Tyler Robinson

Sometimes I hate men. Sometimes I love men

I'm a woman. I feel like a woman. And this generates intense anxiety in me. I will never get the man I desire. I will never get the man of my dreams But girls are fed this dream that someone is waiting for them.

That must suck. Sorry. I feel you. But I have rejected guys. It's something I don't know what to do about. I always feel guilty later.

Not meaning to oftend you. But recently a guy on the forum was ghosted by his ex. And it was unbearable and he talked about suicide. His messages were left on read. I was ghosted by my ex too. It felt like a mental shock. So I could understand what he was going through. I felt so much pity for him, I cried so badly. I even offered myself to him as a rebound that he could use to get over his ex for a few weeks. It was that bad. He thanked me later for serving as a temporary girlfriend and for giving him emotional support. It's okay to not read or reply stuff if it's a casual date and you know that person since a few days to a week. But in a relationship that's, beyond two months, ghosting, leaving on read, blocking etc, even dumping by text, basically not giving proper closure to the other person, I see these behaviors as reckless and uncaring of the other's emotional states.

This mentality is quite reasonable and logical. It makes perfect sense. It's called cognitive dissonance arising from mental conflict on what to follow and a base conflict with your conscience. Suggest you imagine a scenario. You need to imagine yourself as a girl who was raped by Harvey Weinstein. Now you watch Harvey Weinstein preaching some philosophy of life on TV with your daughter. Will you tell your daughter - hey no worries, even if he did some offensive shit to your mom, it's okay, you don't have to reject him, he also has some good things to say. Of course not. That's the kind of moral dilemma people deal with when supporting gurus and teachers. Of course role models cannot be perfect. Certain flaws can be forgiven for example if your role model has cheated on his partner or said racist things long back at the age of 14 stuff like that. But with Tate, it's impossible to do that since it's not a matter of past, he continues to hammer the Same toxic views on women just a week ago on Piers Morgan interview.

@StarStruck .. Hmm. @Danioover9000 is not a girl. He is a British dude, just for clarity sake. He is simply using a female picture, I don't know for what reason. So his opinions can't be equated to that of a female. I am stating this for clarity sake because I am constantly being lumped with him but he is a man and I'm a woman so our opinions are going to differ in that regard. Obviously he can't be speaking like a woman and this is understandable.

In moments when I'm experiencing intense anger and hate, I don't feel like watching that video because it represents hypocrisy to me. Cold cold heart, cold cold world, all speak of love to the hungry dog within me.

I want substances. Right now I'm not able to exercise due to back pain and some injuries.

How do you cope with the feeling of desperation? How do you entertain yourself when you are feeling bored and bogged down? I don't feel like listening to sad songs.. Recently I discovered feeling rain drops over my roof helps. Just the feeling of rain drops touching my skin felt slightly better during a moment where I felt extreme loss of will. Do you use music or food as a coping strategy. If not, then what else.

For this Halloween, I will be wearing this one. What costume or cosplay character are you planning on this Halloween?

The episode on Love.

Sometimes I cannot deal with life. I wish I could die in a loving embrace.

Also to make it clear, appearance of a man is not a factor in my eyes at all. Even if a man looked ugly, I will be completely okay with him as long as he had a strong moral character and a decent amount of integrity as a man. One quality I highly admire in men is their ability to keep their word. If a man says a word, he should stick to it and never flip on what he said. So if he says that he is going to help a friend but turns away at the last minute, I don't consider him a man. For me what a man means with his words and promises has a huge value in my heart and mind, and if he doesn't value his own words/promises then that's loss of masculinity in my mind. For me Masculinity is not defined so much as to what a man has gathered in terms of money, objects, toys like cars or the women he scored. For me Masculinity is defined by his courage in dangerous circumstances, his compassion towards someone needing help, his nobility, his respect for women, his need and drive to help society, his generosity in forgiving women and bad men, his own moral integrity in not bending his values for gain, his lack of agenda in pursuing ambitions honestly, his keen sense of judging right from wrong, and his passion to create a better humanity That's a true man in my eyes. Rest doesn't matter. I hold men above me and in a lofty kind of way, if that makes sense.

If I had a thousand lives, not gonna give him(Andrew Tate) a chance even in a single one of those lives. I like men who are intensely loyal and don't shout down at a woman. Harem keeping men are extremely undesirable to me. I don't consider Andrew masculine or manly, sorry not a pimp. Also someone who boasts money is not masculine. I consider it "un-masculine" and cheap. I don't expect a man to act cheap ever. I have extremely high standards that men have to pass to be considered manly/masculine/alpha in my eyes.. Below are alpha men in my eyes.

I feel like puking. I ate too many tomatoes Why do I always fuck myself up? My tummy is suffering badly. Nooooooo. Those tomatoes were juicy so I kept eating. Argh. What can I do to stop this. I am an idiot.

I ate a lot of tomatoes just now. I'm wondering why I'm having acid in tummy my tummy is feeling messed up. I'm such an idiot.

Also to make it clear, appearance of a man is not a factor in my eyes at all. Even if a man looked ugly, I will be completely okay with him as long as he had a strong moral character and a decent amount of integrity as a man. One quality I highly admire in men is their ability to keep their word. If a man says a word, he should stick to it and never flip on what he said. So if he says that he is going to help a friend but turns away at the last minute, I don't consider him a man. For me what a man means with his words and promises has a huge value in my heart and mind, and if he doesn't value his own words/promises then that's loss of masculinity in my mind. For me Masculinity is not defined so much as to what a man has gathered in terms of money, objects, toys like cars or the women he scored. For me Masculinity is defined by his courage in dangerous circumstances, his compassion towards someone needing help, his nobility, his respect for women, his need and drive to help society, his generosity in forgiving women and bad men, his own moral integrity in not bending his values for gain, his lack of agenda in pursuing ambitions honestly, his keen sense of judging right from wrong, and his passion to create a better humanity That's a true man in my eyes. Rest doesn't matter. I hold men above me and in a lofty kind of way, if that makes sense.

If I had a thousand lives, not gonna give him a chance even in a single one of those lives. I like men who are intensely loyal and don't shout down at a woman. Harem keeping men are extremely undesirable to me. I don't consider Andrew masculine or manly, sorry not a pimp. Also someone who boasts money is not masculine. I consider it "un-masculine" and cheap. I don't expect a man to act cheap ever. I have extremely high standards that men have to pass to be considered manly/masculine/alpha in my eyes.. Below are alpha men in my eyes.

@StarStruck I feel like all the women who support him are probably paid off by him, like paid testimonials on a nutrient marketing site. In this case, instead of branding a product, he is branding his own self, this can pay him huge dividends because if he ever has to open a conglomerate of his business and services, his brand tag would be enough to sell everything. Pretty much like Johnson and Johnson

I have actually not really observed this phenomenon. Guys who are starved of sex tend to act asexual. Sex is like exercising a muscle.

Then I should start eating those

I like dummy guys. They are so simple and I value simplicity which is a hard commodity these days. Also my father worked in construction and factory work. Maybe that's why I am so attracted to Blue Collar factory guys. They are loyal to their wives, just like my dad was loyal to my mom till the end of his life. And they have a lot of compassion. They are not like Eckhart Tolle. But a different kind of stage BLUE compassion. It's not like they don't have expectations. I don't have a problem with a man wanting authority in a relationship with me. I'm extremely subservient in a relationship and I can give all the authority to a man in a relationship, though I won't act like that around other men, they are not my husbands so zero obligation. But I would make a docile wife. I really want the man to take charge and own me. However most men these days are very feminine both in appearance and behavior, I'm no longer attracted to such men, they want a dominating career oriented woman and I don't fit that bill. So it's kinda hard to find matured, independent, dominant men The world stopped producing them long ago because of technology and easy life. Death of masculinity. Death of femininity. Where there is no master, there is no follower.

I like dummy guys. They are so simple and I value simplicity which is a hard commodity these days. Also my father worked in construction and factory work. Maybe that's why I am so attracted to Blue Collar factory guys. They are loyal to their wives, just like my dad was loyal to my mom till the end of his life. And they have a lot of compassion. They are not like Eckhart Tolle. But a different kind of stage BLUE compassion. It's not like they don't have expectations. I don't have a problem with a man wanting authority in a relationship with me. I'm extremely subservient in a relationship and I can give all the authority to a man in a relationship, though I won't act like that around other men, they are not my husbands so zero obligation. But I would make a docile wife. I really want the man to take charge and own me. However most men these days are very feminine both in appearance and behavior, I'm no longer attracted to such men, they want a dominating career oriented woman and I don't fit that bill. So it's kinda hard to find matured, independent, dominant men The world stopped producing them long ago because of technology and easy life. Death of masculinity. Death of femininity. Where there is no master, there is no follower.

O mother earth, create these blokes for me right now. I want them. Especially the one at the far right. He looks perfect masculine.

I would want to see that a materialistic paradigm is not necessarily an expression of Masculinity. I can see a guy chopping wood in a cave and think of him as masculine as long as he knows what he wants in life and he knows how to be true to himself. Maybe the modern version of masculinity is driven by social media. Any man who is dripping with sweat looks hot, sexy and masculine, doesn't have to be Andrew Tate. I couldn't find pictures of men dripping with sweat so this is what I could find after a ton of effort. Ready to destroy some innocent girls ? They smell like coal and wood. Hard work, discipline, respect, compassion, honesty, genuineness, healthy stage Blue, protection and understanding of a woman's heart and then slowly traveling to impress her womb. Feed her, clothe her, save her, keep her and never be angry or hurt her. Exactly how little girls imagine. Tate does take conservative traditionalist approaches sometimes but they are more red oriented, control rather than respect oriented and mixed with some "woman are beneath" kinda inferior questionable takes baked into it.