Tyler Robinson

I'm trying to imagine them trying to kill me. But it seems I won't feel rage. I'm experiencing the emotion of helplessness when I imagine myself in such a situation. As though I am at their mercy and they would finish their job and they would get what they were hoping to achieve..

@Razard86 and what happens after that. Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.

Yea this same thought ran through my mind just now.

Lol goddamn. Let go. If she really wants to be with you, you won't need to worry so bad. You can't hold on to something that never truly belonged to you.. Cure your lack of self love. Be with someone who truly wants you and rest will flow naturally.

Yea. Like if someone pushed me and ridiculed me, I feel they still care about me. It's a weird dynamic that I tend to look for love within hate.

Exactly. But... But.... We want to tightly cling to a faction of it, for hopes sake.

What are we doing other than hopelessly and selfishly trying to attain our respective agendas? What else is there to life? It's a circle. It's getting tighter. It's a tight circle. It's a tight circle It's a tight circle. It's getting tighter. That's how I see it. Life is all about agents and agency. We live in an agency. We did in an agency. It's a box. Everything is a box.. We are boxes chattering and wasting away our lives, our meanings mean nothing to the universe which is a giant space that keeps moving at infinite speed and doesn't care about what we love for ourselves. The desires of the universe has no relevance to who we are, we are narcissistic mortal beasts who have been bred time after time to occupy a space and eat it up to our heart's content. Everything is imaginary and that which is loving is full of light and it grows and it shows. Rest is just white noise.

Pickup is like a weapon that you could use both consciously and unconsciously. When used consciously, you end up with a wholesome relationship, of course definitions are relative as always. When used unconsciously, you end up leading someone on, getting into them and then breaking their heart, basically bad karma that you don't want on your spiritual resume. Pickup is not a philosophy, it's a tool.

This was so eloquent.

You integrate the deeper aspects of reality and truth, the abstract ones about meta truths and then accept the shallowness and brutality of everyday life. Both are opposite, one is the aspect of the universe and the other is the aspect of humanity, the duality of earth and heavens

Do you really think that comedians are funny people. I think a lot of them come from painful environments and experiences and turn to comedy to transmute these experiences. But not all of them, especially the ones who engage in dark humor..

Entry6/2 Monday, 15 August 2022, Columbus, Ohio. today was slightly better than yesterday Woke up late. my lsd trip is still pending and I couldn't do it because some stuff happened in between. I got derailed.

Whats the meaning of "Re?"

@flyingguitarist it interferes with core brain functions. It can cause Motor issues and loss of muscle control. Listen at your own risk. Happened to me. I was hospitalized with damage to my nerves. My legs lost sensation. I recovered after 5 days.

I'm not sure if you should do this. Any music that significantly changes your brain is dangerous.. I'd recommend you stay away. Increase your productivity by playing games, puzzles and exercises. Most music out there of this genre consists of binaural beat tracks that are known to be dangerous and induce psychotic states.

This could be possible that everything we experience is just an infinite long dream of never ending consciousness.

What possible bullshit are they playing?

Yea. I want someone who is understanding and caring. I'm quite open and understanding in relationships myself. I'd like to be with someone who is into genuine long term connections. I'm fiercely loyal..

You mean you want to control her?

@Newborn your sheer will to get away from such things. Nobody can help. You do it yourself.

Cut out distraction. First know what distracts you.

@Panteranegra if you intensely stare into a dog's eyes, they'll Bark at you.

Isn't mbti something that keeps changing?

Fixing an Emo girl, traumatic childhood, daddy issues, relationships for troubled people (to clear things up a bit for starters, I didn't have daddy issues but I had trauma issues). I always looked for a caring father figure in my relationships and I did act like a clingy needy girlfriend. But I don't see a problem with it unless it gets overbearing. What's the big deal if a guy acted like a father figure to me? I don't see the harm. I don't see the harm in him trying to fix me. If we're mutually sharing and caring for each other. The general conjecture from the tone of the forum is pretty much negative towards anyone who is dysfunctional, disordered, with Emo and trauma issues. I get that you guys come a pd(personal development) perspective so you're gonna be a bit hardcore (your time is precious and all that). But why is helping others such a bad deal? It would be incredibly judgemental in my perspective to simply discard a person or reject them because they have a history of trauma and not consider them fit for a relationship. Enlighten me here. I'm not talking about putting up with abuse, that's out of question and goes without saying. Yet, do you really believe that dysfunctional people don't deserve a chance at relationships? You could find a troubled man/woman and be their therapist, help them sort themselves out, be Empathetic(without tolerating abuse), accompany them to their therapy sessions, give them your love, babysit them, fix their life, help them find a new life and then happily grow with them. Why is this looked down upon? I understand that relationships should involve giving and receiving, sharing and mutual development. @Nilsi not trying to put you on the spot here (you could even tell me to remove this if you want), but your comment sort of motivated me to post this thread. I understand your perspective involves having a healthy relationship and not wasting time. As you stated in this comment. @Nilsi We can have a broader discussion on this matter. This rhetoric is similar to "throwing the baby out with the bathwater" or "we don't want to accommodate disabled people because they don't serve our best interests or purpose." Although this attitude absolves you from serving the needs of the disadvantaged and the troubled, it is incredibly myopic because it almost becomes discriminatory towards dysfunctional people, bordering on treating them as outcasts and undeserving of love. I could easily see a problem with a person who doesn't want to help themselves, in such a case it's a waste of time trying so hard to fix them. But what's so wrong about someone who is willing to grow with you. Someone who wants to make it work. Why would you want to discard people simply because they have mental disorders or trauma. Maybe they're immature and needy in your eyes. Troubled, Emo, dysfunctional, disordered in your eyes. But you could guide them, work with them as though you're working on a project, support them and wait for them to heal and have a wonderful relationship with them. No? Wouldn't you be happier to know that you brought a positive impact in someone's life, you fixed them and they had a chance to grow with you. Why is trying to fix an Emo girl/boy looked down upon? Unhealthy people also deserve a chance. Have mercy. Your arguments are welcome.