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Life Purpose, Burning The Boats? Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (53) 7 o'clock dayz - GREEN Wasted a lot of time but got everything green yay! Watched two episodes of Shameless and a lot of bullshit YT. Interviews with rappers and shit. Got the idea of watching the life purpose course again because I realized I did not fully implemented and "went into the woods". I'm more like standing before the woods going in 10 steps and wondering if I didn't begin the path in a wrong part of the woods lol. aka dabble dabble shit. I know my life purpose and feel a drive but also resistance, need to slowly dissolve that. - Consciousness is the key

The Game Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (52) 7 o'clock dayz - Need to practice my routine again Meditated, went to Amsterdam to game with my friend. 5 Approaches, gotto say it's nerve wrecking every time. Need to practice consistency but can't until I live in a big city. So fuck game for now, I'm focusing on online money to move. Did some research and made some changes to my website.

Two Gold Nuggets Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - 2 times 30 min Programming Subconscious - Streak (51) 7 o'clock dayz Feeling better than yesterday, I found myself a bit back today. Two major things I need to talk about. Tomorrow I will wake up at 8 so I get better sleep it is already late now. Yesterday I couldn't sleep all night, probably because I fucked u p my sleeping pattern in the weekend. At first I was worrying about things I know that were nothing to worry about. So I decided to read Happiness By Design by Paul Dolan at like 12 in the evening. Then I tried to sleep but couldn't again. Then I meditated for a while don't know how long exactly but at least 15 minutes. I tried to sleep and couldn't again, so now its 2 o'clock in the morning. Then I got onto a crazy train of thought. I was thinking about: why do I do personal-development? I realized I was slowly introduced to it and I thought I always watched it with some awareness but then I realized I wasn't. I realized that I was sort of binge-watching self-help content and that if I would have watched it with full awareness I would probably adjusted my life. I realized how much asleep I was otherwise I couldn't have lived my life like I was living it, with a lot of self-sabotaging habits. This tripped me out so I dug deeper. I asked again: Why do I do personal-development? I realized that I'm doing it because I want to change my life. I asked why do I want to change my life? Because I'm not happy with where I'm at. Why didn't you change your life then? At this moment I saw how much asleep I really was how fucking much. Then I formed a picture in my mind of what I was striving for and I felt such motivation such a strong drive to do something that I couldn't sleep. The picture became clearer and clearer and then eventually I fell asleep. I woke up at baseline level again, I'm trying to get my vision back I lost a bit of it. The second thing is the video under this post. The times where I felt happy and I was floating through life were the times that I thought: "You just have to share." Now I see this concept before my eyes and I recognize how true this is! (yes the second point is smaller ) - Self-Awareness is the key

It was at this moment the dude realized, ...He fucked up. Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - Fuck me Programming Subconscious - Streak (50) 7 o'clock dayz - Fuck Me There once was a time where I was motivated. Now I'm not, better get my ass in first gear when I wake up tomorrow. Had a big party two days ago, drank way too much. Barfed the next day couldn't do anything that day sick as fuck. Why did I do that? A so called subconscious rampage lol. - Self-Awareness is the key

Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (50) 7 o'clock dayz - Fuck Me Adwords and school. I need to make money online. Fuck I NEED TO! It's not looking good right now but I need to keep experimenting. - Self-Awareness is the key

I love your journal man, keep the good work up! Great insight if you still do things that you want to do and don't get distracted. Like you said the key is consciousness, but your still not enlightened so don't fall in the trap of your body: "The least amount of effort." and just sit on the internet all day.

Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (49) 7 o'clock dayz - Fuck Me I don't have a big habit streak but my LP streak is mad good. Did a lot today again. Setup adwords now it's time for the experiments. - Self-Awareness is the key

@Venus It's a mix of both. For example I decided that I'm going to make a website to try to earn money. Now I thought about how it's going to effect me in good ways and in the bad ways. I do the subconscious programming everyday that I contemplate the good and bad things that will happen. Now when I decide to do something tomorrow or today I will do it. Sometime when I procrastinate I punish myself by still doing it late at night. So I punish myself for not doing. In end it comes down to habits and making time every day to do the things you know you need to do. Thanks for the reminder! I know I should do it but it's just hard to do it. I can say it but it is still hard to do it.

Fuck yhea!

Judgement Habit Streak (4): Meditation (30 min) - SDS, 40 minutes really good Programming Subconscious - Streak (48) 7 o'clock dayz Woke up and looked into google analytics and ad-words. Went to the park you see above, and meditated 40 min. To school for some classes. And then I got to climb again, was very frustrated because I could't accomplish the climb that I wanted to accomplish and focused on enjoying the process. - Self-Awareness is the key

Meditations I see a lot of people on this website meditate a lot and I know I need to do that too but I just first have to get out of my orange haze. I'm always thinking about things I want like money and women. I need to get it and move on as fast as possible. I need to get to a peaceful place where I can just accept myself. I went out into nature to meditate this morning: Did a 40 minute SDS with the do nothing method like always. It was peaceful but it is funny how we don't have any real nature left in Holland. While sitting here I heard the light buzz from the highway and realized that the life beyond this park is just moving on wrapped up in the things it has to do. I want to do this more, being in nature. But I feel like I'm not in the right place to do it. When I was sitting here there were people with dogs walking past all the time and every time I though if I would have walked there and I saw this young guy sitting completely still on a bench I would judge him as a fool as a weird man. I realize that I still have a lot of judgement and that I care way too much. I should just accept myself and realize that meditating in a park is the thing that makes me interesting. It is the thing that makes me special. Now that I'm typing this I realize that this is all bullshit concepts labeling things but fuck it I'm still wrapped up in status and shit.

Longboard Guide Habit Streak (3): Meditation (30 min) - SDS, Alright not great Programming Subconscious - Streak (47) 7 o'clock dayz - fuck yhea we did New period of school begins, it's about web development need to know HTML, CSS, C#, Databases and Scrum all those good things. Worked on my main value giving post I need to complete for my longboard website. Found a great rescource for a new blogger of anyone who's interested. http://www.smartpassiveincome.com/podcasts/master-content-marketing-neil-patel/ There gold advice in there just use it. Here is my new post on how to make a professional longboard. I think it came out great now its just the marketing for that part I need to do. - Self-Awareness is the key

@Venus Hey, love your kind words bro! Honestly I have periods where it all goes to plan and everything falls into place and moments where I get distracted like today. All day work and then chilling with friends eating shit food. I find that in the periods where I actually do shit I have a clear vision of what I want. Like I want this business so bad look what it could do for me! And I'm afraid of what will happen if I just do nothing and relax, I feel a sense of emergency in my head it goes like this: "Micheal, if you don't do this you won't have enough money later, or you will have a shit job and fucking hate your life for not doing the work. The time is now otherwise it won't fucking happen, DO IT."

Here's my take on it: What @aurum said is right it's the underlying behaviors. Even if you'r a nerd but you have certain trait you will be considered a attractive nerd. Who says that all nerds are unattractive. You may like some people, you may dislike others. You can not be attractive to every girl. You also have to match in other ways. You described it very nicely :). some traits off the top of my head: Let her show you are attracted to her, clear intent Lead Be Emotinally Unreactive < this is a big one nerds are emotionally reactive most of the time - aka they care what other people think Don't cover yourself up, fully express yourself Be on your path, you got your own shit going on

Sorry but I had to do this... lol In normal people, going up to a stranger is considered authism. In normal people, living life conscious is considered authism. In normal people, meditating is considered authism. In normal people, Mac-Donalds is considered as food. Fuck normal.

Houses Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (46) 7 o'clock dayz Switch your focus to the things you want to achieve and your brain will solve the problem. Solutions will come up, but be aware don't get distracted. - Self-Awareness is the key

Houses Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) Programming Subconscious - Streak (45) 7 o'clock dayz Woke up late, hmmmmmm shit. Searched for a house in the city with a friend. And went to a work bbq. - Self-Awareness is the key

Web 2.0 Habit Streak (3): Meditation (30 min) - Nice Clean SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (44) 7 o'clock dayz Worked, and worked on my proactivity challange. - Self-Awareness is the key

You should try do as much as you can when you wake up at the beginning of the day. When you have that habit in place everything will fall into place but focus first on that morning routine. That's what helps me at least. A suggestion is to do the workout session, flossing and working on your goal as soon as you get out of bed this will setup a really good day. Otherwise you will be like well I didn't do the workout session in the morning so why bother to do this.

The Narrow Path Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (43) 7 o'clock dayz Started a 30 proactivity challenge focus: money. Went climbing witch brings me in a nice flow state. - Self-Awareness is the key

FUCK!! Habit Streak (1) (FUCK): Meditation (30 min) - Late Night SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (42) 7 o'clock dayz Fuck I fell off the wagon. Failed to wake-up at 7 went straight to bed again. Tomorrow I will do it because when I do all my habits in the morning my day can't fail anymore its so good. Also failed to learn for my test that I have tomorrow so I punished myself by still doing it even if its half past 12 in the evening. - Self-Awareness is the key

The fact is that you first need people to "buy-in" to your idea. They see that you have authority on the subject so they trust your advice. The e-mail shit doesn't matter, you don't need a email list and if you have one you can also mail once a month. You just need to go with what feels comfortable to you. If you don't want to email everyday and have some scammy site don't do it. But remember to have a "buy-in" and be willing to give up some money because the scammy shit actually does work.

The Actual Work Habit Streak (13) (Still Going Strong): Meditation (30 min) - Sleepy Sit Programming Subconscious - Streak (41) 7 o'clock dayz Did a big test at school. Then thought about the next steps I need to take to develop myself. I was questioning why? Why am I reading all this shit about life? It is to better my life right? How do I better my life? By learning more? I realized that action is required for me to grow not more information. That is also where my life purpose is currently taking me. Deep into the implementation of the simple concepts that everybody knows but nobody acts upon. Application is the key. I'm way too curious but maybe I can harness this and turn it into a strength. - Self-Awareness is the key

Trying Things Habit Streak (12): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Nice morning sit Programming Subconscious - Streak (40) 7 o'clock dayz - Perfect! Recorded a video today. Going to keep it private, I need a lot of practice first. It's about actual implementation and the channel is slowly taking a form in my head. Follow my intuition. If I wake up early my whole day is transformed it's so fucking cool to see the contrast. I need to keep this habit going YES DO IT, YOU GO GIRL! hahahaha. - Self-Awareness is the key

Friends Habit Streak (11): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (39) ADD HABIT: 7 o'clock dayz I realize now that I'm so lucky in the friend apartment. I found a group of 12 friends in high-school and still we hangout at least twice a month. They'r funny and one of them even goes deep in conversations. For anyone looking to make friends, its not about having deep conversations it's about relating and just having fun for me. It doesn't need to be deep because everything I do in the self-help field is deep so I have enough of that. Having deep conversations is really cool and fun and makes a good connection but it is not why I seek friends. We are social creatures that's why I have friends. Its not about making myself a better person because I have this friend. It's about sharing experiences. Fuck I got that one good, Friendship for me is about sharing experiences and having fun. The one thing I need in a friend is the same kind of humor. I actually do think my friends distract me too much from actualizing myself at the moment so I need to dial them back for a bit - Self-Awareness is the key