew words and sing while almost yelling. I can control it, but sometimes I just let it do whatever it wants to do. I am able to concentrate if I want to, but it takes some willpower to control myself. this may be because in the last month I masturbated maybe twice and currently im on a week roll. it's quite annoying honestly, and it just makes stuff harder. Can I use it somehow? or can I stop it? edit- forgot to add, there's also food craving, I feel like I want to eat all the time and even if I do, it doesnt stop, my diet is pretty healthy with a bunch of vegetables.

what are your opinions about listening to music during a trip? I know Leo said in a video it's better without music for personal development, Terrence mckenna says the same. But a lot of people actually cant trip without music, or it adds a lot to the experience. Of course I will experiment on my own but what do you think?

@nightrider1435 I actually do all that and I still got a lot of energy, I dont think running the whole day will do the trick lol. Do you know if it will pass? what can I use this energy for except for exercise?

because all of these explanations explain the same equations at the end, and they have not further implications. What I mean by that is take for example general relativity, there were a ton of theories which just explained certain observations, but general relativity predicted results of experiments that have not been yet done. For example general relativity predicted gravitational waves, which no one had any idea before general relativity could exist. Not only did it predict gravitational waves and many other things, people actually proved that these phenomena existed, which makes this theory so strong compared to others.

why do you want to be authentic?

Correct me if im wrong, i may not understand it correctly, but the use of it is like the more complicated law of attraction?

@Joseph Maynor to never be passive in my life, in other words to actively fully engage in every activity, in case I notice I dont do that (i've made this a commitment to myself), to push through resistances to studying and not to halfass anything. the price I will pay is emotional labor required to not be passive. to create free time for myself where I will watch the LP course videos and contemplate them if I feel like there is something to integrate. in most of my left free time instead of entertaining myself with TV or youtube, to read a book about life purpose. the price I will pay is not watching tv shows or youtube entertainment. To meditate every single day 30 minutes and 30 minutes self inquiry (self inquiry starting tomorrow), to try to always be aware of the breath and to go to a sangha. the price I will pay is the emotional labor required to do this every single day in the morning. @Nahm so basically to see life through abundance? is that achieved by being mindful of the mind when it thinks about shortage and being greatful? like journal what happened today that im greatful for? i feel really not honest when I do that (being greatful) those contractions are never more than 2-3 seconds, or maybe i misunderstand what contraction means.

can one backslide if hes meditating daily? what should one do in order not to backslide? i see leo has a vid on this but its fairly old, will watch it though.

@Joseph Maynor succeed in my studies find a life purpose by finishing the LP course and reading books increasing my consciousness and suffer less by meditating everyday and trying to be more mindful to develop self discipline by being mindful of when I have a resistance to do something and doing it. (included in the first 3) these are the only things I work for currently in my life. so basically 3 goals. The first goal is the one that takes the most amount of time, when I have free time I squeeze in the second one, while on weekends I have a lot more time, and the third one I do daily and going to a sangha once a week. @Nahm For example when my meditation and everyday life becomes more filled with unconsciousness than before, when more spontaneous anxiety without any reason arises while previously I was able to see through the anxiety, accept it and it would dissipate. wow, im so sloppy lately, I actually did (kind of) backslide, but the question was more about how to prevent it. im sorry if I dont make sense, my mind is overloaded with stuff and I have to organize things and didnt think yet when to clear things up. Edit- forgot another goal of mine is to keep a healthy body, which I accomplish by gradually improving my diet and exercising a few times a week.

Leo always talks about higher consciousness, especially in the last video (mindblowing video as usual). What is meant by this? higher consciousness eating, higher consciousness relationships, higher consciousness living, etc. What is the difference between that and wisdom? or just "being better"? We talk about consciousness all the time but it's such a loose term I feel like.

@Faceless I didnt understand what you were trying to say, sorry.

@Joseph Maynor *prevent* I didnt yet

can you give some examples?