Viking

the point of radical honesty is that it burns the ego

what to do there? can you point to any sources i can read from? or tell your own experience? what do i do in those places if i have no friends to go with?

stop reading on the interenet. stop listening to people's advice (its ironic now lol) youre in deep new age belief dogshit. its good to be openminded but man, you just believe everything people tell you. you have to get rid of all of these stupid beliefs. start doing legit spiritual practice that doesnt concern energy or kundalini or whatever the fuck, im not saying its complete bullshit, but a lot of what people build around it is. start practicing mindfulness and start doing legit spiritual work. you believe your thoughts too much, start meditating if you dont, what kind of spiritual practice you do if you dont meditate? you read a bunch of cool sounding spiritual stuff but all of that is belief! you experience something and then your mind tries to put a name on it, just experience, without labeling. I think youre too deep to go back, you have to go further but on the less belief path. (notice i didnt say better path because that would be a belief) read deeply into a book like "the book of not knowing" by peter ralston. get rid of all of your beliefs, none of them is truth and none of them are what you seek. this book will open your eyes a little if you read it thoroughly. I would recommend to stop altogether from reading new age stuff (if you can tell the difference) until you get your shit together. i would recommend really to buy leo's booklist and read stuff from there, start rebuilding your life. you want to die? great! thats what this forum is all about. but do it the not-lazy way, you have to work for your death. (if youre not aware im talking about enlightenment of course).

have you applied anything mentioned in the videos or are you using them as background noise for your work and to deceive yourself by making you feel smart and like you're not wasting time?

I am 19 years old and im seriously thinking about whether to drop out from university. I am studying physics, and honestly, I wont lie to myself or you, it is hard, not unmanagably hard, but hard. And of course I find it frustrating, not only is it hard, but I feel no sense of purpose when im studying. I feel whenever im doing homework assignments im wasting my time (which makes studying even harder). I feel like it develops me extremely little in the context of what I feel I have to develop in order to be aligned with my inner self (if that makes sense). "following your bliss" tells me I should leave that, but my intellect says that my mind might want to just go the easy way out. Not only are my studies frustrating, but after the studies I have to serve 6 years in the army, which hell knows what unnecessary shit I will do. When I signed up for the contract I thought I was making the right choice (though I had my doubts) but now my views changed extremely much (after discovering spirituality, actualized.org). I can exit the contract and pay the money the army have spent on my studies. My potential plan is: getting a job to pay out the army. completing the life purpose course. I am currently in the beginning-middle way of it. right now my life purpose is to find my life purpose I feel like everything that concerns my growth or allows me to discover my life purpose is extremely interesting. Meditating more completing trifinity academy course i paused in order to start the life purpose course.( paused due to lack of time ) trying out whatever I might have in my mind that interest me in some way and see if I resonate with it. Reading self help books watching self development/psychology videos/lectures. I will live with my parents, which means I wont have to worry about food/shelter. Please tell me how it sounds from an outsider's perspective, I really cant trust my mind on this one. this "idea/opportunity" to drop out sounds sometimes so exciting that I notice the excitement and start to doubt it because it may be too exciting to be something truthful. #DontTrustTheMind #WtfAmISupposedToDoIfICantTrustTheMind. Thank you for reading.

I have my exam period starting next week and im anxious because im insecure about my knowledge. I am trying to stay present and not think about that but I still have that shortness of breath often, feelings in the chest, a general feel of sadness in my throat a lot of the time. some of it may be unrelated to the exams. I meditate everyday, so it's easier to not react on those feelings, but still, they're present there. I also start to feel very anxious when the thought comes "you just wasted X time". I think it's related to the studying. I am studying most of my free time. If im stuck on a certain question on a set of homework for example, I have that thought and it rushes in anxiety because I dont have much time to complete the homework. again, im trying to be as present as possible but it's till there, I dont think im fighting that feeling in the moment, but generally I think it's unhealthy and I should do something about it. i also have anxiety in social situations. i am extremely aware of that one in the moment and i dont let it bother me too much, but its there. its as though im observing all my unhealthy patterns and habits but that doesnt eliminate them, dont know how to go about solving them. Some ideas/videos/links would be appreciated as to how to deal with this "I waste time" anxiety and the general anxiety. also how do i deal with the anxiety during an exam?

I really recommend going through the playlist section of actualized.org youtube and watching videos, this is basic stuff and its covered in much more depth and quality that you will receive in the forum.

ask yourself how are you going to contribute to the world playing chess.

@pluto is that reward worth the time put in it? (for you) does it have negative consequences? like can it be a nuisance? or can u see auras that good that you cant see anything else? (practically blind) can one control it?

whats the use of it if youre not a spiritual teacher/shaman whatever?

if to compare with the desire to have sex for example. when that feeling suddenly pops up that you want to do it. do you have it about your work? are you addicted to it? what else makes this dopamine rush in you?

@Joseph Maynor that cleared up a lot for me, thanks.

there is that thing that makes you want to do something in the present moment. the counterpart of it is the mind, which rationalizes and comes up something with reasons not to do a certain thing. for example to initiate a conversation with someone. sometimes you kinda get the feel to talk, but then the mind comes and says "what will i get out of that" or "it will bother that person". so my question is, since there is so much talk about the "higher self", are we supposed to be doing as the higher self feels 100% of the time? or should we balance it with our mind's judgement. that is i guess what is being pointed to with campbell's "follow your bliss". this is also what was pointed at by carl jung with his ego idea i think. he said i think that we should always listen to that higher self. another question is how to distinguish that from deceitful thoughts, that are not your higher self, but just unconscious motivations of fear. or maybe its the samr thing, i dont know.

what makes a person experience joy and delight doing a certain thing while if it were to be another person doing the same thing, he wouldnt experience anything? what can one do to increase the probability of experiencing joy and delight?

lol I had a dream where I met Leo near a restaurant and he gave me self actualization tips

How do I make my goal to grow right now? how do I not pay much focus on future goals? My mind simply wont let me to be motivated by the now. all it wants is future. how do I make so the more I grow the more im motivated to grow?

@Joseph Maynor i had that question precisely because im doing the course

I currently study physics, i wont have any loans, but for the next 6 years after the degree I will have to work at something related. I dont see any deep meaning in studying physics, which is why its not deeply interesting, but interesting enough. I dont think I will do anything related to physics later in life, but currently i dont have a vision and im doing the life purpose course, so in order not to waste time im doing the degree. in your eyes do you think thats a smart thing to do?

In my opinion learning a language is a waste of time unless: it's your life purpose you're going to use that language frequently it's necessary for other reasons In my eyes a person has a limited amount of time in his life and the best use of that time is to experience growth in the most rewarding and fulfilling way. The time spent dabbling around learning languages one doesnt need I think would be much better spent pursuing a life purpose, raising consciousness or a million other more worthwhile things. I agree that learning languages may present some opportunity for growth but other activities I think are much more worthwhile. I think learning languages for the sake of being proud that one knows a lot of languages is a distraction.

What is the difference between the original and the 3rd edition except that the 3rd edition in kindle costs 70$ and the first edition costs 1$?

@Richard Alpert can you send me a link? or is it only in your country? on amazon the hardcover costs 30$ and the kindle 75$, extremely strange.

it motivates to see some advancement in other people, thanks for the share! btw in the LP course leo said one of the hardest thing to do is going to be the markeing, why dont you pick up some books on it (in case you didnt already) seth godin and such, great stuff.

I tried to do nofap carelessly and actually what it did is strenghtened my desire for certain sexual activities that im not even interested in, when i actually tried to do them they weren't exciting at all and it was all just empty anticipation. i actually experience a bit of fear right now realizing how dangerous it is playing with your brain and I want to get some information as to how exactly do rewire my brain to positive things. as i understand it, the more i think about something the stronger the network about that thing is the more desire i have to do it. thats what i guess happened with me. if its true then no pmo means more thinking about wanting sexual experiences and that actually creating addictions that werent even there. how do i turn this to my advantage for example to want to read books, study, do life purpose work, raising consciousness, etc.

I think a really great idea would be to keep the possibility to thumb up comments, but to not show the number of votes, instead, show incremental jumps in thumb-ups. like a purple color is 5 thumb ups, blue is like 10 and so on. that way, people would be able to tell the most agreed on posts, while eliminating a substantial amount of judgement about a post. I completely agree though with removing the reputation underneath the profile picture.

maybe mention it in your next video at the end, make some poll and put it in the description. I dont live in the US but I would like to see the video of it. Also I think you need more videos with your legs for the purple cow concept to work better