Tyler Robinson

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Sorry for being slightly critical earlier. I was thinking about the whole toxic Masculinity trend. @BipolarGrowth nice to see your progress. Now I'm realizing that something is better than nothing. So if these dudes are motivating you to take your baby steps towards building yourself, then that's great. Awesome.

Finally someone says something that needed to be said. Thank you. It's ridiculous that guy is worshipped.

Sounds like you still have a lot of inner work to do because you’re attracting the wrong girls. It's called lust. And such things don't last long. What you call her ‘falling in love’ with you in the beginning is just infatuation. This is usually the most toxic time when games are played and people are acting based on traumas. It’s a tiring game to play. Eventually one person wises up and exits the relationship. Or they work through any differences and move to the next level. So you can't escape but it's a learning process as well. You cannot real love that easily. Genuine Love is rare these days and it’s something that doesn’t happen instantly. It’s true that you develop and grow love so long as you are both growing together. The beginning stages of love are very shallow, but both people can work past that if they commit to eachother and isn’t one sided. It’s something you build with someone over time, the beginning 3-6 months of a relationship is usually the hardest time to work past.People give up so easily and don’t make it past the initial hurdles to get into a deeper relationship. You know it’s genuine love when everything is calm, you don’t have anxiety or feel like you need to be a different person. you know eachother well enough to be comfortable in your own skin. Maybe it happens that you meet someone with whom you can be yourself with from the get go, those are the ones you should keep around if you find a good person like that. No facades. In fact you should make it your mission to become one of those people, then others will want to keep you around. what you want is basically 2 secure individuals who are both comfortable and trusting with eachother. It just won’t work that way if one person is avoidant and one person is anxious (attachment types) there will be a constant state of anxiety and discomfort or control. Look into attachment styles too.

I remember you telling me that you were INTJ? Oops I think integral was INTJ. My brain is really not functioning today. I guess I need to go to bed. Bye.

@Jake Chambers I'm not sure what to say. Cancer. What's your age? I can't even comprehend what you're going through.

I'm scratching my brain since 4 hours. All im getting are a few words scattered in space.. Creative exhaustion. This is after I made that long list in your journal. (so exhausted right now Ughhhhhhh)

Well. Getting a great guy is equally frustrating for me. Such is the way of life. Swallow the pill. Make more friends in the mean time. Long term dating is not much worth. Too much effort, too little prizes. Don't go after girls who are too snobbish, they flake crazy. Go for sweet needy girls.

You are out of this universe. I just don't function If I am forced. Your exact opposite. How do you function? Don't tell me you worked as a maid in the 16th century? Be my Maid now.

Why don't you get more girls?

I need a longish answer. I'm already telling you. So eat a lot.

Can you walk out of target please?

Omg @Carl-Richard I neeeeeeeeeeeeed your help!!!!!!!! My brain isn't functioning. Give me ideas plz

I don't give a fuck.. Cheap asshole. You hurt me. You womanizer

He is so cheap and lame... Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!

The other thing I can think of is limited social media and political consumption. Does art add beauty to life?

@thepixelmonk thanks.

Recently discovering Bernardo Kastrup.

No. Anybody can imagine it for themselves. And maybe I can get some pointers for my own imagination.

A strong firm education system.

Depends on what you mean by "betray." Did they scam you financially? Did they cheat on you in a relationship? Did they hurt you in friendship? Backstabbing? Did they suddenly ghost you? Did they break a promise or turned against you? Not sure what that person did to you. If they caused you harm, it's best to let them go. Because they don't deserve your innocence and trust you placed in them.

I'll also do some forum browsing here.

I'm planning on taking LSD in liquid form. Few drops under my tongue.

Razard86 and puporing are good role models for me on the forum. They always have something nice to share.