dekoi

It's not a dip. It's been like this all my life. The stuff I've tried to do is just exhausting. Not rewarding or fulfilling by any stretch of the imagination unfortunately. I've always had something to keep me busy. First it was mom way back when. Then came TV and video games. Being proactive has never been in me.

The brain, like every body part, tries to regenerate itself if it's hurt and immunize whenever possible. Being neurotic and envious and all that are ways the brain is trying to do that. Unfortunately, those behaviours are protective in nature, so you get stuck. These behaviours are, fortunately for those of us who want to improve their lives, pointers to the root cause. You're gonna want to look into shadow work. Teal Swan has a book on it called The Completion Process, as well as many videos on these kinds of problems.

I'm too scared to. I have this weird fear of failure where I don't wanna do anything new unless it's on impulse or something I know I'll enjoy. It's one of the big reasons I'm unemployed. It's also one of the reasons I started going to therapy.

I've asked myself that quite often and I couldn't really find an answer. I was always bored as a kid as well. I was never drawn to anything. I've always needed someone to tell me what to do. The article you linked seems to presume that people have this natural tendency to do the things they like, which is of course nonsense.

One of the things one must do to figure out life purpose is knowing what values one holds highly. I can't figure it out. If someone was to ask me "what do you like?" or "what do you find important" I would have no idea how to respond. I don't even know if it's that I can't feel or if I simply don't care about life. I've been stuck on this for months now. It's highly annoying me.

Hello everyone I'm currently trying to improve my life, but it seems that I've come across a strange issue. I seem to effectively have a lot less mental energy than the average person. I say this because I've noticed that I get tired very quickly. I do have the same amount of mental energy as the average person, but my brain is using it very inefficiently. From what I've been told by professionals and the things I've read, I experience way more at the same time than most people do. Imagine not having peripheral vision but have focus everywhere. You'd need a lot more energy to process that amount of extra information, which you don't have. What this lengthy explanation means for me is that I can't for example work a fulltime job if I wanted to because I use up so much of my energy. It manifests itself both mentally and physically. To give an example of last week: I was helping my dad with his work. He does graphic design and I like that too. The problem however is that I had to translate my feelings about very abstract things into words, then communicate them to my dad and then I had to listen to him responding and interpret that. Y'know, a conversation. I helped him out for an hour and I was wrecked for the rest of the day. I had to lie down for a while, take a nap to be functional again afterward. An added problem to this is that I don't have a lot of self-awareness, so this kind of fatigue sneaks in, especially while I have something fun I can focus on for a long period of time. I can get lost in what I'm doing when something is fun. What I'd like to know if there's a way I can either increase the amount of mental energy I have or spend the energy I have more efficiently. I want to be able to live my life, not having to constantly think about how much energy I have. Thanks in advance everyone, dekoi