Joseph Maynor

I enjoy communicating with you all. That's a part of how we learn. I've yet to find anyone quite like me lol.

This is a useful article IMO. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/living-neurodivergence/202509/what-to-do-when-your-neurodivergent-kid-misbehaves

But when you trip you're also experiencing projections of ego, right? So you rid yourself of those now, but they're there when you're tripping too.

@Hojo I like yours. Black is my favorite color. It's the absence of color.

@Cred What is this psychology around neurodivergence, and why is it important for you to communicate? You seem to have a stake in this conversation for some unknown reason?

I didn't want to do graduate school myself. No need.

What was your degree in?

Wow you guys see the woman's image very different from me. I didn't consider any of the words, just the image of the woman in my assessment. Interesting issue for difference in interpretation.

They're kinda 2 sides of a coin IMO. Because I'm trained in music improvisation, I'm very off the cuff. Ideally though, there would be the right mixture between vibe-driven and strategic. Spinoza anticipated this in his epistemology where there is sense experience, then reason, then intuition (ascending in importance). Sense experience would be vibe, but ideally it would be considered through reason and then through intuition to be best aligned.

Interesting, She looks happy to me. I don't see it the same way you do.

I am heavily vibe-oriented, but I also love theory too, and not even. It just depends. I'm weirder than neurodivergence it seems.

This is a little harsh, no?

Surely you have more of a life purpose than this lol.

Very true. It's a collaboration between me and AI. But don't cede too much, you have to double-check because AI can have bias. And AIs also conflict and will conflict more moving forward. We're in a new age for sure.

True. If you ever felt awkward in normal social interactions.

This is why I couldn't stand engineering and switched majors to philosophy in college. I work in law, but I've studied many areas of law to get a big picture so when I need to use law I know from the top down how it works and relates with law in general. But once I have this schema, my memory and learning is strong. But if you ask me to memorize a list of random things, I hate that. I need to find a way to have a bigger picture reason or model to learn something effectively. Same thing when I was learning math. I would read advanced math books to find out why algebra was important to learn. So, basically if I want to learn something I have to spend some time first feeling motivated to learn it, and secondly understanding the why and big picture of it. Ditto for when I was learning how to play Jazz, I read dozens of theory books just to feel motivated to learn how to improvise. I needed that big picture more for the motivation (inspiration), because those books really didn't help me play better Jazz trumpet. Mostly due to finding my own voice/style.

When it comes to self help work or any kind of project, I have to have a big picture understanding before I develop motivation to take action. It's hard for me to just do tasks when I can't see why I'm doing them or haven't clarified the link to my own systems for doing self help or any project really. I need that top down sense of understanding, and then I can take massive action because I know exactly why I'm doing every single thing. So sometimes I have a block in motivation if I haven't gone through this process, which in itself is a project and takes a lot of organization. It's like having to do twice the amount of work. Most people can just take action and don't even worry about this clarifying issue. I need organization (orderliness) to precede industriousness.

Generally, my instinct is spot on but the presentation of it could be refined. Sometimes a raw insight isn't ready for prime time, so that's where -- like you say -- minding the gap between feeling and presentation is a good habit and practice. It's good to develop more or less of a habit of this, I agree. It's actually hard for me to put this into practice because I place a lot of trust in my reactions actually. They're just not always as socially calibrated as they might have been if I used more detachment and reason. But my reactions are key to me finding out how I feel about something deep down.

Sometimes I trust reactivity more than non-reactivity actually, but I'm a very intuitive person. There is insight in reactivity, but I agree with you it's good to be careful and not careless with reactivity -- because it can ruin your life if you let your impulses run wild without some degree of strategic insight into what you're doing.

What do you do now for a living if you don't mind my asking?